I'm kind of down lately for no apparent reason. I don't know why. It must have been that I'm very depress or maybe I just don't want to accomplish anything right now. I even called in sick last Friday because I don't feel like working especially if my mind is not working or something is bothering me. Because I know and I think it will not help me work well. I am still very weak and down. Maybe I'm just exhausted about my daily routines. My body is physically giving up. I just realized that there's an end to everything.
I think God always reminds us that at some point in our lives we have some low downs and I just had that. I tend to ignore the fact that I am human. I worked a lot and now had realized that I am very exhausted. I need a big break to just wind up I guess. My mind and body just reminds me that I cannot go on anymore if I still continue to push everything. It's telling me to slow down or else I will crash down big time. And this time I have to listen to what my body is telling me.
Lately, I noticed I was so irritable, very apprehensive, and had a lot of negative vibes. I feel so stressed and fatigued all the time. It gave a toll on me and my body just wore out of it. I realized I needed to back down and that needed to realign my priorities. I just envisaged that I am not getting any younger and that I have to make time and enjoy myself for a better me and for a better future.
My life was been about working hard ever since I came here in America. I missed those days when I am in the Philippines, where I only have few money but I am happy and contented about life. I think I really worked so hard to achieve a lot. I was very gullible about making it to the top and had not backed down ever since. It had made me think that as I climbed the ladder of success I am also not happy of my achievements and I became greedy. It made me realize that things have an end, have an omega, and have its limits.
Which made me also think and recalled what had happened to me in 2004. I got very very sick in 2004 because my immune system got depressed and I contracted a tuberculosis of the lymph nodes during that time for abusing my body and not getting enough rest. It made me realized that I gave a lot of toll and stress on my body and gradually it physically gave up. At that time I have two jobs plus I was in school as a full-time student for my Bachelor in Computer Science and Engineering.
The disease had made me stopped because of the hospitalization and I was out of job for a year and a half living in worker's compensation plus has to pay the student's loan that I had availed. At that time I was financially hard up, depressed, cannot work, weak, and helpless (let's say pathetic as well). I withdrew and spend all my savings to make ends meet and I gradually picked up myself to pieces and started from there. It was a painful realization that time that I was at my peak of success and all of a sudden I crashed down. It was a very very scary experience and life changing as well.
Now, it haunted me again. It was always a great reminder for me whenever I kept pushing myself to the limits that I have to slow down or else I will have that situation again and I don't want it anymore.
I think God has always the reason why bad things sometimes happens to us. We tend to blame God initially but we didn't realized that He gave it to us because He loves us. He just wanted to warn us to slow down. And we always have to heed to these hidden warnings that He had sent to us. I mean, I can tell it sometimes and that I have to listen to all the cues and not be clueless about it at all because in the end I will suffer from the consequences of not hedding them.
When that thing happened in 2004, I didn't realized it was. I was not blaming God at that time but I was blaming myself. I was thinking so hard that it looked like movies slowly flashing back in my mind what I did wrong and why I was punished to get sick. There I know that I made it to myself and not God. My relationship with Him was boosted tenfolds at that time and I never forgot to thank Him for reminding me that my life has it's limits. And eversince, He was always with me reminding me all the time not to overdo things.
It's weird but I am always praying before I embark on anything and He was always there for me. Now, I can fathom that things happens because we brought it to ourselves and not by chance or by God's doing. We did it to ourselves and we will realize it eventually. God always works in mysterious places, time, and space. He's our Creator anyways and He always watches us to do for the better. Have a nice day!
Sunday, September 28, 2014
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
Patching The Rift
Last Monday, I was wrapping up my shift when my CNA called me from the hallway that I have a phone call in line 1. When I pressed line 1 it was cut-off. I asked the CNA what happened and she said she must have pressed the wrong button to transfer the call. So I was thinking the person who just called will call back if it is very important.
Within two minutes she called back and the person was my DON screaming on the other line asking why she was put on hold for a long time. I told her that the CNA had picked up her initial call at the hallway and he called me in Station 1 that I have a call in line 1. Whe I pressed line 1 she was not there and I told her that the CNA had pressed the wrong button as I what I've asked her.
