I'm just very lazy lately. I don't know what is happening to me but it seems that I was been tired the whole week. I know I really need a much needed rest or maybe a very relaxing long vacation. It's just that I am working a lot these days and I don't know why I am doing it to myself but hopefully things will be okay soon.
Oh how I wish I can have a long vacation away from my so busy life here in Los Angeles. I guess I kind of tired staying here already. It's been the same environment and crowd I've been with all these years and it had caused me a lot of deceit and frustrations lately. I've been very worried about it and I can't wait to get away from it sometime. Hopefully things will be manageable some day.
I am up for a glorious ten day vacation next month and I cannot wait to have it started. I am very excited about it already. I promised to myself that I will really enjoy it to the hilt although it will fall on a Holy Week unfortunately. I will be going to Mexico for this vacation and it will start on March 25 up to April 4. I hope it will be a very nice and enjoyable vacation for me.
My goodlooking boyfriend in Mexico, who is also my official tour guide for this vacation would want to bring me near the beach. Although I am very scared of the water, I hope that I will like it there. Maybe I can try swimming there, now that my ears were already fixed which will not give me any problems anymore unlike before and that my ear doctor had already given his one-hundred percent permission and allowed me to go swimming. It will be nice probably to singlehandedly bask under the sunny Mexican skies in one of the remotest and pristine white beach somewhere in Cancun.
My goal for this short vacation is to solely observe and personally witness how the Mexicans celebrate the "Semana Santa" or the so-called Holy Week. Here in California and the United States in general, we don't celebrate or observe it. Unlike in the Philippines, I grew up witnessing the solemn celebration of the Holy Week and it's been haunting me to see one. It's been years that I haven't seen or participated in a decent Holy Week procession so I may be witnessing one of this during my vacation.
As I browsed the internet where to find a nice place for these solemn processions I kind of like to go to Taxco for their so-called "Sarsuela" about the "Last Supper" and I also read that the people there celebrate it for the whole week with one major long procession every night. That would be interesting to see myself! It might be good to be there to witness it maybe. My vacation will start on Palm Sunday and ends on Easter Sunday. How appropriate was that really!
This will be the PRAY part of the title of this blog above.
My second goal in going to Mexico will probably go to Oaxaca, which is the food capital of the country. I would like to see the place with it's unique and antiquated colonial setting and maybe all of it and everything about it. This is the place where they grow a lot of cacao trees which bears the fruit that yield the cacao seeds needed for making delicious chocolates. I've heard their chocolates were very unique, special, and famous as well as their interesting local cuisine. So when I'm there I might try their local food as well.
I've heard their "flautas" with the yummy mole sauce was been very highly recommended online and for sure I will personally try it. Oaxaca is a very fertile place where eighty percent of the country's produce were grown there and I can't wait to visit one of the local flea markets and meticulously check them out when I am there. It will probably be a very interesting and yummy visit in this food capital of Mexico!
This will be the EAT part of the title of this blog above.
Then next, I can't wait to personally explore the white beaches in Cancun and see the beautiful pyramids and virgin jungles of the Yucatan. My boyfriend had already told me that he will bring me there and tour me in Cancun as well as in the Yucatan. I can't wait for it to happen and personally fall in love with mother nature as well as the blessed virgin jungles of the Yucatan, famous for its past history, as well as the pristine white beaches of Cancun. Who knows I might find a boyfriend there. Hehehe!
Well, apparently my very handsome tour guide was my boyfriend so it will be inapproppriate to look for another one but it will be an appropriate place to magically fall in love again with this handsome Mexican guy I've been dating for three years. The reason why I wanted to personally come back to Mexico was also to see him and enjoy our time together away from the reality that I have here in Los Angeles.
This will be the LOVE part of the title of the blog above.
Life can be intensively and intrusively cruel sometimes. Now I technically got bored and tired with my everyday monotonous routines. Work, eat, sleep, drive, work, eat, sleep, drive were been very monotonous and boring to me. There's no more life in it and it gets me irritable and agitated sometimes. I just can't stand it anymore.
I hope my decision of having a ten day vacation is good enough for me to alter these boring daily routines. I am sick and tired of it already. Oh how I wish I could leave tomorrow and get away from these tiring routines and places. But sad to say I am still stuck with it for quite some time until my vacation is due.
Oh, I can't wait to solemnly pray, marvelously eat, and magically fall in love in Mexico spending my precious time with my goodlooking Mexican boyfriend and just enjoy everything that my blessed Mexico can offer. I really can't wait for it to happen. Oh please God make it happen. Thank you.
Monday, February 25, 2013
Sunday, February 24, 2013
It's That Tax Time Again
I am quite a pessimist lately and I am too lazy to do some simple chores. All I wanted to do is rest and sleep and I always hunger for more sleep. Recuperating from a lot of days of work maybe. It is a pity because I kept working everyday trying to make ends meet but it seems that there is always a problem and it seems that I've been burried in this problems forever.
Eversince I lived here in America, it seems that my life was already been doomed. At first I dreamt of coming here for the American Dream but that dream was long gone. Yes, I have a more decent work that pays good but as time elapsed it seems that having money made me want more but unluckily it brought me too much problems.
Wanting more was a big mistake. Now I'm kind of embroiled in this problem and got stuck with it forever. I have to keep myself working in order to at least pay for all the debts that I've incurred eversince. Actually, I didn't really have that much debt at all it the tax that was killing me every year.
With the kind of income I amassed each year because of working too hard I didn't have any idea or I was so naive that the tax after the year ends was very exorbitant. I've regretted doing it but it's already too late. Now I have to work my behind off just to pay it off in just a short period of time so that all this problems will be eradicated immediately.
I've longed for those simple and peaceful life I've had in the Philippines free of taxes. Although I'm poor there but my freedom was too surreal to be felt around. How I wish I could go back there and lived my previous life. I really wish for that time to happen.
Now, I felt I am doomed to pay all this taxes with Uncle Sam. I didn't even know that having to work extra had entailed much burden. I thought it will brought me more money and happiness. That's just the sweetener of the ugly and bad tasted cake, a cover-up for a cheap cake. Aaah.... I was duped and fooled.
Well, that was thelesson I've learned for now and I hope I won't be meeting the same mistakes again in the future. For now, I have to concentrate for myself to pay off this debt which in the first place was been biased for the working force like me to do but what else I could do. It's the law so they say.
I have no qualms about it as long as it's fair but to me and to many working force who work their arses off hard was been biased and unfair. I mean, I don't have qualms in paying it as long as it is fair. Even how they allocated the taxes to the needy is also careless and unfair.
SOme people who is not really worth of getting the aid had access to it. I know because I can see them with my own eyes first hand. It happened everyday in the grocery stores, in the mall, at the clinic, in therestaurants, etc. It happens everywhere. It just won't stop.
Even illegal people have access to it and that's what pisses me off. I am being taxed for my hardwork and some of the money goes to unqualified people and it's really unfaur for me having to work for it and it all goes to unworthy people.
Well, I know I can voice out my frustrations here and I know that I won't be heard. Although the government will hear about it yet there is no changes or actions about it anyway. And that really pisses me off more. What could I do..... it's the system. Oh well, good luck to me though.
Eversince I lived here in America, it seems that my life was already been doomed. At first I dreamt of coming here for the American Dream but that dream was long gone. Yes, I have a more decent work that pays good but as time elapsed it seems that having money made me want more but unluckily it brought me too much problems.
Wanting more was a big mistake. Now I'm kind of embroiled in this problem and got stuck with it forever. I have to keep myself working in order to at least pay for all the debts that I've incurred eversince. Actually, I didn't really have that much debt at all it the tax that was killing me every year.
With the kind of income I amassed each year because of working too hard I didn't have any idea or I was so naive that the tax after the year ends was very exorbitant. I've regretted doing it but it's already too late. Now I have to work my behind off just to pay it off in just a short period of time so that all this problems will be eradicated immediately.
I've longed for those simple and peaceful life I've had in the Philippines free of taxes. Although I'm poor there but my freedom was too surreal to be felt around. How I wish I could go back there and lived my previous life. I really wish for that time to happen.
Now, I felt I am doomed to pay all this taxes with Uncle Sam. I didn't even know that having to work extra had entailed much burden. I thought it will brought me more money and happiness. That's just the sweetener of the ugly and bad tasted cake, a cover-up for a cheap cake. Aaah.... I was duped and fooled.
Well, that was thelesson I've learned for now and I hope I won't be meeting the same mistakes again in the future. For now, I have to concentrate for myself to pay off this debt which in the first place was been biased for the working force like me to do but what else I could do. It's the law so they say.
I have no qualms about it as long as it's fair but to me and to many working force who work their arses off hard was been biased and unfair. I mean, I don't have qualms in paying it as long as it is fair. Even how they allocated the taxes to the needy is also careless and unfair.
SOme people who is not really worth of getting the aid had access to it. I know because I can see them with my own eyes first hand. It happened everyday in the grocery stores, in the mall, at the clinic, in therestaurants, etc. It happens everywhere. It just won't stop.
Even illegal people have access to it and that's what pisses me off. I am being taxed for my hardwork and some of the money goes to unqualified people and it's really unfaur for me having to work for it and it all goes to unworthy people.
Well, I know I can voice out my frustrations here and I know that I won't be heard. Although the government will hear about it yet there is no changes or actions about it anyway. And that really pisses me off more. What could I do..... it's the system. Oh well, good luck to me though.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Scrabble Game
Since I started uploading the application for Scrabble on my iPhone I already got hooked to it. Eversince I started last year in September, I started playing offline with the CPU as my opponent and I've been learning new words everyday. I am always learning each day in that my skills in word construction was been enhanced gradually. This is the only way I can learn more words everyday and it worked. I started to like it a lot.
At first I was so naive about the scrabble game. My words were just composed of three or four tiles and now I can use all seven of it in constructing elegant and more advanced words that can yield higher points. I've learned to juggle the tiles with finesse and create long words that yield higher points for my score. It was very fascinating, interesting, and educational as well.
Sometimes I chose online peeps and some of my opponents came from all over the world. I have already made new friends through this game and it always amazed me who I will meet. I remember the first time I've won and I got two bingo words which really amped my personal rank online greatly. I am very pleased about it and just cannot stop playing it everyday. Now I can relate the game in the flow my life everyday.
Scrabble can be similar to my life. There were seven tiles you needed to form a word and each tiles has it's own use or significance to present. Sometimes our life is composed of different situations like the tiles. And it's up to us to juggle our resources in order to make our burden easier to obtain success. Just like the tiles each situations were unique and needed more care in choosing our own decisions. And just like scrabble the more tiles we use the more scores we get.
