On Friendship

I always got a side comment from other people that I project a friendly personality and it touched and affected me a lot. I mean I know I am cool and I am that way.

I didn't know that I am a nice person. All I know is that I treat a person as a human being who has feelings and that's it. I don't intend to harm them but treat them with respect, love, care, and understanding. That's the ultimate principle my parents had taught me when I was little.

The golden rule had always influenced me a lot in my dealings and relationships with other people. Being a non-practicing Catholic I still strictly hold on to my ideals, morals, standards, and values. They were still intact within me. The golden rule had always taught and influenced me to "not do unto others what I don't want to do to myself."

It all comes back to ourselves actually. What ever is applicable to you in a moral sense is also applicable to others but always remember that there's always an exception to every rule. We must also consider some very important factors that will affect our influence to other people.

For me, I just wanted to be simple with others and be cool to them not knowing that my being cool was extra nice for them and had impacted a lot to them. And I am always surprised when they approached me or tell other people that I am extremely nice in such a way that I can hear them praising me for a job well done.

I always go the extra mile to treasure all my every acquaintances. I always reflected a sense of hospitality to them and as well as a caring attitude to them. Maybe that's the aspect that had touched them and made them not to forget my friendship.

But on the otherhand I have to safe guard of myself because I had some situations before that had put me in a position of getting abused at because of my extra niceness at the expense of a friendly relationship. And that had gave me an enormous lessons before which I regretted having done it.

It's cool to have touched someone's life and it really affected me a lot greatly, too. I just can't contain my happiness and fulfillment to see them enjoying my company and close friendship. I am just content at that and I am proud of that. I can say I am a shallow person but I am that way.

Friendship is no game. It is hard to earn it in actuality. We must treasure each person we make friends because they are special people we seldom find and meet. As the years elapsed friendship will grow deeper and more closer and the bonding being developed will be precious and hard to earn.

Friendship can be likened to a newly made wine in which as it aged slowly it tastes good and delicious you'll ask and yearn for more. And as the wine aged it becomes more expensive and unaffordable, it is timeless and a luxury.

Whereas on friendship as it grows deeper in years it becomes more extra close just like a family and it is treasured and regarded with extra care because once you lose a friendship it will not gonna be the same again. And that's the truthful and hurtful fact I've seen in my whole life's existence.

A friendship is a serious thing and we must always treasure everything we have in the name of it, for it is hard to earn it and we could never go back to square again and start all over again for it's not gonna be the same again, believe me. Once you ruin it, it will be forever ruined and not the same again.

Friendship is a fragile thing. It is like a breakable vase that when it's broken you can put the broken pieces all together and glue them up but the breaks will still be visible and the fragile vase will not be the same again as in it's original form and appearance.

The hurt you cause to a friendship will always be there and it will never be mended or cured professionally that's why a friendship is always a serious thing. And I always believe in these very simple but believable principles.

No matter what we do we always have to remember that people are always vulnerable and there's no perfect human being in this place we call earth. But with the beliefs we always hang to we must always be wary not to hurt other people's feelings because when we do that, it's very hard to erase it from the people's mind who we hurt and mend their broken heart.

We must always leave a good and indelible mark in others because in that way we will earn their respect and at the same time earn their precious friendship. Friendship is the best thing that always happens in a person's life.

I myself had a few circle of friends but with these selected few I had earned great respect, love, understanding, and affection that made me a really happy and fulfilled person because I know I am a good friend indeed.

It takes a lot of time and energy to earn other people's respect and believe me you have to sweat blood for it. You can always encounter people contradicting you but don't just stop there because the world never turns without those people.

Remember in a movie, the movie will be bland and no meaning without a villain. And these people spiced up a friendship. There is always opposites in what we do and we must be cautious with them because if were not they will cause great havoc and excruciating harm and hurt in our relatioships with other people.

There's always a balance in everything and we must be receptive to our own surroundings in order to avoid such unbalanced and stressful situations, perspectives, and events to happen in our daily undertakings.

Life is cool as well as friendship. We always have to size up who to mingle in order for us to achieve total happiness. In the end I leave you with something to think upon; "In a friend you found a second self."

Is this true to you? I know this holds true to me and I always believe it as the way it should be.

Transitioning Smoothly

Yeah, I've been voicing out my heartaches and frustrations during my ER orientation on this blogsite yet all things that had happened to me these days had some full effect on who and what I am now.

