Almost Served For A Grand Jury

Work was been so hectic lately that I cannot even get up on time in the morning. well, what could you expect of having a three to four hours sleep? Of course the body is always vulnerable. But it's very unpredictable sometimes. Depends how tired I am or how recharged I am maybe.

I also noticed that when I have a long off, like three days off, the first day of work was a bitch. It seems that I am always delayed in my work. That's I always wonder why. It seems that it's like that all the time. And it all comes out to how good I am rested and then the following day everything is just smooth sailing.

Lately, I was called for a jury duty and off course it was a hassle. I gave an early noticed at my job regarding the subpoena and the first day was gone to waste because I wasn't called. Come Tuesday I was instructed to report and I woke up early but I ended up sitting at the assembly room until lunch waiting for nothing.

After lunch, an hour later after we came back, they called like twenty people to assemble because there was a high profile case to attend to in another courthouse and most of the people volunteered. There were like 50 to 60 people questioned regarding their part and also the reasons why some had declined.

After that group I was also called with another group to report to Court 15 on the third floor. We waited for a while and then we were called inside. The judge introduced himself and introduce also the panel of defendant and the plaintiff. We were told that the case will last for five days and the judge politely asked the group who will decline and instructed them to form a line for questioning.

I was ambivalent at first but I forcibly stood up and lined in the queue. When it was my turn the judge asked me why I said no to the jury and I told him that I was still on probationary period in my new job and that the company doesn't pay for jury duty. The judge then asked the opinion of the plaintiff's and defendant's attorneys and they all accepted my reasoning.

After that the judge told me that I am excused from the jury and he instructed me to go back to the assembly room an wait for more instructions.

I went back downstairs and spoke to the attendant then she instructed me to wait. I waited there until 1630H and then the staff started to issue the green paper and discharged us for the day.

Whew, I was almost selected for a five day jury duty but I got a sly escape but at least the judge was very complacent and lenient to grant me the excuse. Thank God!

Odyssey Of The Mind

I am in quite a limbo right now that my mind was been slumped somewhere. Somewhere out there..... that is chaotic and full of tangled reflections. I just cannot go ahead and decide because of the rigorous and arduous process of assimilating facts.

Added to that the toll of fatigue have given it's way to inadvertent confusion. I just cannot process the facts and provoke the inner psyche to think. As if making a decision right now consumes the necessary and vital energy that supplies the innermost portion of the brain. It is very exhausting.

Well, for me right now..... all I felt is void. I felt that my mind was empty. As if it was been drained until the very bottom of it. So abysmal! Unfathomable! Scary! I felt so numbed that I could not feel everything that surrounded me. As if I am high and floating.

Yeah... I just felt like that and still my memory was been registering to keep my eyes open and be very vigilant of what I am doing to prevent incurring more mistakes. I am so vulnerable right now that I am paranoid of what I am doing.

There are a lot of things that boggled my mind and I am so vulnerable that I cannot process each and everyone of the things needed to be done, to do, and will be (could be) done.

There's a lot of information to process and thinking about them had made be turn one-eighty degrees. I am very very exhausted. I am very very tired and fatigued. All I just need is to rest and get ready to face another day and another challenge.

I just wanted to close my eyes and for a split second wander my mind somewhere that is peaceful, orderly, and harmonious. It will be a good feeling if I can do that. Maybe.... I can..... right now.

Thank you and ciao!

Honoring Words

I really don't know what to blog right now. I have a lot of ideas but seems my brain appears fried right now. But oh well..... I'll try typing and we'll see what it will make. Hopefully it will be fruitful.

I might probably write some random thoughts about similar experiences.... why not? Life is not getting easier lately. I mean it really takes a tooth for a tooth to get on track but I don't care anymore. I'm just merely tired and exhausted now.

Firstly, my DON at Playa del Rey was offering me a unit manager position last month and when I told her about my 45 days vacation this October and November she changed her mind. Like I care either. I wasn't the one asking. She was the one offering and now that I told her about my plans she retracted her decisions. What an unprofessional!

Well, I'm not really hoping for the position because I felt that I'm not gonna last in that place but you know in the first place she shouldn't have offered it to me. I didn't even asked for it and she was the one insisting for me to orient for the job, now the air had shifted because of me tendering my vacation leave.

Ah well.... why should I bother myself about people who doesn't have a word of honor. I mean she has to honor her words right? But oh well, if they are happy with it, I'm might surprise them by leaving without due notice. I don't need to work there anyway.

My decision to leave that place is because firstly, it took me a long drive to go there. Beating the traffic took me at least an hour to get there. It's just really stressful to do that everyday and it's not really healthwise to keep such tensions everyday. It's very stressful.

Secondly, the bulk of work is too much, from passing meds, to doing wound treatments, initiating care plans and doing a lot of bulky works. It's not ideal at all. We were overworked and had a lot of things to do paper wise. Not at all ideal!

Thirdly, of course... the unprofessionalism is rampart. I'm almost emetic trying to not accept the fact that that place was overly reeking of unprofessional behavior. From favoritism, to hyprocrisy, not honoring words, and from being overly dramatic. It really made me puke!

Ah well, just airing out my frustrations which was basically the gist of my story today. There you are at least I've written what's in my mind right now. At first, I didn't have anything to write and now, viola! Finish the product finally and it was fruitful although it was a pessimistic missal yet productive. Ciao!