Once we form the word we needed to get a score depending on the boxes you've placed it on the scrabble board. Life is somewhat similar like this, too. Our actions to resolve such situations depends on the timing and the conditions we are in during that very difficult and challenging time wherein making extreme caution in gauging our much needed decisions to achieve what we wanted is of paramount importance.
Sometimes we made some wrong moves which affects the run down of our scores, sometimes we could create excellent words that yields big scores. Sometimes you can get good tiles that make syour game more easy. Sometimes you could get bad tile combos that will get you stuck in forming a new word and makes your game more challenging. Scrabble could be tricky sometimes. Sometimes our mistakes in making a wrong move can teach us new tricks and ideas in forming best words next time. Life could be just like that. It's methaporically identical to the least.
Life is just a scrabble game wherein we are playing with life itself. In a scrabble game life could be compared with the scrabble board wherein all the conditions where been laid out already. Life will lay out to us the situations and we as the player or players will deal with the situations we are in by giving out our own individual decisions to overcome that challenge. It's just very conducive to compare both because as I perceived it they're almost similar in some ways. Its not complicated to compare them because Imyself can relate to it.
Yeah.... I love playing Scrabble because I can learn new words everyday just like life where we can learn new things and met new situations everyday that can make us even stronger, wiser, and better. Life is always puzzling and as we muster the puzzle into place then the game will culminate there. It was just like an interesting game that just keeps you going to resolve it.... it's just like Scrabble indeed.
At first I was so naive about the scrabble game. My words were just composed of three or four tiles and now I can use all seven of it in constructing elegant and more advanced words that can yield higher points. I've learned to juggle the tiles with finesse and create long words that yield higher points for my score. It was very fascinating, interesting, and educational as well.
Sometimes I chose online peeps and some of my opponents came from all over the world. I have already made new friends through this game and it always amazed me who I will meet. I remember the first time I've won and I got two bingo words which really amped my personal rank online greatly. I am very pleased about it and just cannot stop playing it everyday. Now I can relate the game in the flow my life everyday.
Scrabble can be similar to my life. There were seven tiles you needed to form a word and each tiles has it's own use or significance to present. Sometimes our life is composed of different situations like the tiles. And it's up to us to juggle our resources in order to make our burden easier to obtain success. Just like the tiles each situations were unique and needed more care in choosing our own decisions. And just like scrabble the more tiles we use the more scores we get.
Once we form the word we needed to get a score depending on the boxes you've placed it on the scrabble board. Life is somewhat similar like this, too. Our actions to resolve such situations depends on the timing and the conditions we are in during that very difficult and challenging time wherein making extreme caution in gauging our much needed decisions to achieve what we wanted is of paramount importance.
Sometimes we made some wrong moves which affects the run down of our scores, sometimes we could create excellent words that yields big scores. Sometimes you can get good tiles that make syour game more easy. Sometimes you could get bad tile combos that will get you stuck in forming a new word and makes your game more challenging. Scrabble could be tricky sometimes. Sometimes our mistakes in making a wrong move can teach us new tricks and ideas in forming best words next time. Life could be just like that. It's methaporically identical to the least.
Life is just a scrabble game wherein we are playing with life itself. In a scrabble game life could be compared with the scrabble board wherein all the conditions where been laid out already. Life will lay out to us the situations and we as the player or players will deal with the situations we are in by giving out our own individual decisions to overcome that challenge. It's just very conducive to compare both because as I perceived it they're almost similar in some ways. Its not complicated to compare them because Imyself can relate to it.
Yeah.... I love playing Scrabble because I can learn new words everyday just like life where we can learn new things and met new situations everyday that can make us even stronger, wiser, and better. Life is always puzzling and as we muster the puzzle into place then the game will culminate there. It was just like an interesting game that just keeps you going to resolve it.... it's just like Scrabble indeed.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Caught Off Guard
I was caught unaware in the last two months because I received a post on Facebook form my former elementary teacher. It was a page article from the 2012 grand alumni homecoming year book which had indicated that I was one of the most outstanding jubilarians especially for the silver jubilarians last year during the PNHS Alumni Association grand homecoming.
My teacher told me that my former classmates and batchmates had unanimously voted for me to represent Class 1987 for the cream of the crops among the high achievers of the alumni starting from the very beginning that the school had opened. It was a great honor to be chosen and I was really flattered by the recognition.
Well, honestly, all my achievenments were just the result of my hardworks and my tenacity to achieve and do something for myself and my future. It was just sheer kismet that I am always planning goals related to improving and advancing my career goals which I think can better off my education and work. I was just lucky I have time to achieve them despite taht I've been juggling jobs from the past.
Now, I didn't know that all these efforts were very inspiring to my classmates and townmates in my hometown. I was mesmerized by the gesture of recognizing it. Honestly, I was surprise about the article forwarded to and I don't know whether to be grateful or just kept sulking and contemplating about my instant celebrity status. What can you say huh?
But anyways, I thanked my former mentor for forwarding this very surprisiing article and also left a comment at our Class 1987's timeline wall thanking my former classmates and batchmates for the nomination. Indeed it was another feather to add into my resume. Thanks a lot Ma'am Azel. Like you aid, another fancy feather for my portfolio.
In the article were also other people who had achieved excellent and dedicated work in their career and I guess there were three military people who were honored, gifted engineers and mathematcians, as well as businessman and a famous physician.
My heart was been pouring with pride and joy that I was been included in the cream of the crop and the most outstanding jubilarians. It was a shock to me but I wholeheartedly accept the honor of being included in the high achievers list. I mean this is a rare opportunity so why not grab the limelight and savor the moment.
So far, I am pleased with it and thanks for the organizers of the PNHS Alumni Association for the article. I hope I will have the copy of the article. Ma'am Azel was quite very supportive and she even told me that she was keeping my copy with her. I told her that my little sister will just pick it up at her residence.
Definitely, I will enjoy this article once I will get it personally. For now, I will still continue building up myself and career. This article had hold a lot of challenges for me. I hope it is for the best though.... I can't wait to keep abreast of what is happening to me.
Today, my day had just been right and that I will savor it once everything is settling down. Life is always full of surprise..... if it's your kismet then you'll be quite lucky.
My teacher told me that my former classmates and batchmates had unanimously voted for me to represent Class 1987 for the cream of the crops among the high achievers of the alumni starting from the very beginning that the school had opened. It was a great honor to be chosen and I was really flattered by the recognition.
Well, honestly, all my achievenments were just the result of my hardworks and my tenacity to achieve and do something for myself and my future. It was just sheer kismet that I am always planning goals related to improving and advancing my career goals which I think can better off my education and work. I was just lucky I have time to achieve them despite taht I've been juggling jobs from the past.
Now, I didn't know that all these efforts were very inspiring to my classmates and townmates in my hometown. I was mesmerized by the gesture of recognizing it. Honestly, I was surprise about the article forwarded to and I don't know whether to be grateful or just kept sulking and contemplating about my instant celebrity status. What can you say huh?
But anyways, I thanked my former mentor for forwarding this very surprisiing article and also left a comment at our Class 1987's timeline wall thanking my former classmates and batchmates for the nomination. Indeed it was another feather to add into my resume. Thanks a lot Ma'am Azel. Like you aid, another fancy feather for my portfolio.
In the article were also other people who had achieved excellent and dedicated work in their career and I guess there were three military people who were honored, gifted engineers and mathematcians, as well as businessman and a famous physician.
My heart was been pouring with pride and joy that I was been included in the cream of the crop and the most outstanding jubilarians. It was a shock to me but I wholeheartedly accept the honor of being included in the high achievers list. I mean this is a rare opportunity so why not grab the limelight and savor the moment.
So far, I am pleased with it and thanks for the organizers of the PNHS Alumni Association for the article. I hope I will have the copy of the article. Ma'am Azel was quite very supportive and she even told me that she was keeping my copy with her. I told her that my little sister will just pick it up at her residence.
Definitely, I will enjoy this article once I will get it personally. For now, I will still continue building up myself and career. This article had hold a lot of challenges for me. I hope it is for the best though.... I can't wait to keep abreast of what is happening to me.
Today, my day had just been right and that I will savor it once everything is settling down. Life is always full of surprise..... if it's your kismet then you'll be quite lucky.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Diamond Got Spayed Today
I got home from a twelve-hour graveyard work and was been cheerfully greeted by a very disarrayed room. My research paper book was haplessly laying on the floor with the pressed sides appeared ripped and grinded. Who else was the culprit? My cute chihuahua puppy of course.
In as much as I wanted to get angry or mad, I have to just contain it because if I will get mad at the dog she will be confused because the act was already after-the-fact. I just silently picked up the yellow book and carefully inspected the extent of the damage. It was still intact and the contents were still there. I maybe can still read from it. The bite marks though was just on the pressed back and not the texts. Good grief!
I am very worried about the puppy's hyperactivity lately. It must have been because she's just always staying at the room most of the time and got bored. I do gave her some time to go outside when I am walking her every morning to potty and also exercise at he same time. But still I am very concerned about her being excessively quirky and squirmy.
Today, I will gonna have her spayed. I called the animal hospital yesterday and asked if I can set an appointment for the dog's surgery. They've told me that I just have to drop off the dog in the morning and then pick her up in the afternoon on the day of the surgery. They've also told me that there is no need for a reservation for the surgery. So, I decided to bring her in today.
I am hoping that the surgery will help her lessen the hyperactivity and also the excessive grinding so I decided also to have her teeth pulled out, which is also included in the surgery for free. I am glad that the spay is free courtesy of the shelter where I have picked her up and I just have to pay extra for the anesthesia and the tooth extraction. Not bad huh!
I didn't offer her her dog food a night before the surgery as I was carefully instructed by the hospital clinic attendant on the phone. I only offered her water all throughout the night. I left her that night, for I needed to go to work, while she was lying on Martha Stuart dog bed without even no idea that she'll be spayed the next day.
When I got back the next morning, I noted that my room appears chaotic and as I said my yellow Dummy Research Book was on the floor full of bite marks and appeared being chewed off especially on the spine area. It was a horrible sight to see but I have to contain my madness inside me because of the after-the-fact action committed by the puppy.
After cleaning up the room with all the chewed paper carelessly scattering on the cold wooden floor I decided to gave Diamond a shower because I know after the spaying she cannot shower for seven days as I was told during my call yesterday because of her sutures. I shampooed her very thoroughly and dried her well so as not to make her cold with hypothermia. I dried her fur thoroughly and then readied her for a drive to the animal hospital.