It's really hard sometimes for me to fathom why people are so mean at me. It really surprised me a lot to know that there were people who always wished only my failures and not my success. I didn't know that they have to do a lot of things and device all means to put me down and hurt me.

But honestly, for me this determined moves against me had gave me some very important strength to be strong and stay positive as well as to show humility to them because I do believe that there's always someone who will have to stoop down in order not to aggravate the already heated situation.

Despite of all this negative vibes around me I still continued to have faith in myself that I can do it. It really worked on me a lot of times. I just continued to do my own thing all the time as well as trying to be open with everybody despite of the cold reception I got in the unit. I always stayed humble everyday but all I got is a cold shrug.

Life is always liquid and flowing. It has to wonderfully forge forward despite what the atmosphere is around, be it sunny, gloomy, unpromising, uninviting, or rainy. It has to thrive and survive greatly despite of the unwelcoming surroundings it has in. That's how life is thriving so collectively.

Now that my orientation is nearly ending this month I feel that I got it now despite of the bad atmosphere in that place. The snobbish and unwelcoming people around doesn't bother me at all. I already got immune to them.... hahaha. What is important for me now is the welfare of my patients. As long as my patients were being taken cared of, that's all right with me.

I always believe that as long as I don't harm anybody I feel I am cool and fulfilled. I always believed that God is always my refuge and I always thanked and appreciated Him for giving me the tenacity and will power to stay in that unwelcoming place full of negative auras. My faith always had wonderfully held me on to be unwavering and strong in order to help and serve my clienteles.

Now that I am nearing the end of my ER orientation I am really and extremely proud of myself for keeping me intact and unharmed emotionally inside. Life had always protectively held me and nurtured me in conquering over all the bad elements that's trying to hinder and curtail me to go to the summit, nirvana, acme or top of a successful career.

I always screamed and bursted a happy thought inside me to keep me strong and alert as I battle the aura of the negative vibes around me to show and project an unwavering determination to conquer these challenges every day in order to be successful and victorious in the end. I'm always proud of myself for being so resilient and determined in the achievement of my daily goals and objectives.

Although changing another specialty entails me to start from square, I am always willing and ready to face the challenges despite I will experienced being stepped on, and that's the harsh reality of it. I will never ever learn my lessons if I wouldn't be receptive to be challenged in that way, although it shouldn't be like that anyway. But yeah, I really learned to keep myself cool despite of the cold reception I've got. It's really an enormous challenge but it doesn't deter me to keep going.

Biases and unobvious discrimination at the work setting always happen every where and it's always inevitable and unavoidable. And people should always learn how to be extremely resilient and keep determined and project a spirit of will power to survive the hurtful challenges every day. Keeping ourselves strong each day will help greatly in achieving our daily objectives.

So far the transition in my change of experience and heart for another nursing specialty was been wonderfully uneventful, fulfillingly productive, magically safe, attractively promising despite of some occasional bumps and hurdles, and as well crossing smoothly to survive the day. Thank God for holding me on to the end. Thank you Lord always!

Family Time

I was off for four days lately and I was been expecting some family to visit from Texas. One of my second cousin whom I have never seen for fifteen years will be here together with her family. They were long driving across the west coast from the Lone Star State.

I got out of my work last Monday morning very very tired and was planning to rest for the whole day but I was expecting my second cousin to come that day and was been waiting for her call but I decided to meet her the next day on a Tuesday.

I slept for the whole afternoon after I got home from my clinicals from Long Beach Care Center. I headed directly to my clinicals after I got out of ER from the previous night's work. When I woke up around midnigt I noticed my cousin left a lot of messages on my voicemail telling me that they were already in Los Angeles and was staying at my other cousin's house in Orange County.

The next day I started to call her up but it seems that they were already out for the whole day at Disneyland. I was told by my cousin in Orange County that the whole family went for a whole day tour at Disneyland. I kept leaving messages on her celfone but it seems that they will be there for the whole day. So I decided to just met her up and her family the next day at my auntie's house in Santa Clarita.

I started to just read some more cases for my ER orientation in order to just keep my time productive. At least I kept myself informed and educated about the very important cases being found in the ER unit.