She told me condescendingly to inservice the CNA and to demonstrate to her how to transfer the call. I told her that I did demonstrated it to her last time but she must have forgotten about it. When I answered her that she get easily irritated and shouted on me on the phone, "Well, you have to do it again if you can."
Wait a minute, is this how a DON should suppose to behave? I thought DONs are the most understandable persons in the whole world. I mean if she has issues early in the morning she should have set that aside and just proceed to talk to me in a calm manner. I don't deal with people who are screaming on the phone early in the morning.
What should you expect me to do? Of course, I have to calmly ask her why is she shouting on me on the phone? I told her it's not my fault if the line was cut-off why rant at me on this very early morning? In the first place you were condescending, blaming, and demanding. I don't get it. I have a respect for you because you're my DON but now no more because of your unprofessionalism.
She was probably furious because I cited her for her behavior and she told me that I am not veyr receptive at her commands. Hahahaha..... does she know what she was talking about? So she told me that we need to sit down and she wanted to talk to me personally because of my attitude. And I am the one now who has attitude? Can you believe that?
I was threatene dso I called my lawyer and asked some advice. My lawyer told me to give my administrator a call if she can sit down between us to have our rifts patched up (actually I didn't even know that we have a rift) but for everybody's peace of mind this is the best thing to do.
Yesterday, we were at the adminstrator's office and I presented what had happened. I noticed that the administrator had already knew about what happened because the way she talks she presented me an opposite scenario of the problem. I told her that it was the other side of the story (my DONs side) and I explained my side.
Having understood what happened, maintaining to be fair, she told us to be professional in commuicating with each other and that maintain harmony together. Then she made us a pact that we will do it and that we have to patch up our differences and move on. I told her and my DON that to me it doesn't matter because past is past and I don't dwell on them anymore. I just move forward and doesn't even dwell on those things that had happened anymore. I am not a bitter person and I am a peace loving person.
I shook my DONs hand and apologized to her (the right thing to do I guess) and asked her to start over again. Hopefully, this thing won't happen again in the future and that my DON will be more professional and a totally new person again. That, we will watch out!
Within two minutes she called back and the person was my DON screaming on the other line asking why she was put on hold for a long time. I told her that the CNA had picked up her initial call at the hallway and he called me in Station 1 that I have a call in line 1. Whe I pressed line 1 she was not there and I told her that the CNA had pressed the wrong button as I what I've asked her.
She told me condescendingly to inservice the CNA and to demonstrate to her how to transfer the call. I told her that I did demonstrated it to her last time but she must have forgotten about it. When I answered her that she get easily irritated and shouted on me on the phone, "Well, you have to do it again if you can."
Wait a minute, is this how a DON should suppose to behave? I thought DONs are the most understandable persons in the whole world. I mean if she has issues early in the morning she should have set that aside and just proceed to talk to me in a calm manner. I don't deal with people who are screaming on the phone early in the morning.
What should you expect me to do? Of course, I have to calmly ask her why is she shouting on me on the phone? I told her it's not my fault if the line was cut-off why rant at me on this very early morning? In the first place you were condescending, blaming, and demanding. I don't get it. I have a respect for you because you're my DON but now no more because of your unprofessionalism.
She was probably furious because I cited her for her behavior and she told me that I am not veyr receptive at her commands. Hahahaha..... does she know what she was talking about? So she told me that we need to sit down and she wanted to talk to me personally because of my attitude. And I am the one now who has attitude? Can you believe that?
I was threatene dso I called my lawyer and asked some advice. My lawyer told me to give my administrator a call if she can sit down between us to have our rifts patched up (actually I didn't even know that we have a rift) but for everybody's peace of mind this is the best thing to do.
Yesterday, we were at the adminstrator's office and I presented what had happened. I noticed that the administrator had already knew about what happened because the way she talks she presented me an opposite scenario of the problem. I told her that it was the other side of the story (my DONs side) and I explained my side.
Having understood what happened, maintaining to be fair, she told us to be professional in commuicating with each other and that maintain harmony together. Then she made us a pact that we will do it and that we have to patch up our differences and move on. I told her and my DON that to me it doesn't matter because past is past and I don't dwell on them anymore. I just move forward and doesn't even dwell on those things that had happened anymore. I am not a bitter person and I am a peace loving person.