I was thinking that we will be late maybe but I still decided to bring her. We left the house close to 0900H and the drive to the clinic was about less than 30 minutes. It was not that far. The hospital was located along Exposition Boulevard near the Arlington Street junction if I will take the Wilton Place Street.
We got there at around 0915H and where I started to register her. She was squirming inside the dog bag while I was carefully filling up the forms and I can't really concentrate on my writing because of her. After I'm done she was picked up by the attendant and I have to say goodbye to her. I felt sad that I'm not gonna see her for the whole day but I am hopeful that the surgery will benefit her, especially toning down her hyperactivity behavior.
I went home without her, thinking what will happen to her at the animal hospital today and I am also excited to see her when I pick her up in the afternoon. It was a mixed feelings of contained and repressed emotions and I am really confused about it. I went to sleep when I got home because I was already tired plus I am also sick at the same time still coughing and sneezing badly. I took some Zyrtec and cough medications before I went to bed. This infirmed state is giving me a toll of my life already. It's really hard!
I woke up at around 1530H and realized that I have to pick Diamond up at the animal hospital before they close. I was heavily groggy and had a very bad headache when I woke up but I have to drag my poor pathetic self to the bathroomm to prepare because the animal hospital will be closing at 1700H. When I checked my messages on the iPhone there were already two calls from the hodpital telling me that Diamond is ready to be picked up and that they will be closing at 1700H.
When I got at the animal hospital I immediately signed some paperworks then paid the services for some extras that I have agreed this morning then they brought her out after that with a dish collar (E-collar) on her neck to prevent her from scratching and licking her sutures. She was very hypoactive or weak and I've heard that she was slightly moaning maybe because she was in pain. They've given me the syringes with the antbiotics and told me to start it the following day and also reminded me to refrigerate it.
I wrapped Diamond with her cheetah animal print blanket to keep her warm and carried her to the car then we left the animal hospital after that. In the car she was motionless and was just laying on the seat quietly. She was probably tired and at the same time in a lot of pain.
When we got home I gave her some water to drink but she did not took it then lay her down on her bed with her zebra print blanket. She was still weak and was also moaning occasionally especially when she was trying to move and walk. She was laying on her bed for a while realizing that every time she moves it hurts her. My poor baby!
I left the house at 1845H because I needed to go to work. I left her at home still in agony about the pain but I hope she is still okay. I left the light on in the restroom to make her think that I am there and to guide her also to see well when she goes potty and peepee. Now I am writing a blog about her experience and I hope you all like it.
I never been happier not until Diamond came into my life. Everything just turned the other way around in a positive way of course. Although there were a lot of problems about her manic behavior and chewing actions I am still patient about her because I know she's still a puppy. I hope though that the surgery will help lessen this slight problem with her. Oh God please help me!
In as much as I wanted to get angry or mad, I have to just contain it because if I will get mad at the dog she will be confused because the act was already after-the-fact. I just silently picked up the yellow book and carefully inspected the extent of the damage. It was still intact and the contents were still there. I maybe can still read from it. The bite marks though was just on the pressed back and not the texts. Good grief!
I am very worried about the puppy's hyperactivity lately. It must have been because she's just always staying at the room most of the time and got bored. I do gave her some time to go outside when I am walking her every morning to potty and also exercise at he same time. But still I am very concerned about her being excessively quirky and squirmy.
Today, I will gonna have her spayed. I called the animal hospital yesterday and asked if I can set an appointment for the dog's surgery. They've told me that I just have to drop off the dog in the morning and then pick her up in the afternoon on the day of the surgery. They've also told me that there is no need for a reservation for the surgery. So, I decided to bring her in today.
I am hoping that the surgery will help her lessen the hyperactivity and also the excessive grinding so I decided also to have her teeth pulled out, which is also included in the surgery for free. I am glad that the spay is free courtesy of the shelter where I have picked her up and I just have to pay extra for the anesthesia and the tooth extraction. Not bad huh!
I didn't offer her her dog food a night before the surgery as I was carefully instructed by the hospital clinic attendant on the phone. I only offered her water all throughout the night. I left her that night, for I needed to go to work, while she was lying on Martha Stuart dog bed without even no idea that she'll be spayed the next day.
When I got back the next morning, I noted that my room appears chaotic and as I said my yellow Dummy Research Book was on the floor full of bite marks and appeared being chewed off especially on the spine area. It was a horrible sight to see but I have to contain my madness inside me because of the after-the-fact action committed by the puppy.
After cleaning up the room with all the chewed paper carelessly scattering on the cold wooden floor I decided to gave Diamond a shower because I know after the spaying she cannot shower for seven days as I was told during my call yesterday because of her sutures. I shampooed her very thoroughly and dried her well so as not to make her cold with hypothermia. I dried her fur thoroughly and then readied her for a drive to the animal hospital.
I was thinking that we will be late maybe but I still decided to bring her. We left the house close to 0900H and the drive to the clinic was about less than 30 minutes. It was not that far. The hospital was located along Exposition Boulevard near the Arlington Street junction if I will take the Wilton Place Street.
We got there at around 0915H and where I started to register her. She was squirming inside the dog bag while I was carefully filling up the forms and I can't really concentrate on my writing because of her. After I'm done she was picked up by the attendant and I have to say goodbye to her. I felt sad that I'm not gonna see her for the whole day but I am hopeful that the surgery will benefit her, especially toning down her hyperactivity behavior.
I went home without her, thinking what will happen to her at the animal hospital today and I am also excited to see her when I pick her up in the afternoon. It was a mixed feelings of contained and repressed emotions and I am really confused about it. I went to sleep when I got home because I was already tired plus I am also sick at the same time still coughing and sneezing badly. I took some Zyrtec and cough medications before I went to bed. This infirmed state is giving me a toll of my life already. It's really hard!
I woke up at around 1530H and realized that I have to pick Diamond up at the animal hospital before they close. I was heavily groggy and had a very bad headache when I woke up but I have to drag my poor pathetic self to the bathroomm to prepare because the animal hospital will be closing at 1700H. When I checked my messages on the iPhone there were already two calls from the hodpital telling me that Diamond is ready to be picked up and that they will be closing at 1700H.
When I got at the animal hospital I immediately signed some paperworks then paid the services for some extras that I have agreed this morning then they brought her out after that with a dish collar (E-collar) on her neck to prevent her from scratching and licking her sutures. She was very hypoactive or weak and I've heard that she was slightly moaning maybe because she was in pain. They've given me the syringes with the antbiotics and told me to start it the following day and also reminded me to refrigerate it.
I wrapped Diamond with her cheetah animal print blanket to keep her warm and carried her to the car then we left the animal hospital after that. In the car she was motionless and was just laying on the seat quietly. She was probably tired and at the same time in a lot of pain.
When we got home I gave her some water to drink but she did not took it then lay her down on her bed with her zebra print blanket. She was still weak and was also moaning occasionally especially when she was trying to move and walk. She was laying on her bed for a while realizing that every time she moves it hurts her. My poor baby!
I left the house at 1845H because I needed to go to work. I left her at home still in agony about the pain but I hope she is still okay. I left the light on in the restroom to make her think that I am there and to guide her also to see well when she goes potty and peepee. Now I am writing a blog about her experience and I hope you all like it.
I never been happier not until Diamond came into my life. Everything just turned the other way around in a positive way of course. Although there were a lot of problems about her manic behavior and chewing actions I am still patient about her because I know she's still a puppy. I hope though that the surgery will help lessen this slight problem with her. Oh God please help me!
Friday, February 15, 2013
Got Interviewed Yesterday
Yesterday, on Valentine's Day, I went to an interview meeting for a case management job posted for Los Angeles AIDS Foundation. It was a productive interview and I've learned a lot about the AIDS Foundation, its mission and vision as well as the different umbrellas it had covered. I am so fired up to take the challenge and hoping that it can give me a very meaningful experience in the future.
Last week, I got a call from Ms. Jackson, the Utilization and Case Management Head of Los Angeles AIDS Foundation, asking me if I'm still interested for a job I applied at AIDS Foundation Online. I told her that I'm still considering it if there is any. She told me that there is one position for a case manager which will be available on 2/19/13. She just got a resignation letter the previous day and she needs to fill up the position immediately. I guess I was so lucky because I was the first person she thought of calling right away if not for my former student Megan who keeps asking her if she called me or not.
She told me that if not for Megan and Xenia who keeps reminding her to call me and set up for the interview she had totally forgotten about my application because she already forwarded my online application to the Human Resources. She told me that I was very lucky because she got the resignation yesterday which she needed to fill in immediately because of the tremendous surge of clients in the Los Angeles area that needs for assessment and help.
I told myself that this will be another challenge for me. I never been having any experience about case management but I told her that I am willing to learn and be trained. I have some supervisory experience in the clinical and nursing home in the past so I guess that could also help me with this kind of job. She told me during the interview that case management requires a lot of assessments and paperworks which I guess will be more challenging to me and I hope I can be able to do it with ease.
I left the office in Martel Avenue in Los Angeles with high hopes that this job will measure how adaptable I am with a team leading role which for me requires more patience and understanding about every individual inputs and ideas for an excellent production and output. I guess I am ready to take the challenge and hopefully will make up with my new manager's expectations.
So now, I am just waiting for the Human Resource to call me for more tests and requirements and eventually process the completion of my application then I will start after two weeks once I've gave a two week notice for my teaching job to resign. I told Ms. Jackson that I needed to tender my two weeks notice at my current teaching job which had given me some stress lately because of the conflict with my Chief Administrative Consultant.
So now, I am ready to give up my loyalty and patience in staying there after seven years of teaching nursing students in the clinicals. I felt that I don't deserve the treatment he had given me considering of my seniority but I'm not gonna blog my frustrations here right now. I guess it is high time now for me to look for another avenue in my nursing career and I felt this case management job opportunity that was offered for me yesterday had brought a lot of promises for my individual abilities.
Hopefully I would be able to do better and improve my skills in team leading. This will be a good step also for my masteral program wherein I could get some subjects for my thesis and research proposal which could be unbias. Yes I am so fired up for this and I felt so ready to start anytime as what I've told Ms. Jackson.
I will continue to update you here of the happenings and the progress during my orientation, so just keep coming back and hanging on here and check for more upcoming updates. For now, I just don't want to over think my expectations and overwhelm myself. Hope ya' all understand.
Inside of me is this big ball of fire that keeps fueling me to keep the ball rolling. I'm so excited! So good luck to me. My dear Lord, I am invoking you to be there always and I'm hoping this will be the one that I am waiting for. Thanks for everything that you've done for me and thanks for being there always! Amen!