The next day I called my Auntie in Santa Clarita and verified if my second cousin will be heading there that day. She cofirmed that my cousin will be staying there for the night. She told me that my cousin and her family were heading to Universal Studios so I told her that I will just meet them there.

I headed to Universal Studios after having lunch at the Red Lobster at Santa Clarita. When I saw my cousin we were so happy, giggling, and acting like little kids again. It's just like we were little kids again reminiscing all our happy and memorable moments when we were little.

I got to met her dutiful and funny hubby for the first time and their three little gorgeous and smart kids. They were a beautiful and awesome family. My uncle and auntie were also in tow and also my cousin's mother-in-law was with the group. It was a very poignant and happy reunion after fifteen years back when we were still working at our hometown hospital.

Life is never boring indeed. It's always a cycle and things always happen with a purpose. It was very awe-inspiring and I can't believe this moment will happen seeing my second cousin for so many years. I got to see some of my family and bonded with them for the rest of the day.

After strolling at the Universal Citywalk we went to my other auntie's place in Santa Clarita and continue our endless talks and conversations there. We were also invited for a welcome party at one of my other auntie's place and I got to meet more family members there, hanging out, talking, and bonding with all of them. It was fun to see everybody around!

The party was a surprise party for my cousin in celebration for her recent birthday this week and there were a lot of food and a lot of unending stories being talked and shared at. It was a very nice and memorable celebration and we were all stuffed up. We even had some take home goodies to bring after the party.

After the party we headed back to Santa Clarita at my auntie's place and continue our intimate and non-stop conversations there. I decided to just stay over for the whole night for this is a once in a lifetime moment to be with my second cousin and her family and my uncles and aunties.

It was good to see her and her beautiful family. I can't express my happiness upon knowing that she is coming over and see the whole clan. It's just like been years ago when we were little enjoying the joys of life and the promise of our innocent youthfulness. Oh.... how I feel it's just the same again.

Impertinent Musings

Well, it's been like very bland nowadays. I have nothing to do except for reading a lot of papers. Just trying to be knowledgeable of the various cases being seen in ER.

Now that I am trying to be (trying to make a quote and quote sign in the air) an ER adult nurse I am trying to familiarize myself with the adult cases being encountered in ER. I know it will take time for me to familiarize with them yet it's my responsibility to know it by heart so that I will know how to act at the right time when I get to encounter those.

They say that enough preparation and knowledge will save our time being wasted. Anticipation is the best thing to combat unpreparedness. It is always my habit to prepare and know what to expect in every situation. I always make sure that I am knowledgeable of what I do because I don't want to act stupid in front of other people.

I know that sometimes things had happened unexpectedly and I suddenly forgot what to do and that will put me in an awkward and embarrassing situation. I really don't want that to happen but shit always happen and it's inevitable.

Right now, nothing is really special to do so I just chill here in my apartment and make and keep myself busy by reading as much as I could to prepare me for the worse in my current job. I hope this will help and benefit me in the near future. And for sure it will I believe.

I always have the good faith in everything I do and I always believe in myself all the time. I know people will come in our way to destabilize us and intimidate us and that's the most irritating thing to happen.

Sometimes we got affected by them and sometimes not. But I just can't imagine why there's always some people who find it amusing to make someone's life miserable. I don't know why?

Well, I think these people just have nothing to do in their life. I think their day is not always complete without pestering somebody's life. I think they were just being born as unmeaningful bullies and find it very fulfilling and appealing to have somebody in a state of an unbalanced homeostasis.

Well, for me seldom I don't get affected by them but sometimes it's really irritating to be the object of their annoying and irritating behaviors. Sometimes it's much better to ignore them constantly and ignoringly act like I'm not getting affected by them because if I do that they tend to not pester me at all. But sometimes I can't help getting back at them bitterly.

Life is full of people who in one way or the other affects it to keep it going, even people who are unimportant and doesn't even contribute to it's total existence. They are all magically and surprisingly placed and interwoven in the realm of our life's existence. They are just annoying distractors and malignant perpetrators in our life and serves us nothing in our perpetual existence.

And we need to determindedly weed them out from our existence in order for us to keep life going. Distractors are the one's that makes life go slow and sometimes makes us extremely miserable. And we must know how to avoid them or else know how to deal with them.

We must channel a positive energy in to ourselves so that the distractors will not be persuaded to block us towards the fulfillment of our goals. Believe me life is never easy at all if they exist.