I shook my DONs hand and apologized to her (the right thing to do I guess) and asked her to start over again. Hopefully, this thing won't happen again in the future and that my DON will be more professional and a totally new person again. That, we will watch out!
Monday, September 22, 2014
Itinerary For My 2014 European Travel
Next month, I will embark on a 20-day journey in France and Germany and I have to set some goals first so that it will be easier for me to hop from one place to the other. It will be a very exciting and busy journey packed with adventure and beautiful places to see. Yeah, everything were been booked, train rides and hotels were all been paid and secured. All I need to do is review them and study it well so that everything will be smooth and fluid. All copies were been made, copied, and printed and here's my itineraries. Can't wait for the trip and I am very very excited. Although the schedules were kinda hectic, hope everything will turn-out good. Yay!
October 19 - 20, 2014 - My journey starts in Los Angeles LAX via an Aeroflot Russian Airline's flight 107 at 1625H. Will take a long flight across the Atlantic Ocean and will arrive in Moscow, Russia Sheremtyevo Airport (SVO) the next day, October 20, 2014, at 1540H. Will suffer some drastic time change due to the fact that Russia is nine to ten hours ahead of Los Angeles. I will have a lay over there for almost four hours and then will board another Aeroflot Russian Airlines flight 4456 going to Paris, France and arrived at Charles De Gaulle (Roissy) Airport (CDG) at 2140H at night. I will probably take a Metro train (hope there's still one by that time, but I heard they close after midnight) and will locate my hotel at 64 Boulevard de Rochechouart in Montepellier area.
October 21, 2014 - I will still be in Paris at this day. I still have twenty-four hours to roam around and peruse the city. Since my hotel is a tad mile walking distance of the Sacred Heart Cathedral, I will visit it first then will take the Metro and look for the Musee Rodin formerly called Hotel Biron at 79 Rue de Varenne, 75007 Paris, France. I will also look for Napoleon's tomb at Esplanade de Invalides and go to Musee d'Orsay at 1 Rue de la Legion d'Honneur along the River Sienne. I will also go to the Eiffel Tower and climb it for the first time and then walk at the Place de la Concorde afterwards near the Eiffel tower. I will also try to pass by the Louvre Museum to get another picture of the glass pyramid.
October 22, 2014 - I will leave Paris early in the morning via Gare Nord going to Dusseldorf, Germany. My train will leave Paris at 0601H and will arrive in Dusseldorf at 0943H. I will probably leave my back pack (will have a light packing due to the extensive traveling) at the train station (hopefully they have lockers there) and then roam around the city. I will stay near the city center to enjoy the important spots around it and if lucky will visit the Rheinturm Tower and take some nice pictures. Since the tower is near the Media Harbor I might probably enjoy a boat ride at the Rhine River and then visit the Neuer Zollhof building and the Esprit arena nearby.
At 1428H I will leave Dusseldorf and board a train going to Bonn, Germany. I will arrived there in less than an hour at 1512H and then start looking for my hotel there to stay overnight. I will be staying at Baden Hotel Bonn in Graurheindorferstrabe (what a long name) and then once settled will start to roam the city for a while and spend the night. Places that's of value to visit are the Museum Koenig at Adenauralle 160, the Poppelsdorf Palace at Meckenheiner Alle 169, the Bonn Minster at Gangolfstrabe 14, and the Arithmeum an arithmetic museum at Lenestrabe 2. Since Bonn is the birthplace of Sir Ludwig Beethoven I will try look for some statues of Beethoven strategically placed everywhere around the city.
October 23, 2014 - The following day I have to leave Bonn early at 0825H to catch up the train going to Koeln (now called Cologne)which only takes twenty minutes (since Koeln is only nearby) and will arrive there at 0845H. Then I will leave my back pack again at the train station (for sure they have lockers there as what I've heard) then walk at the city center and look for the Cologne Cathedral and the Shrine of the Three Kings (conveniently located inside the cathedral) situated at Domkloster 4 (this is the important place I needed to go in Koeln and shouldn't be missed). The Colonius Tower and the nearby Cologne Tower is worthy of visit as well. And some museums like the Romano-Germanic Museum at Ronalliplatz 4 and the Museum Ludwig at Heinrich-Boll-Platz.