Last week, I got a call from Ms. Jackson, the Utilization and Case Management Head of Los Angeles AIDS Foundation, asking me if I'm still interested for a job I applied at AIDS Foundation Online. I told her that I'm still considering it if there is any. She told me that there is one position for a case manager which will be available on 2/19/13. She just got a resignation letter the previous day and she needs to fill up the position immediately. I guess I was so lucky because I was the first person she thought of calling right away if not for my former student Megan who keeps asking her if she called me or not.
She told me that if not for Megan and Xenia who keeps reminding her to call me and set up for the interview she had totally forgotten about my application because she already forwarded my online application to the Human Resources. She told me that I was very lucky because she got the resignation yesterday which she needed to fill in immediately because of the tremendous surge of clients in the Los Angeles area that needs for assessment and help.
I told myself that this will be another challenge for me. I never been having any experience about case management but I told her that I am willing to learn and be trained. I have some supervisory experience in the clinical and nursing home in the past so I guess that could also help me with this kind of job. She told me during the interview that case management requires a lot of assessments and paperworks which I guess will be more challenging to me and I hope I can be able to do it with ease.
I left the office in Martel Avenue in Los Angeles with high hopes that this job will measure how adaptable I am with a team leading role which for me requires more patience and understanding about every individual inputs and ideas for an excellent production and output. I guess I am ready to take the challenge and hopefully will make up with my new manager's expectations.
So now, I am just waiting for the Human Resource to call me for more tests and requirements and eventually process the completion of my application then I will start after two weeks once I've gave a two week notice for my teaching job to resign. I told Ms. Jackson that I needed to tender my two weeks notice at my current teaching job which had given me some stress lately because of the conflict with my Chief Administrative Consultant.
So now, I am ready to give up my loyalty and patience in staying there after seven years of teaching nursing students in the clinicals. I felt that I don't deserve the treatment he had given me considering of my seniority but I'm not gonna blog my frustrations here right now. I guess it is high time now for me to look for another avenue in my nursing career and I felt this case management job opportunity that was offered for me yesterday had brought a lot of promises for my individual abilities.
Hopefully I would be able to do better and improve my skills in team leading. This will be a good step also for my masteral program wherein I could get some subjects for my thesis and research proposal which could be unbias. Yes I am so fired up for this and I felt so ready to start anytime as what I've told Ms. Jackson.
I will continue to update you here of the happenings and the progress during my orientation, so just keep coming back and hanging on here and check for more upcoming updates. For now, I just don't want to over think my expectations and overwhelm myself. Hope ya' all understand.
Inside of me is this big ball of fire that keeps fueling me to keep the ball rolling. I'm so excited! So good luck to me. My dear Lord, I am invoking you to be there always and I'm hoping this will be the one that I am waiting for. Thanks for everything that you've done for me and thanks for being there always! Amen!
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Remembering My Father
Yeah, sometimes I have a longing for my dad. I missed him a lot. He is my confidant when I was growing up and I always cherished the moments that I have with him when I was younger. He was my first mentor about living and surviving life as well as my cooking teacher, too.
Basically, as I grow up my dad was always there all the time. Although he was kind of passive to me sometimes I know how much he loved me. He doesn't show it to me but I know it personally. Although sometimes we have some petty issues yet we still maintained the utmost respect that we have each other. He was very complacent about my achievements but I know deep inside that he is proud of me.
I remember the first time he taught me about surviving life indirectly. We used to grow up with abundance in rice because my father grow them by himself. We own a land converted into rice paddies enough to get rice to sustain the hwole family for the whole year. Having that advantage, as a young boy I never even realized how hard it is to till the ground and grow rice because I am just used with the abundance of it in our household.
One day he caught us throwing rice in the trash and he went nuts and ballistic about it. That was the first time I saw my dad got mad and angry big time. He was psychopathically ranting at us, telling us, how hard it is to till the soil and grow rice and that time we were just throwing it in the trash without even knowing the significance and extreme importance of his hard labor. He was almost breaking up into tears during that time but he held it because he probably wanted to show us that he is in control but I know he was bleeding and crying inside. That was the first time I saw my dad broke down.
The following day, he brought me and my siblings to the farm and send all his farm laborers home with a full day fee and had us do the farm labor instead. There we realized how hard it is to work in the farm to produce rice. It was very tiring and it hurts my back because we always bend most of the time for the whole day. The scorching heat of the sun, especially during midday, was very fierce on the skin. From there, we understood how hard it is to work in the farm and we never wasted rice again. We learned how to value the labor of producing and growing it. It's no joke to work in the farm, I'm telling you.
I really appreciated my dad demandingly doing that to us. Although, his decision to punish us to work in the farm that time was kind of harsh to us but in the end it had gave us a great lesson. Although he did it indirectly, yet it had instilled in us the value of hard labor and ho wdifficult it is to survive this borrowed life. That's why I greatly admired him so much.
My family is a very close knit family. My dad and mom had loved each other and I saw how much they grow fond at each other as I grow up and I saw also how they overcame a lot of issues and obstacles between them and in their relationship. The forgiving attitude and the respect they had in each other were magnificent and amazing. It's infectious sometimes.
I've also seen my dad succumbed to drinking and abusing alcohol. I know how hard it is to support a big family. He always tried his best to feed us and send us to school which he did superbly together with my ever loving and ever caring mom. I have no qualms about them. I also saw my dad deteriorating as a dominant figure in the family and mom was always there at his side all the time, supporting and helping him in every way.
Now, I'm missing him a lot and also mom. Without my dad I never knew about the importance of surviving life. He taught me a lot of survival skills in living life to the fullest and he taught me also how to cook with determination and art. Observing him in the kitchen was fun and a good learning experience because he let us participate in preparing for the food starting from cutting, slicing, mixing, washing,etc. He is a very strict teacher actually and also a notorious perfectionist. I never knew he was very keen in details, but to me it is good, that is why I learned so much from him.
Wherever you are dad, I am missing you right now. I hope you and mom are happy together and were watching me all the time. I thank you for your very simple insights(but sometimes sounds odd to me, hehehe)about life before and thanks for always being there despite of my hardheadedness and stubborness. (I know you almost smacked me in the head one time, hahaha.)Thanks for being a dominant figure or example in my life and for guiding me to be a good and obedient son. You've done your role with utmost dedication and with plenty of unconditional love and I hope that I made you proud about my success and achievements.
Hopefully someday we will be seeing each other in another realm of life and I could not wait for that time to happen. I am always indebted to you. You have not heard me thanking you personally but I just wanted you to know that I greatly appreciated every thing you have done to me and that I have loved you so much more than I ever cared for. Rest assure that I am doing well and thanks for all your guidance and supervision. Say my hi to mom as well. Missing you both. I love you Tatay and Nanay!
Basically, as I grow up my dad was always there all the time. Although he was kind of passive to me sometimes I know how much he loved me. He doesn't show it to me but I know it personally. Although sometimes we have some petty issues yet we still maintained the utmost respect that we have each other. He was very complacent about my achievements but I know deep inside that he is proud of me.
I remember the first time he taught me about surviving life indirectly. We used to grow up with abundance in rice because my father grow them by himself. We own a land converted into rice paddies enough to get rice to sustain the hwole family for the whole year. Having that advantage, as a young boy I never even realized how hard it is to till the ground and grow rice because I am just used with the abundance of it in our household.
One day he caught us throwing rice in the trash and he went nuts and ballistic about it. That was the first time I saw my dad got mad and angry big time. He was psychopathically ranting at us, telling us, how hard it is to till the soil and grow rice and that time we were just throwing it in the trash without even knowing the significance and extreme importance of his hard labor. He was almost breaking up into tears during that time but he held it because he probably wanted to show us that he is in control but I know he was bleeding and crying inside. That was the first time I saw my dad broke down.
The following day, he brought me and my siblings to the farm and send all his farm laborers home with a full day fee and had us do the farm labor instead. There we realized how hard it is to work in the farm to produce rice. It was very tiring and it hurts my back because we always bend most of the time for the whole day. The scorching heat of the sun, especially during midday, was very fierce on the skin. From there, we understood how hard it is to work in the farm and we never wasted rice again. We learned how to value the labor of producing and growing it. It's no joke to work in the farm, I'm telling you.
I really appreciated my dad demandingly doing that to us. Although, his decision to punish us to work in the farm that time was kind of harsh to us but in the end it had gave us a great lesson. Although he did it indirectly, yet it had instilled in us the value of hard labor and ho wdifficult it is to survive this borrowed life. That's why I greatly admired him so much.
My family is a very close knit family. My dad and mom had loved each other and I saw how much they grow fond at each other as I grow up and I saw also how they overcame a lot of issues and obstacles between them and in their relationship. The forgiving attitude and the respect they had in each other were magnificent and amazing. It's infectious sometimes.
I've also seen my dad succumbed to drinking and abusing alcohol. I know how hard it is to support a big family. He always tried his best to feed us and send us to school which he did superbly together with my ever loving and ever caring mom. I have no qualms about them. I also saw my dad deteriorating as a dominant figure in the family and mom was always there at his side all the time, supporting and helping him in every way.
Now, I'm missing him a lot and also mom. Without my dad I never knew about the importance of surviving life. He taught me a lot of survival skills in living life to the fullest and he taught me also how to cook with determination and art. Observing him in the kitchen was fun and a good learning experience because he let us participate in preparing for the food starting from cutting, slicing, mixing, washing,etc. He is a very strict teacher actually and also a notorious perfectionist. I never knew he was very keen in details, but to me it is good, that is why I learned so much from him.
Wherever you are dad, I am missing you right now. I hope you and mom are happy together and were watching me all the time. I thank you for your very simple insights(but sometimes sounds odd to me, hehehe)about life before and thanks for always being there despite of my hardheadedness and stubborness. (I know you almost smacked me in the head one time, hahaha.)Thanks for being a dominant figure or example in my life and for guiding me to be a good and obedient son. You've done your role with utmost dedication and with plenty of unconditional love and I hope that I made you proud about my success and achievements.
Hopefully someday we will be seeing each other in another realm of life and I could not wait for that time to happen. I am always indebted to you. You have not heard me thanking you personally but I just wanted you to know that I greatly appreciated every thing you have done to me and that I have loved you so much more than I ever cared for. Rest assure that I am doing well and thanks for all your guidance and supervision. Say my hi to mom as well. Missing you both. I love you Tatay and Nanay!
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Meeting An Awesome Guy On Facebook
Last week I met this awesome Ilocano guy from Facebook. He sent me an invite to make friends with me and I accepted it right away. The following day he messaged me and had thanked me for the add up. I was online that time so I immediately responded to him that it was okay then it all started from there.