Right now, I am doing these impertinent musings and I have nothing else to do. I am bored to death and also trying to keep myself busy by reading all this massive information I needed to know as I keep myself thrive in the ER.

They say that filling a jug with drops of water will eventually fill it to the brim. And that's what I've been doing in my life right now. I've been reading topics that I needed in my job everyday for at least two hours for I know that it will help me in the future.

Knowledge is always an ongoing process. We always learn everyday in our life and it's never too late to start educating ourselves with informations we needed for ourselves, our job, our family, and our life. Even though how slow or fast we learn these information, always be certain that we will put them into use at the right time in our life.

Life is never easy and we get to gather some facts, information, and knowledge to always make them useful in our life. For life would be hard if we are not prepared for it. That's the whole truth and nothing but the truth. If it happened to me then I am sure it also will happen to you.

Anticipate all the time and don't procrastinate. Make your time valuable for it will benefit you some day. Live life to the fullest and learn a lot from it. For what we experience today will be our best teacher for what we will be having tomorrow.

Life is never easy but we have to make the most of it. And I have witnessed a lot of them and been a subject of such unpreparedness and procrastinating behavior. Now I know better and I promise to change for the better.

Aaahh...... life's experiences is indeed the best teacher of all!

Going The Distance

In our everyday life we always see to it that we always set out for our goals. We have to aim for it and we have to conquer it no matter what the odds are. We have to always go the distance to attain and realize it.

I was very captivated and fascinated with this song from a Disney movie Hercules and the lyrics kept reverberating at the back of my mind all the time. When always faced with dilemmas and struggles I always sing this song and it will perk me up and make me steadfastly strong and extremely inspired.

This song had inspired me a lot of times in my daily undertakings despite of my weaknesses, failures, and handicap and it never made me falter and turn my back. It made me more intrepid and keep going as I embark to fulfill new goals everyday.

The song starts like, "I have often dreamed of a far-off place, where a hero's welcome will be waiting for me. Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face and a voice keep saying this is where I'm meant to be."

So deep inside me, myself keeps telling me that I always wanted to do this and that and I have to do something in order to stay here and there. That I deserve to stay here so I have to make an enormous effort to deserve myself to stay here. And I'm doing all my best to prove to myself and to others that I really deserve to be here.

"I'll be there someday, I can go the distance. I will find my way, if I can be strong. I know every mile will be worth my while when I go the distance I'll be right where I'll belong."

I know I can reach it by making myself true to my convictions and by taking the roads to it slowly as to my own capacity because I know myself and my self limitations. I know I can be there because I know that's my rightful place despite I've been pushed down, mocked, degraded and discriminated.

"Down an unknown road to embrace my fate. Though that road may wander it will lead me to you. And a thousand years would be worth the wait. It might take a lifetime but somehow I'll see it through. And I won't look, I can go the distance and I'll stay on track, no I won't accept defeat. It's an uphill slope but I won't lose hope till I go the distance and my journey is complete."

Even though I'll be in a strange place, even though how many years it will take me to get there, even though I will encounter a lot of adversities along the way, even though a lot of people are putting me down, I will always still try to get and focused with my goals and attain it succesfully.

I will learn from my mistakes and make them my capital in getting to my goals. I will always stay focused and on track and I won't say it's done and accept defeat because it's a coward's way of losing hope. Although the odds and the ways were steep I will always stay on top of my form and stay victorious in the end.

"But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part. A hero's strength is measured by his heart."

Yet in the end it's your determination on how you get there that all matters. It's your heart to be on top and stay focused that's important because looking beyond the successes you've made is the hardest part if you don't have the heart and soul to get there.

"Like a shooting star, I will go the distance. I will search the world, I will face his heart and harms. I don't care how far, I can go the distance. Till I find my hero's welcome waiting in your arms."

And it the end, going the distance on your own make a lot of difference because at least you've tried it yourself to be there on your own without the help of somebody.

You've scaled the odds on your own, you've never lose hope and was well determined to stay on top of your form in order to commit the happiness and success of your goals which you deserved to be at. And at the end you deserved to be awarded with adulation and love by your friends and families because you made it on your own.

Hope this inspired you a lot as it inspired me so much. Going the distance on our own is never a bad thing but a sure thing. Keep dreaming and start your journey right now.