Time is short there for I have only like more or less than three hours to see the city and then I will go back at the train station and board another train at 1244H going to Paris Nord and when I arrive there at 1559H I will transfer to Paris EST train station and wait for four hours for my train ride to Strasbourg, France where I will stay for the night. The train will leave Paris at 2017H and will arrive in Strasbourg at 2247H and then I will locate Lagrange City Strasbourg Hotel at 5C Boulevard du President Wilson.
October 24, 2014 - The following day will be my 45th birthday and I will spent it there partly in Strasbourg in the morning and the other half in Nancy Ville at night. I will wake up early in the morning and start the tour of Strasbourg at the famous Strasbourg Cathedral (the most beautiful and enormous notre dame in the whole of France) and the Kammerzell House nearby at 16 Place de la Cathedrale. Worth visiting as well are the Saint-Pierre-le-Jeune Protestant Church at 3 Rue de la Nuee Bleue, the Palais Rohan at 2 Place de Chateau, and the UNESCO World Heritage site which is the Grande I'le or simply the Grand Island near the River Ill.
At 1420H I will board another train going to the nearby Nancy Ville to spent the night at Mercure Nancy Centre Stanislas Hotel at 5 Rue Des Carmes. I will arrive in Nancy at 1543H and will still have an ample time to roam around at the famous Place Stanislas and take a lot of pictures there for my online album. Since it is my birthday I will enjoy the rest of the day and night treating and celebrating by myself for my birthday.
Places not to be left out while in Nancy Ville are Museum of Fine Arts of Nancy at 3 Place Stanislas, the Nancy Cathedral at Place Monseigneur Ruch, and the intricate Palace of Dukes of Lorraine that surrounded the entire Place Stanislas. I will take a lot of pictures of the enormous and beautiful plaza and its gardens for my Facebook online album
October 25, 2014 - The following day I have to wake up early and leave Nancy Ville by train at 0701H and arrive at 0925H at the ancient town of Reims. I have six hours to peruse the place but most importantly I need to visit the famous Reims Cathedral at Place du Cardinal Lucan which is the usual place where French Kings and Queens of France were being crowned during Medieval times. Also notable places to visit are the Abbey of Saint Remi at Place du Chanoine Ladame, the Palace of Tau at 2 Place du Cardinal Lucan (adjacent the cathedral), the Foujita Chapel wherein the Chapel of Our Lady Queen of Peace with the famous frescoes on the walls is located at 33 Rue du Champ de Mars, and the Porte Mars situated at the Place de la Republique.
At 1547H I will board another train bound for Paris EST train station with a slight layover at Champagne-Ardenne between 1555H and 1606H then will arrive at Paris at 1656H. I will then transfer to Gare Lyon and board another train at 1819H going to Marseille and arrive there at 2129H then will have a short layover there for forty minutes then will leave again at 2205H and arrive at Aix-en-Provence at 2249H. This will be the end of my trip where my friend Rosalie will pick me up at the train station at 2300H and I will basically stay at her house while I am there in Aix-en-Provence. This will be the temporary end of the first league of my journey.
October 26, 2014 - I will basically stay at Aix for this day for my rest of the day and catch up with Rosalie who is off on that weekend. We will probably tour the town and just basically talk about life and what was been happening to her for the years that I haven't seen and visited her. Of course I will interact with the kids; Kenneth who will turn 19-years-old next month (and will have his birthday on October 18th), Pierre who is now 11-years-old and whom his mom had told me has two girlfriends, and little Diane who is now 4-years-old (who was still a baby when I was visiting last time.) I have a lot to catch to these kids. Hehehe.
October 27, 2014 - I will start the second league of my sojourn on this day going southwest of France starting at Toulouse. I will take the train from Aix at 0810H and then will change a train in Marseille going to Toulouse which will arrive there ay 1412H. Then I will start roaming the city looking at the famous places like the Capitole de Toulouse at Place du Capitole, the famous Pont Neuf at 12 Place du Pont Neuf, the Toulouse Cathedral at Place Saint-Etienne, the Basilica of Saint Sernin at Place Saint-Sernin, the Notre-Dame de la Daraude at 1 Place de la Daraude, the Musee des Augustins at 21 Rue de Metz, the Hotel d'Assezat at Place d'Assezat, and the famous Canale de Brienne which connects the Garonne River with the Canal du Midi and the Canal de Garonne.