We chatted for four hours asking and telling informations about ourselves until we got to know each other and got comfortable at each other. I was just surprised I acted so nicely at him compared to my bitchy self when somebody was messaging me asking for an online friendship. It was just odd to me!
What I liked about him is that he was very cordial and polite. Very respectful and patient especially on his responses. I was really surprised about it and it had delicately touched my heart and my inner ego greatly. I am not used to it but deep inside I felt his sincerity and respect which is uncommon to people online. I secretly told myself, I guess this guy is a good guy. I really felt I have to give him a once-in-a-lifetime chance and now we were besties.
Well, some of my friends always told me to be cautious in knowing a person online especially on the first encounter. I mean I am doing that actually during that time but it so happen that this guy is super nice. I am a person who is very careful when it comes to selecting, approving, perceiving, and knowing unknown people online. I don't know why I gave in to him that fast. I honestly felt that I have to give him this rare chance. And the rest was history .....
Friends are rare to find. They are like precious gems burried deep in the deep abyss of the earth's bowels. A hard to find people but when being found will make your day exactly right. And this is the feeling I have received from this awesome guy after I paved him the way to my hard-to-conquer friendship without any hesitations at all. Am I that clueless or am I that too careless?
He is a 30 year-old young male from Urdaneta, Pangasinan who now resides in Baguio City because of his job. He works as an administrative assistant in a local delivery company, delivering farm produce, vegetables, and poultries from Baguio City to Manila. I admit he is somewhat goodlooking, extraordinarily looking young, and very well muscled. I am quite attracted to him but I know I am taken already so I have to back out a little bit.
I told him that we can just be cordial friends because I have a boyfriend already. He accepted it and he told me that he has also a girlfriend but they had just broke up last Monday so technically he was still nursing his aching heart. I was so touched because deep inside I felt that he was really hurt about it. So I am just there to listen to him giving him a good ear and offering him some good advice.
He seems depress about the whole situation so I told him to pick up himself and just continue with his life. I also told him that it will be a good learning experience for him and it will make him more stronger next time. He thanked me for my personal advices and we introduced ourselves at each other until we got comfortable telling our own stories swapping questions about ourselves.
He never failed to leave me a good morning message everytime I woke up and he always asks if I have ate or not. I never been treated like that before and I never got used to it. My parents didn't even do like that to me. I grew up to be an independent person and I never felt so cared for like that. It was odd and strange but I liked it!
We always chatted on Facebook the whole day swapping messages all the time. Even when I'm driving I am answering his messages and even when I go eat, pee, work, lying in bed, or just even relaxing in my car. It was just odd because I really felt better everytime we're chatting. He never took advantage of the moment to ask money from me, make any advances on me, or pressure me with something. All we had was a very customary online conversation with no strings attached. It was just a friendly thing.
Well, I guess there is a good reason why we have met acidentally. I know God always works in mysterious places and times and this one I will consider as one of it. I didn't even ask for it but it just came as a surprise. May be what I do is just savor the moment while we still enjoy each other's conversation and friendship. Be it with good or bad intentions, that I don't know, I will just let it flow its course and make my own personal decisions in the future whether to let it go or not. I will stay genuine and nonjudgmental all the time.
But so far so good and there were no problems at the moment. He never asked me to call him (which I won't do) or rather make any drama about his life which I kind of like because he is truly genuine and true. Judging with the informations he gave and told me I guess he was just devastated about the break up and that's it. I won't go any further but just hang on and keep him as a nice friend. That's all I needed to do!
We chatted for four hours asking and telling informations about ourselves until we got to know each other and got comfortable at each other. I was just surprised I acted so nicely at him compared to my bitchy self when somebody was messaging me asking for an online friendship. It was just odd to me!
What I liked about him is that he was very cordial and polite. Very respectful and patient especially on his responses. I was really surprised about it and it had delicately touched my heart and my inner ego greatly. I am not used to it but deep inside I felt his sincerity and respect which is uncommon to people online. I secretly told myself, I guess this guy is a good guy. I really felt I have to give him a once-in-a-lifetime chance and now we were besties.
Well, some of my friends always told me to be cautious in knowing a person online especially on the first encounter. I mean I am doing that actually during that time but it so happen that this guy is super nice. I am a person who is very careful when it comes to selecting, approving, perceiving, and knowing unknown people online. I don't know why I gave in to him that fast. I honestly felt that I have to give him this rare chance. And the rest was history .....
Friends are rare to find. They are like precious gems burried deep in the deep abyss of the earth's bowels. A hard to find people but when being found will make your day exactly right. And this is the feeling I have received from this awesome guy after I paved him the way to my hard-to-conquer friendship without any hesitations at all. Am I that clueless or am I that too careless?
He is a 30 year-old young male from Urdaneta, Pangasinan who now resides in Baguio City because of his job. He works as an administrative assistant in a local delivery company, delivering farm produce, vegetables, and poultries from Baguio City to Manila. I admit he is somewhat goodlooking, extraordinarily looking young, and very well muscled. I am quite attracted to him but I know I am taken already so I have to back out a little bit.
I told him that we can just be cordial friends because I have a boyfriend already. He accepted it and he told me that he has also a girlfriend but they had just broke up last Monday so technically he was still nursing his aching heart. I was so touched because deep inside I felt that he was really hurt about it. So I am just there to listen to him giving him a good ear and offering him some good advice.
He seems depress about the whole situation so I told him to pick up himself and just continue with his life. I also told him that it will be a good learning experience for him and it will make him more stronger next time. He thanked me for my personal advices and we introduced ourselves at each other until we got comfortable telling our own stories swapping questions about ourselves.
He never failed to leave me a good morning message everytime I woke up and he always asks if I have ate or not. I never been treated like that before and I never got used to it. My parents didn't even do like that to me. I grew up to be an independent person and I never felt so cared for like that. It was odd and strange but I liked it!
We always chatted on Facebook the whole day swapping messages all the time. Even when I'm driving I am answering his messages and even when I go eat, pee, work, lying in bed, or just even relaxing in my car. It was just odd because I really felt better everytime we're chatting. He never took advantage of the moment to ask money from me, make any advances on me, or pressure me with something. All we had was a very customary online conversation with no strings attached. It was just a friendly thing.
Well, I guess there is a good reason why we have met acidentally. I know God always works in mysterious places and times and this one I will consider as one of it. I didn't even ask for it but it just came as a surprise. May be what I do is just savor the moment while we still enjoy each other's conversation and friendship. Be it with good or bad intentions, that I don't know, I will just let it flow its course and make my own personal decisions in the future whether to let it go or not. I will stay genuine and nonjudgmental all the time.
But so far so good and there were no problems at the moment. He never asked me to call him (which I won't do) or rather make any drama about his life which I kind of like because he is truly genuine and true. Judging with the informations he gave and told me I guess he was just devastated about the break up and that's it. I won't go any further but just hang on and keep him as a nice friend. That's all I needed to do!
Still Infirmed
I still don't feel well today. I was still coughing and sneezing with some watery runny nose. I guess my allergy had been flaring up for several days. I was still taking the Claritin and it still doesn't help. I am planning to add Benadryl on the regimen but I am wary about sleepiness as a side effect.
I guess I can't resort to such drastic measures to take Benadryl because I am driving all the time. I was compelled to do so but I'm still double checking myself if it is beneficial or not. It's kind of hard because I'm already hoarse form excessively coughing last night. I am quite exhausted but I am still holding on.
This morning when I woke up, I felt that I have a flu but when I checked my oral temperature it was normal. (Well viral infections usually doesn't have fever.) I was coughing non-stop and I was alarmed by it. I took some decongestants to stop the coughing and I am glad it helped abate the cough a little bit. But my throat was still draining watery drainage which made me swallow frequently. Spitting it had made me retch thereby scratching my throat and making it irritated.
I still have a class today so I have to drag myself up form the bed and force myself to take the early morning shower. After the warm shower it seems that the body aches went away and I felt okay afterwards. But still my nose is running and my throat still is hoarse. I guess it's not allergy anymore.
Chewing hard candies had helped a lot so I passed by the nearby 7-11 Store on my way to school and bought some Halls cough drops. It soothes my throat irritation and lessened the coughing although it is still still on and off. I also took some ample amount of water to keep me hydrated. In as much as I wante dto rest I couldn't do it because I am so much loaded with my schedule nowadyas except Thursday which I am off for only one day.
Right now, I still feel bad and not okay. My nose is congested and my head feels full of pressure. My coughing was very nagging and persistent and my throat is sore and irritated. I am basically tired from too much coughing and sneezing and I felt I am not getting any better. I hope I will be well tomorrow.
I wish I could be off and rest. Maybe rest will help me better and that my immune system will stop reacting to some environmental allergens that trigger the allergy. How I wish it would happen like that. I am in so much fatigue already but I am unstoppable. I hope my off this coming Thursday will give me the necessary rest I needed to recuperate form this illness.
Today, I strated slow but as the day had commenced it turne dout to be good. I needed to hurry or fast track my lecture because some good-to-be-personality at school had changed the student's schedule again and compressed one day of letter making them lacking few hours on their theory class. I am not stressed but I am very concerned about the quality of teaching I would give them in that small amount of teaching time. It sucks but I don't want to complain.
Well, too much concerns every dya and it weakens my immune system already thereby makes my recuperation more longer and harder to treat. I am in so much dilemma but I just don't want to bother right now because I am technically and literally sick. This infirmity had caused a lot of toll on me and I am concerned big time about myself. When do I ever give up, huh!
I guess I can't resort to such drastic measures to take Benadryl because I am driving all the time. I was compelled to do so but I'm still double checking myself if it is beneficial or not. It's kind of hard because I'm already hoarse form excessively coughing last night. I am quite exhausted but I am still holding on.
This morning when I woke up, I felt that I have a flu but when I checked my oral temperature it was normal. (Well viral infections usually doesn't have fever.) I was coughing non-stop and I was alarmed by it. I took some decongestants to stop the coughing and I am glad it helped abate the cough a little bit. But my throat was still draining watery drainage which made me swallow frequently. Spitting it had made me retch thereby scratching my throat and making it irritated.
I still have a class today so I have to drag myself up form the bed and force myself to take the early morning shower. After the warm shower it seems that the body aches went away and I felt okay afterwards. But still my nose is running and my throat still is hoarse. I guess it's not allergy anymore.
Chewing hard candies had helped a lot so I passed by the nearby 7-11 Store on my way to school and bought some Halls cough drops. It soothes my throat irritation and lessened the coughing although it is still still on and off. I also took some ample amount of water to keep me hydrated. In as much as I wante dto rest I couldn't do it because I am so much loaded with my schedule nowadyas except Thursday which I am off for only one day.
Right now, I still feel bad and not okay. My nose is congested and my head feels full of pressure. My coughing was very nagging and persistent and my throat is sore and irritated. I am basically tired from too much coughing and sneezing and I felt I am not getting any better. I hope I will be well tomorrow.
I wish I could be off and rest. Maybe rest will help me better and that my immune system will stop reacting to some environmental allergens that trigger the allergy. How I wish it would happen like that. I am in so much fatigue already but I am unstoppable. I hope my off this coming Thursday will give me the necessary rest I needed to recuperate form this illness.
Today, I strated slow but as the day had commenced it turne dout to be good. I needed to hurry or fast track my lecture because some good-to-be-personality at school had changed the student's schedule again and compressed one day of letter making them lacking few hours on their theory class. I am not stressed but I am very concerned about the quality of teaching I would give them in that small amount of teaching time. It sucks but I don't want to complain.
Well, too much concerns every dya and it weakens my immune system already thereby makes my recuperation more longer and harder to treat. I am in so much dilemma but I just don't want to bother right now because I am technically and literally sick. This infirmity had caused a lot of toll on me and I am concerned big time about myself. When do I ever give up, huh!
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Bouts Of Allergic Reactions
When Diamond came to the house last month, my allergies had resurface again. I kept sneezing every day and that my throat was been very congested and my drainage were been very watery. It was kind of uncomfortable sometimes so I have to find some alternatives to fight it back.
I've been taking claritin and tylenol sometimes but it seems that they don't work wonders anymore. I always felt tired and sick most of the times from this allergies and I denied it sometimes that it was an allergic reaction to the dog. I thought it was just a bad flu since it is flu season nowadays.
But truth be told, I couldn't really deny the fact that it was an allergic reaction to the dog. Even though how many times I've washed my sheets still everytime I woke up my sneezing still just won't stop. I even opened the windows to have my room ventilated from all the specks that were been floating in the air inside the room but it seems that all my efforts were been futile.
I always tried to tuck the dog on her bed everytime I go to sleep but it seems that she moves up to my bed in the middle of my sleep because everytime I woke she was always under my sheets scooting close to my body (I always sleep half naked). She also stayed on bed when I was away so I have noticed all the time some of her hair were on the bed.
I always cleaned my sheets getting rid of her hair that clings to the sheet and I always washed and changed my bed sheets every week but still my allergies still resurfaces. I don't know what happened to my immune system now. I know that sneezing is just a mechanism to get rid of the foreign body but when it comes to the entire immune system, I don't have any idea at all what is happening. For sure it affects the system triggering some antibodies to get rid of the allergens.
Today, discovered something that is effective in at least lessening my sneezing. It worked but I don't know how long. It made sense because it prevented me to inhale some of the danders that were in the air inside my room. I put on a regular surgical mask and went to sleep with it. I maybe look funny but this whole mask thing works.
I woke up a little bit ok with no sneezing at all. Ok, I lied. A little bit of minor sneezing but it was better than the previous weeks. Hopefully, this mask thing works. I will try it for the whole week and see how it is. I had a feeling that I have to keep it like this to lessen my manifestations and hopefully it will be for the better. I am glad I discovered it accidentally. At least it had lessened my sufferings. Haist!
Today, I felt tired from my two days work and also form sneezing for about a week. My system is a little fatigued and I needed a lot of pain killers. I took 650 mg of Tylenol to just ease up the soreness and hopefully I can rest it tomorrow.
But tomorrow will be more hectic for me because I have to teach Pediatrics Class with Batch 38 in the morning and will end up going home at around 1500H. I will be working for twenty hours total tomorrow so basically I will be totally rendered and succumbed to extreme fatigue tomorrow which will probably lower my immune response albeit worsening my allergies. God... please help me.
Hay... I hope every thing will be better for me this week. And I hope that my allergies will wane in time. This I always pray to always abate so that all my suffering will go away. I wish it could vanish at an instant. Hopefully the mask will work. Although it is not cost effective yet it provided a little relief.
Whatever will happen I still have to be on the alert. I was just hoping and crossing my fingers that it was due to the weather and not the dog. I love the dog so much and I don't have to give her up just to get rid of the allergies. For sure there will be other alternatives and I will continue looking for other reliefs just to protect Diamond from any other harsh decision of getting rid of her.
But anyways, hopefuly everything will be well and I will have to wait till this cold weather wanes so that I will know if it is due to the weather or not. I will still continue to assess and look for any factors that had triggered my allergic reactions and will still continue to use the mask, wash and change my sheets weekly, air my room everyday, and make sure that the dog will not stay on my bed when I'm gone or asleep preventing some danders to cing on my sheets as well as lessening my allergic bouts. Good luck to me!
I've been taking claritin and tylenol sometimes but it seems that they don't work wonders anymore. I always felt tired and sick most of the times from this allergies and I denied it sometimes that it was an allergic reaction to the dog. I thought it was just a bad flu since it is flu season nowadays.
But truth be told, I couldn't really deny the fact that it was an allergic reaction to the dog. Even though how many times I've washed my sheets still everytime I woke up my sneezing still just won't stop. I even opened the windows to have my room ventilated from all the specks that were been floating in the air inside the room but it seems that all my efforts were been futile.
I always tried to tuck the dog on her bed everytime I go to sleep but it seems that she moves up to my bed in the middle of my sleep because everytime I woke she was always under my sheets scooting close to my body (I always sleep half naked). She also stayed on bed when I was away so I have noticed all the time some of her hair were on the bed.
I always cleaned my sheets getting rid of her hair that clings to the sheet and I always washed and changed my bed sheets every week but still my allergies still resurfaces. I don't know what happened to my immune system now. I know that sneezing is just a mechanism to get rid of the foreign body but when it comes to the entire immune system, I don't have any idea at all what is happening. For sure it affects the system triggering some antibodies to get rid of the allergens.
Today, discovered something that is effective in at least lessening my sneezing. It worked but I don't know how long. It made sense because it prevented me to inhale some of the danders that were in the air inside my room. I put on a regular surgical mask and went to sleep with it. I maybe look funny but this whole mask thing works.
I woke up a little bit ok with no sneezing at all. Ok, I lied. A little bit of minor sneezing but it was better than the previous weeks. Hopefully, this mask thing works. I will try it for the whole week and see how it is. I had a feeling that I have to keep it like this to lessen my manifestations and hopefully it will be for the better. I am glad I discovered it accidentally. At least it had lessened my sufferings. Haist!
Today, I felt tired from my two days work and also form sneezing for about a week. My system is a little fatigued and I needed a lot of pain killers. I took 650 mg of Tylenol to just ease up the soreness and hopefully I can rest it tomorrow.
But tomorrow will be more hectic for me because I have to teach Pediatrics Class with Batch 38 in the morning and will end up going home at around 1500H. I will be working for twenty hours total tomorrow so basically I will be totally rendered and succumbed to extreme fatigue tomorrow which will probably lower my immune response albeit worsening my allergies. God... please help me.
Hay... I hope every thing will be better for me this week. And I hope that my allergies will wane in time. This I always pray to always abate so that all my suffering will go away. I wish it could vanish at an instant. Hopefully the mask will work. Although it is not cost effective yet it provided a little relief.
Whatever will happen I still have to be on the alert. I was just hoping and crossing my fingers that it was due to the weather and not the dog. I love the dog so much and I don't have to give her up just to get rid of the allergies. For sure there will be other alternatives and I will continue looking for other reliefs just to protect Diamond from any other harsh decision of getting rid of her.
But anyways, hopefuly everything will be well and I will have to wait till this cold weather wanes so that I will know if it is due to the weather or not. I will still continue to assess and look for any factors that had triggered my allergic reactions and will still continue to use the mask, wash and change my sheets weekly, air my room everyday, and make sure that the dog will not stay on my bed when I'm gone or asleep preventing some danders to cing on my sheets as well as lessening my allergic bouts. Good luck to me!
Saturday, February 9, 2013
My Week In Retrospect
Today is Saturday and I am sitting here at work in the facility trying to figure out what to do. I already did all my stuff so basically right now I have nothing else to do. I decided to blog recalling all the happenings I've had this week. And here I go......
Monday started a bit right. I got out of work at the facility from my graveyard shift the previous night. I am off that day so I basically traded my very precious day off for a longer and relaxing sleep and rest. I went home very tired so I went to sleep calmly and deeply right after I walked Diamond outside for an exercise as well as to relieve her from boredom because I left her for the whole night at the apartment.
Diamond was been growing up good these days. She was super hyperactive now and was been ripping her toys out so well. She was very well trained now especially with her voiding and pooping problems. She can poop and pee at the designated trainer pads and I don't have to pick up the debris anywhere else. Unlike when she came at the apartment first time, that was really problematic.
So the whole day on Monday, I basically didn't do anything because I just wanted to recoup my energy from working three nights straight of graveyard shifts. Even one day of extended sleeping all the way through did not suffice my energy. I still needed more hours to sleep and recuperate. Plus I was not been feeling well last Monday because I think I was brewing with a flu. And I don't have energy to move at all.
I woke up in the late afternoon with Diamond heavily snoring at my side. She was cute and very huggable breathing heavily with her chinky eyes closed and her funny ratlike ears fanning upwards. I am content now because I have a companion in person of Diamond. I am very glad that I decided to adopt a doggie. It was very helpful in easing my loneliness. A good buffer indeed!
Tuesday was quite a little bit sow and lazy. I woke up late close to noon then I finally decided to leave the house. I went to shower after I woke up then changed and left the house. I decided to go to school in Torrance to pick up my paycheck and at the same time pick up some attendance sheets for my clinicals and drop off some of the corrected clinical paperworks of the students from the clinical setting.
After staying a while at the school I then left and deposited my check at the nearby Wells Fargo ATM center near Crenshaw then decided to watch a movie at Rolling Hills Mall since I am just near there at that moment. I parked my car at the mall and headed to buy a ticket at the theater booth for the movie "Lincoln." I still have one-hour-and-a-half time left before the movie starts so I decided to eat first since I have enough time.
I went to "Fishbonze" and ordered a grilled cajun mahi-mahi over rice with coleslaw and a piece of French bread with a lemonade drink. The plate was very delicious and I got full after that. It was a very hearty meal indeed!
I went into the theater and looked for the stadium and waited for the movie to start. The movie was not that good. It was very slow and dragging. I think I fell asleep in the middle of it. When the movie ended I have no idea what it is and all I can remember was Daniel Day-Lewis's "Lincoln" replica. I was stoned maybe. Hahaha...