I will leave Toulouse at 1855H hoping that I went to all the places stated above (God bless me) and will connect the train via Narbonne between 2032H and 2115H which will eventually arrive in Montpellier at 2213H to spend the night there at Hotel d'Angleterre at 7 Rue Maguelone.
October 28, 2014 - The following day I will roam around the huge and beautiful city of Montpellier and its famous French Riviera bayfront starting at the Place de la Comedie which is the focal point of this humongous metropolis, the Porte du Peyrou which is a triumphal arch near the mouth of the Jardin de Peyrou, the Montpellier Cathedral at the Place Saint Pierre, and the famous Antigone Place which is a neighborhood best known for its modern and contemporary architectural design by the Catalonian artist Ricardo Bofill.
At 1213H I will board another train that will arrive at Nimes at 1246H. I will then roam this classic and old Roman town starting at the Arena of Nimes which is an ancient Roman amphitheatre (similar to the Colisseum but smaller in size) built in 70 AD at the Boulevard des Arenes, the Maison Carree which is an ancient best preserved Roman temple at the Place de la Maison Carree, the Nimes Cathedral dedicated to the Blessed Virgin Mary and the local Saint Castor of Apt at the Place Saint-Castor, and the Carree d'Art which magnificently houses the Museum of Contemporary Art and the city's famous library which is constructed in glass, concrete, and steel at 16 Place de la Maison Carree.
Then at 1835H I will leave Nimes and take the train going home to Aix-en-Provence taking the train which will have a short layover in Marseille and will eventually arrive in Aix at 2049H. It will be a tiring journey but it's all worth it, I guess.
October 29, 2014 to November 1, 2014 - I will stay in Aix-en-Provence most of these days and will catch-up and spend time with my friend Rosalie who is off at that time. I might ask her to bring me to Arles by bus to visit the world renowned Vincent van Gogh Museum there and also to shop in Marseille on one of the those days. If have time we will visit some of the key tourists spots in Marseille (which I went before) and my dream place to visit (which I've missed before because of the windy weather) the Chateau d'If. Hopefully this will be the time to do that.
November 2. 2014 - At this time I will leave Aix-en-Provence and bade good bye to my best friend and the kids because I will start the third league of my journey here. I will leave Aix at 1650H going to Paris to spend the night there in preparation for my long train ride the next day to London. I will be arriving in Paris via a layover in Marseille at 2053H in Gare Lyon. Then from there I will just probably look for a cheap hotel around there just like what me and Doreen had done before during my last vacation because it is more nearer to Gare Nord where I will be taking the train for London the following day.
November 3 2014 to November 6, 2014 - I will leave Paris on November 3 at 0713H bound on the famous Eurostar bullet train and then stay at my college classmate's house in London. Famous places I needed to visit and should be placed on my list-to-do while staying there are the London Bridge and Tower, the London Eye, the Kensington Palace, the 2012 Olympic Park, the Buckingham Palace, the Palace of Westminster, the Saint Paul's Cathedral, the Parliament Building and the Big Ben, the Oxford University campus, the National Gallery, the London West End to watch Miss Saigon, the world renowned British Museum, the Westminster Abbey, the famous Trafalgar Square, the enormous Hyde Park, the Globe Theater, the Royal Albert Hall, the Harrods, etc. I will have enough three days to roam around London wnd will surely not miss all of them. I will also try to make use of the Metro trains (always crowded I've heard) and the double decker buses. I will also take a lot of pictures for my online album.
November 6, 2014 - This will be my last day in London and the day that I will fly back to the mainland. I will be leaving London at 1225H and will arrive at Paris Nord at 1547H. Then I will transfer train going to CDG airport and get ready for my departure going back to the United States. I will take the Aeroflot Russian Airline Flight 4451 which will leave at 1820H going to Moscow, Russia and will arrive at Sheremtyevo (SVO) airport at 0100H then I will have a twelve-hour layover there (will be bored I guess). The following day I will take the Aeroflot Russian Airline flight 106 going back to Los Angeles, California at 1320H crossing the Atlantic Ocean for another 1-12 hours that will eventually arrive in LAX at 1510H. It will be a tiring flight back home.