After the movie I felt hungry again so I decided to eat tasty ribs this time. I went to the nearby "Joe's BBQ Cafe" and ordered the yummy "Texas Longhorn Ribs with sweet-spicy sauce." It was massive but I didn't care. I finished it with clean bones and it was very good and yummy. I was stuffed afterwards. I went home driving from Torrance to West Hollywood with a full stomach and I got home late that night anticipating my clinicals in the morning.
Wednesday had sparked my week to be super hectic because it's the first day of my clinical class. I woke up early and headed to Rosecrans Care Center where we are having our rotation for this month. After consigning with the charge nurse I took all the MARs that we have to cover and started the pre-conference.
I reminded the students about the Infection Control Policy and the HIPAA Policy which I always reiterated to them every week. I also gave them some insructions about observing proper profesionalism and had also tackled to them their requirements and assignments for the whole week. I gave them their respective MARs and told them to do their respective drug studies.
Today we were assigned with eight G-tube residents and we started early after Damaris had given all her resident's meds. We finished at almost noon after we did the blood sugar fingersticks for the diabetic residents. We went to lunch at Subway together with the whole group and we were having a lot of fun there especially with Christopher, Christian, and Nicole. Thanks to Christopher for giving us a ride on his compact blue Lexus car.
At 1300H we convened back at the facility for the post coference where I gave them some practice exercise about care plans and also some NCLEX questions for their current subject which is "Fluids and Electrolytes." We left the facility at around 1500H.
I went home tired but I felt really good. Before going home I passed by at the salon for my manicure and pedicure. Time to have a little bit of vanity. Actually I really need it because my foot nails are very long and looks icky alreaady.
Thursday was also the same as Wednesday. I assigned the students the same residents as the previous day for continuity of care and at the same time for them to really know the resident's diagnosis and medications as well as established and familiarized their routine for that specific resident. I told them that they gonna take care of their own resident for three days until Friday. I also assigned two students to follow the wound care nurse to do the wound treatments.
We finished our med pass close to lunchtime after we did the fingerstick blood sugar for all the diabetic residents in the East Station. I went with the same group (Christopher, Christian, and Nicole) for lunch and at this time we went to Jack in the Box. We have so much fun with our conversation there when a bum guy popped up from somewhere giving us some horrible comic jokes. We gave him some coins for that and he just kept going on laying us some of his horrid jokes.
Our post-conference mainly consists of baby care plan and some pointers about pharmacology. I also tested them about "Fluids and Electrolytes" and we culminated our post-coference at 1500H. Driving home was a struggle because the traffic was very bad at that time. I got home very tired so I slept a little bit. I didn't even know what Diamond was been doing during that time but when I woke up I saw her beside me sleeping and scooting on my left armpit. It was a very funny site I guess.
Friday was kind of dragging maybe because it is the last day of the working weekdays as well as it was sporadically raining outside. We kept the same assignment and I was testing the students about their drugs at the cart side and then asked them a lot of questions about their resident's diagnosis and treatment regimen.
We finished medicating roughly very early at 1130H and I went to lunch with CCN (Christopher, Christian, and Nicole.) We went to McDonald's at this time and we stayed there after our time to go backto the facility was almost over. After we ate we were discussing about sex and we were making fun about it. That was the most hilarious moment I've had had with the three of them and I never imagined it that way.
We wrapped up our post-conference with a math test and the students looks very tired at that moment. I also asked them to gave me a baby care plan about burns. We left the facility at around 1500H.
At 1900H I went to work at the facility and it was the start of my night time work in the nursing home as a RN Supervisor. It was a very hectic night, considering it was my first day. There were orders left undone by the previous shift so I have to continue where the supervisor had left and finish it as per protocol. The night was very busy but it was uneventful I guess. No untoward incidents had happened, thank God.
I went home the next day, Saturday, nibbled a little bread for breakfast and then went to sleep with my dog after I walked her outside for an exercise and walk. I had a good sleep and I woke up at 1600H preparing and ironing my scrub for the night's work.
So far my Saturday night was good and here I am blogging off myself recalling all the week's activities and happenings. It was a good week indeed despite of some minor obstacles but I guess it was quite a memorable week to me. The week is not finish yet because tomorrow, Sunday, will be another special day.
This Sunday will be the start of the weeklong Chinese New Year celebration in downtown Los Angeles and I am planning to go to Chinatown tomorrow to see how it is to celebrate the New Year. It will b emy first time there for this kind of event. I heard all the area will be covered in "red", a lucky color for the Chinese. "Kung Hei Phat Choi!"
So tomorrow I will bring Diamond for a vet check-up to ask for an approval for her spay surgery sometime this month. I hope it will be okayed. I will also be meeting a very special guy and friend, "Antonio Biaggi" whom I always admire as a porn star. I will ask him to sign some of the pictures I've been hoarding and keeping, for me to show to my friends that I actually meet this handsome and nice porn celebrity. He will meet me at San Vicente Inn at West Hollywood tomorrow. Can't wait to see this very awesome guy.
Can't also wait what will happen and awaits for me for tomorrow. Whatever it is..... I am thankful already to God about it. Life is always good to me, yeah.....
Monday started a bit right. I got out of work at the facility from my graveyard shift the previous night. I am off that day so I basically traded my very precious day off for a longer and relaxing sleep and rest. I went home very tired so I went to sleep calmly and deeply right after I walked Diamond outside for an exercise as well as to relieve her from boredom because I left her for the whole night at the apartment.
Diamond was been growing up good these days. She was super hyperactive now and was been ripping her toys out so well. She was very well trained now especially with her voiding and pooping problems. She can poop and pee at the designated trainer pads and I don't have to pick up the debris anywhere else. Unlike when she came at the apartment first time, that was really problematic.
So the whole day on Monday, I basically didn't do anything because I just wanted to recoup my energy from working three nights straight of graveyard shifts. Even one day of extended sleeping all the way through did not suffice my energy. I still needed more hours to sleep and recuperate. Plus I was not been feeling well last Monday because I think I was brewing with a flu. And I don't have energy to move at all.
I woke up in the late afternoon with Diamond heavily snoring at my side. She was cute and very huggable breathing heavily with her chinky eyes closed and her funny ratlike ears fanning upwards. I am content now because I have a companion in person of Diamond. I am very glad that I decided to adopt a doggie. It was very helpful in easing my loneliness. A good buffer indeed!
Tuesday was quite a little bit sow and lazy. I woke up late close to noon then I finally decided to leave the house. I went to shower after I woke up then changed and left the house. I decided to go to school in Torrance to pick up my paycheck and at the same time pick up some attendance sheets for my clinicals and drop off some of the corrected clinical paperworks of the students from the clinical setting.
After staying a while at the school I then left and deposited my check at the nearby Wells Fargo ATM center near Crenshaw then decided to watch a movie at Rolling Hills Mall since I am just near there at that moment. I parked my car at the mall and headed to buy a ticket at the theater booth for the movie "Lincoln." I still have one-hour-and-a-half time left before the movie starts so I decided to eat first since I have enough time.
I went to "Fishbonze" and ordered a grilled cajun mahi-mahi over rice with coleslaw and a piece of French bread with a lemonade drink. The plate was very delicious and I got full after that. It was a very hearty meal indeed!
I went into the theater and looked for the stadium and waited for the movie to start. The movie was not that good. It was very slow and dragging. I think I fell asleep in the middle of it. When the movie ended I have no idea what it is and all I can remember was Daniel Day-Lewis's "Lincoln" replica. I was stoned maybe. Hahaha...
After the movie I felt hungry again so I decided to eat tasty ribs this time. I went to the nearby "Joe's BBQ Cafe" and ordered the yummy "Texas Longhorn Ribs with sweet-spicy sauce." It was massive but I didn't care. I finished it with clean bones and it was very good and yummy. I was stuffed afterwards. I went home driving from Torrance to West Hollywood with a full stomach and I got home late that night anticipating my clinicals in the morning.
Wednesday had sparked my week to be super hectic because it's the first day of my clinical class. I woke up early and headed to Rosecrans Care Center where we are having our rotation for this month. After consigning with the charge nurse I took all the MARs that we have to cover and started the pre-conference.
I reminded the students about the Infection Control Policy and the HIPAA Policy which I always reiterated to them every week. I also gave them some insructions about observing proper profesionalism and had also tackled to them their requirements and assignments for the whole week. I gave them their respective MARs and told them to do their respective drug studies.
Today we were assigned with eight G-tube residents and we started early after Damaris had given all her resident's meds. We finished at almost noon after we did the blood sugar fingersticks for the diabetic residents. We went to lunch at Subway together with the whole group and we were having a lot of fun there especially with Christopher, Christian, and Nicole. Thanks to Christopher for giving us a ride on his compact blue Lexus car.
At 1300H we convened back at the facility for the post coference where I gave them some practice exercise about care plans and also some NCLEX questions for their current subject which is "Fluids and Electrolytes." We left the facility at around 1500H.
I went home tired but I felt really good. Before going home I passed by at the salon for my manicure and pedicure. Time to have a little bit of vanity. Actually I really need it because my foot nails are very long and looks icky alreaady.
Thursday was also the same as Wednesday. I assigned the students the same residents as the previous day for continuity of care and at the same time for them to really know the resident's diagnosis and medications as well as established and familiarized their routine for that specific resident. I told them that they gonna take care of their own resident for three days until Friday. I also assigned two students to follow the wound care nurse to do the wound treatments.
We finished our med pass close to lunchtime after we did the fingerstick blood sugar for all the diabetic residents in the East Station. I went with the same group (Christopher, Christian, and Nicole) for lunch and at this time we went to Jack in the Box. We have so much fun with our conversation there when a bum guy popped up from somewhere giving us some horrible comic jokes. We gave him some coins for that and he just kept going on laying us some of his horrid jokes.
Our post-conference mainly consists of baby care plan and some pointers about pharmacology. I also tested them about "Fluids and Electrolytes" and we culminated our post-coference at 1500H. Driving home was a struggle because the traffic was very bad at that time. I got home very tired so I slept a little bit. I didn't even know what Diamond was been doing during that time but when I woke up I saw her beside me sleeping and scooting on my left armpit. It was a very funny site I guess.
Friday was kind of dragging maybe because it is the last day of the working weekdays as well as it was sporadically raining outside. We kept the same assignment and I was testing the students about their drugs at the cart side and then asked them a lot of questions about their resident's diagnosis and treatment regimen.
We finished medicating roughly very early at 1130H and I went to lunch with CCN (Christopher, Christian, and Nicole.) We went to McDonald's at this time and we stayed there after our time to go backto the facility was almost over. After we ate we were discussing about sex and we were making fun about it. That was the most hilarious moment I've had had with the three of them and I never imagined it that way.
We wrapped up our post-conference with a math test and the students looks very tired at that moment. I also asked them to gave me a baby care plan about burns. We left the facility at around 1500H.
At 1900H I went to work at the facility and it was the start of my night time work in the nursing home as a RN Supervisor. It was a very hectic night, considering it was my first day. There were orders left undone by the previous shift so I have to continue where the supervisor had left and finish it as per protocol. The night was very busy but it was uneventful I guess. No untoward incidents had happened, thank God.
I went home the next day, Saturday, nibbled a little bread for breakfast and then went to sleep with my dog after I walked her outside for an exercise and walk. I had a good sleep and I woke up at 1600H preparing and ironing my scrub for the night's work.
So far my Saturday night was good and here I am blogging off myself recalling all the week's activities and happenings. It was a good week indeed despite of some minor obstacles but I guess it was quite a memorable week to me. The week is not finish yet because tomorrow, Sunday, will be another special day.
This Sunday will be the start of the weeklong Chinese New Year celebration in downtown Los Angeles and I am planning to go to Chinatown tomorrow to see how it is to celebrate the New Year. It will b emy first time there for this kind of event. I heard all the area will be covered in "red", a lucky color for the Chinese. "Kung Hei Phat Choi!"
So tomorrow I will bring Diamond for a vet check-up to ask for an approval for her spay surgery sometime this month. I hope it will be okayed. I will also be meeting a very special guy and friend, "Antonio Biaggi" whom I always admire as a porn star. I will ask him to sign some of the pictures I've been hoarding and keeping, for me to show to my friends that I actually meet this handsome and nice porn celebrity. He will meet me at San Vicente Inn at West Hollywood tomorrow. Can't wait to see this very awesome guy.
Can't also wait what will happen and awaits for me for tomorrow. Whatever it is..... I am thankful already to God about it. Life is always good to me, yeah.....
Sunday, February 3, 2013
An Opinion About Today's Horoscope
When I opened my horoscope today I was greeted with this very catchy line saying ...... "Life is not a competition, you don't have to fight so hard to win." Well, I don't know if I will be inspired by it or not. Reading through it I thought of a lot of struggles that I have experienced in the past that had contradicted to this kind of notion.
Well, we all know that life always flows freely. We must go through its course and what ever will happen along the way it is what God had magnificently planned for us. I personally felt sometimes that accidents happened for a cause. It helps us learn from our own individual shortcomings and mistakes. From it we equipped ourselves with good-constructive defenses so that when it happened again we all know how to deal with them.
I am a person who always wants and gladly welcome any unpredictable challenges. I grew a lot from them as I grow up into a steadfast and confident individual. It helped me successfully achieve my personal maturity faster and it made me a lot more endearingly competent in everything I do because it had taught me various mechanisms and devices on how to deal with life's unsuspecting ultimate challenges.
Yes I agree one hundred percent thwt there is no competition in life. The only obvious competition maybe is myself because sometimes I anxiously and obssessively pressure myself to be obnoxiously perfect. And in totally or partially achieving perfection I felt that I am the best of the best and nobody can beat me in anything, forgetting that I am only temporary here on this earth. I sometimes think that I am impeccably invisible and also nearly vulnerable or unaffected with any perceptible affection and natural raw emotions. This sporadically happens to me sometimes.
As for me, I always took life easy as it is. I never hustle or pressure myself in order to achieve or fast track my set goals everyday. I always planned carefully in order to achieve my desired outcomes fully. And I am very meticulous in planning out everything because I wanted to do it only once and not to commit any unforgivable and unsuspecting mistakes and do the same vicious cycle all over again.
When I have read the passage from my horoscope today I immediately thought of my daily struggles in life that had pertinently made and molded the real me. I thought of those helpless times that no one had aided me which had almost made me gave up and falter with life but I hardheadedly held on and stayed grounded as well as humbled myself. These struggles had given me a lot of educational insights and unrelenting courage to live life to the fullest and not to insistingly and pushingly fight it in order to be in the steady and comforting nirvana.
Running through all the life's courses have been a very challenging and struggling moment but it's worth the fight I say. The unchanging experience of tackling a problem had given me a lot of personal courage and half-met skills to face the realities of life. It's roughly tough but it's fleetingly bittersweet. I could not demandingly ask for more. Life is full of surprises and it's never a vulnerable competition at all.
Now that I'm old enough and has a lot of stone built wisdom gained from strangely growing up....... life had indomitably given me enough strength and courage in cunningly judge and perceive what to expect every day. Conspicuously expecting for the unsuspecting worse can actually ready myself vulnerably for the extreme challenges that unobviously comes ahead. At least my innate defenses were already well equipped on confidently expecting for the unpredictable worse and it had greatly helped me a lot.
There were times sometimes that I am extremely tired of the same things that was happening everyday but now I fully and intelligently understand why it happen. I don't have a massive patience to wait for something or anything as well as do things over and over again magnanimously but now I know why it has to be like that apparently. Wisdom had greatly taught me all this well connected patience virtue and it had helped me most of the time.
When someone had reached their own steady maturity it is sometimes expected that life itself will always paved the way for the unpredictable best. With the unexpected lessons from the past experiences and the tenacity to greatly learn for the better, as well as the courage to tackle each surprising challenges, life is just a temporary passing. I never had any unsuspected inkling that life has a lot of confusing ins and outs but now I know how important it is.
We breath... we eat.... we sleep.... we play..... we go to school.... etc. These are just some very important expected actions and functions that we have to do in life to achieve the most searched success and happiness for the better. These basic physiologic functions needs to be achieved first in order to progress to the next level which is the psychological enhancement. And life must be just like that as a continuous and dynamic cycle. I don't know if someone could contradict but thanks anyway for your collective agreement.
Seeking for an ultimate power can be obviously bad or good but sometimes power is always misunderstood by many. That's why some people struggled just to attain this very special rare individual privilege to gradually better their lives. Power sometimes can be the root of all evil but to me it depends on how you individually perceive, cunningly percept, and brilliantly use it. But the temptation to over use it is sometimes inevitable and can be erroneously harmful to somebody and to everybody depending on how it is being uncontrollably used.
Life can be a very long journey sometimes and can be unsuspectingly short as well. No matter how we tread our own individual life's pathways, we still can perceptibly achieve huge success in the end, be it a minor or a major event, no matter what happens. Life is indeed a humongous puzzle to solve and fathom that is why we need to magically solve it on our own individual capabilities and abilities. C'est la vie!
Well, we all know that life always flows freely. We must go through its course and what ever will happen along the way it is what God had magnificently planned for us. I personally felt sometimes that accidents happened for a cause. It helps us learn from our own individual shortcomings and mistakes. From it we equipped ourselves with good-constructive defenses so that when it happened again we all know how to deal with them.
I am a person who always wants and gladly welcome any unpredictable challenges. I grew a lot from them as I grow up into a steadfast and confident individual. It helped me successfully achieve my personal maturity faster and it made me a lot more endearingly competent in everything I do because it had taught me various mechanisms and devices on how to deal with life's unsuspecting ultimate challenges.
Yes I agree one hundred percent thwt there is no competition in life. The only obvious competition maybe is myself because sometimes I anxiously and obssessively pressure myself to be obnoxiously perfect. And in totally or partially achieving perfection I felt that I am the best of the best and nobody can beat me in anything, forgetting that I am only temporary here on this earth. I sometimes think that I am impeccably invisible and also nearly vulnerable or unaffected with any perceptible affection and natural raw emotions. This sporadically happens to me sometimes.
As for me, I always took life easy as it is. I never hustle or pressure myself in order to achieve or fast track my set goals everyday. I always planned carefully in order to achieve my desired outcomes fully. And I am very meticulous in planning out everything because I wanted to do it only once and not to commit any unforgivable and unsuspecting mistakes and do the same vicious cycle all over again.
When I have read the passage from my horoscope today I immediately thought of my daily struggles in life that had pertinently made and molded the real me. I thought of those helpless times that no one had aided me which had almost made me gave up and falter with life but I hardheadedly held on and stayed grounded as well as humbled myself. These struggles had given me a lot of educational insights and unrelenting courage to live life to the fullest and not to insistingly and pushingly fight it in order to be in the steady and comforting nirvana.
Running through all the life's courses have been a very challenging and struggling moment but it's worth the fight I say. The unchanging experience of tackling a problem had given me a lot of personal courage and half-met skills to face the realities of life. It's roughly tough but it's fleetingly bittersweet. I could not demandingly ask for more. Life is full of surprises and it's never a vulnerable competition at all.
Now that I'm old enough and has a lot of stone built wisdom gained from strangely growing up....... life had indomitably given me enough strength and courage in cunningly judge and perceive what to expect every day. Conspicuously expecting for the unsuspecting worse can actually ready myself vulnerably for the extreme challenges that unobviously comes ahead. At least my innate defenses were already well equipped on confidently expecting for the unpredictable worse and it had greatly helped me a lot.
There were times sometimes that I am extremely tired of the same things that was happening everyday but now I fully and intelligently understand why it happen. I don't have a massive patience to wait for something or anything as well as do things over and over again magnanimously but now I know why it has to be like that apparently. Wisdom had greatly taught me all this well connected patience virtue and it had helped me most of the time.
When someone had reached their own steady maturity it is sometimes expected that life itself will always paved the way for the unpredictable best. With the unexpected lessons from the past experiences and the tenacity to greatly learn for the better, as well as the courage to tackle each surprising challenges, life is just a temporary passing. I never had any unsuspected inkling that life has a lot of confusing ins and outs but now I know how important it is.
We breath... we eat.... we sleep.... we play..... we go to school.... etc. These are just some very important expected actions and functions that we have to do in life to achieve the most searched success and happiness for the better. These basic physiologic functions needs to be achieved first in order to progress to the next level which is the psychological enhancement. And life must be just like that as a continuous and dynamic cycle. I don't know if someone could contradict but thanks anyway for your collective agreement.
Seeking for an ultimate power can be obviously bad or good but sometimes power is always misunderstood by many. That's why some people struggled just to attain this very special rare individual privilege to gradually better their lives. Power sometimes can be the root of all evil but to me it depends on how you individually perceive, cunningly percept, and brilliantly use it. But the temptation to over use it is sometimes inevitable and can be erroneously harmful to somebody and to everybody depending on how it is being uncontrollably used.
Life can be a very long journey sometimes and can be unsuspectingly short as well. No matter how we tread our own individual life's pathways, we still can perceptibly achieve huge success in the end, be it a minor or a major event, no matter what happens. Life is indeed a humongous puzzle to solve and fathom that is why we need to magically solve it on our own individual capabilities and abilities. C'est la vie!
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