I am quite excited already about this jampacked adventure and my ultimate hope is just to have all my adventures fulfilled and for me to enjoy the places that I will be visiting. I hope everything will be okay and that I will have no troubles along the way. Please help me Lord Jesus! Amen.
October 19 - 20, 2014 - My journey starts in Los Angeles LAX via an Aeroflot Russian Airline's flight 107 at 1625H. Will take a long flight across the Atlantic Ocean and will arrive in Moscow, Russia Sheremtyevo Airport (SVO) the next day, October 20, 2014, at 1540H. Will suffer some drastic time change due to the fact that Russia is nine to ten hours ahead of Los Angeles. I will have a lay over there for almost four hours and then will board another Aeroflot Russian Airlines flight 4456 going to Paris, France and arrived at Charles De Gaulle (Roissy) Airport (CDG) at 2140H at night. I will probably take a Metro train (hope there's still one by that time, but I heard they close after midnight) and will locate my hotel at 64 Boulevard de Rochechouart in Montepellier area.
October 21, 2014 - I will still be in Paris at this day. I still have twenty-four hours to roam around and peruse the city. Since my hotel is a tad mile walking distance of the Sacred Heart Cathedral, I will visit it first then will take the Metro and look for the Musee Rodin formerly called Hotel Biron at 79 Rue de Varenne, 75007 Paris, France. I will also look for Napoleon's tomb at Esplanade de Invalides and go to Musee d'Orsay at 1 Rue de la Legion d'Honneur along the River Sienne. I will also go to the Eiffel Tower and climb it for the first time and then walk at the Place de la Concorde afterwards near the Eiffel tower. I will also try to pass by the Louvre Museum to get another picture of the glass pyramid.
October 22, 2014 - I will leave Paris early in the morning via Gare Nord going to Dusseldorf, Germany. My train will leave Paris at 0601H and will arrive in Dusseldorf at 0943H. I will probably leave my back pack (will have a light packing due to the extensive traveling) at the train station (hopefully they have lockers there) and then roam around the city. I will stay near the city center to enjoy the important spots around it and if lucky will visit the Rheinturm Tower and take some nice pictures. Since the tower is near the Media Harbor I might probably enjoy a boat ride at the Rhine River and then visit the Neuer Zollhof building and the Esprit arena nearby.
At 1428H I will leave Dusseldorf and board a train going to Bonn, Germany. I will arrived there in less than an hour at 1512H and then start looking for my hotel there to stay overnight. I will be staying at Baden Hotel Bonn in Graurheindorferstrabe (what a long name) and then once settled will start to roam the city for a while and spend the night. Places that's of value to visit are the Museum Koenig at Adenauralle 160, the Poppelsdorf Palace at Meckenheiner Alle 169, the Bonn Minster at Gangolfstrabe 14, and the Arithmeum an arithmetic museum at Lenestrabe 2. Since Bonn is the birthplace of Sir Ludwig Beethoven I will try look for some statues of Beethoven strategically placed everywhere around the city.
October 23, 2014 - The following day I have to leave Bonn early at 0825H to catch up the train going to Koeln (now called Cologne)which only takes twenty minutes (since Koeln is only nearby) and will arrive there at 0845H. Then I will leave my back pack again at the train station (for sure they have lockers there as what I've heard) then walk at the city center and look for the Cologne Cathedral and the Shrine of the Three Kings (conveniently located inside the cathedral) situated at Domkloster 4 (this is the important place I needed to go in Koeln and shouldn't be missed). The Colonius Tower and the nearby Cologne Tower is worthy of visit as well. And some museums like the Romano-Germanic Museum at Ronalliplatz 4 and the Museum Ludwig at Heinrich-Boll-Platz.
Time is short there for I have only like more or less than three hours to see the city and then I will go back at the train station and board another train at 1244H going to Paris Nord and when I arrive there at 1559H I will transfer to Paris EST train station and wait for four hours for my train ride to Strasbourg, France where I will stay for the night. The train will leave Paris at 2017H and will arrive in Strasbourg at 2247H and then I will locate Lagrange City Strasbourg Hotel at 5C Boulevard du President Wilson.
October 24, 2014 - The following day will be my 45th birthday and I will spent it there partly in Strasbourg in the morning and the other half in Nancy Ville at night. I will wake up early in the morning and start the tour of Strasbourg at the famous Strasbourg Cathedral (the most beautiful and enormous notre dame in the whole of France) and the Kammerzell House nearby at 16 Place de la Cathedrale. Worth visiting as well are the Saint-Pierre-le-Jeune Protestant Church at 3 Rue de la Nuee Bleue, the Palais Rohan at 2 Place de Chateau, and the UNESCO World Heritage site which is the Grande I'le or simply the Grand Island near the River Ill.
At 1420H I will board another train going to the nearby Nancy Ville to spent the night at Mercure Nancy Centre Stanislas Hotel at 5 Rue Des Carmes. I will arrive in Nancy at 1543H and will still have an ample time to roam around at the famous Place Stanislas and take a lot of pictures there for my online album. Since it is my birthday I will enjoy the rest of the day and night treating and celebrating by myself for my birthday.
Places not to be left out while in Nancy Ville are Museum of Fine Arts of Nancy at 3 Place Stanislas, the Nancy Cathedral at Place Monseigneur Ruch, and the intricate Palace of Dukes of Lorraine that surrounded the entire Place Stanislas. I will take a lot of pictures of the enormous and beautiful plaza and its gardens for my Facebook online album
October 25, 2014 - The following day I have to wake up early and leave Nancy Ville by train at 0701H and arrive at 0925H at the ancient town of Reims. I have six hours to peruse the place but most importantly I need to visit the famous Reims Cathedral at Place du Cardinal Lucan which is the usual place where French Kings and Queens of France were being crowned during Medieval times. Also notable places to visit are the Abbey of Saint Remi at Place du Chanoine Ladame, the Palace of Tau at 2 Place du Cardinal Lucan (adjacent the cathedral), the Foujita Chapel wherein the Chapel of Our Lady Queen of Peace with the famous frescoes on the walls is located at 33 Rue du Champ de Mars, and the Porte Mars situated at the Place de la Republique.
At 1547H I will board another train bound for Paris EST train station with a slight layover at Champagne-Ardenne between 1555H and 1606H then will arrive at Paris at 1656H. I will then transfer to Gare Lyon and board another train at 1819H going to Marseille and arrive there at 2129H then will have a short layover there for forty minutes then will leave again at 2205H and arrive at Aix-en-Provence at 2249H. This will be the end of my trip where my friend Rosalie will pick me up at the train station at 2300H and I will basically stay at her house while I am there in Aix-en-Provence. This will be the temporary end of the first league of my journey.
October 26, 2014 - I will basically stay at Aix for this day for my rest of the day and catch up with Rosalie who is off on that weekend. We will probably tour the town and just basically talk about life and what was been happening to her for the years that I haven't seen and visited her. Of course I will interact with the kids; Kenneth who will turn 19-years-old next month (and will have his birthday on October 18th), Pierre who is now 11-years-old and whom his mom had told me has two girlfriends, and little Diane who is now 4-years-old (who was still a baby when I was visiting last time.) I have a lot to catch to these kids. Hehehe.
October 27, 2014 - I will start the second league of my sojourn on this day going southwest of France starting at Toulouse. I will take the train from Aix at 0810H and then will change a train in Marseille going to Toulouse which will arrive there ay 1412H. Then I will start roaming the city looking at the famous places like the Capitole de Toulouse at Place du Capitole, the famous Pont Neuf at 12 Place du Pont Neuf, the Toulouse Cathedral at Place Saint-Etienne, the Basilica of Saint Sernin at Place Saint-Sernin, the Notre-Dame de la Daraude at 1 Place de la Daraude, the Musee des Augustins at 21 Rue de Metz, the Hotel d'Assezat at Place d'Assezat, and the famous Canale de Brienne which connects the Garonne River with the Canal du Midi and the Canal de Garonne.
I will leave Toulouse at 1855H hoping that I went to all the places stated above (God bless me) and will connect the train via Narbonne between 2032H and 2115H which will eventually arrive in Montpellier at 2213H to spend the night there at Hotel d'Angleterre at 7 Rue Maguelone.
October 28, 2014 - The following day I will roam around the huge and beautiful city of Montpellier and its famous French Riviera bayfront starting at the Place de la Comedie which is the focal point of this humongous metropolis, the Porte du Peyrou which is a triumphal arch near the mouth of the Jardin de Peyrou, the Montpellier Cathedral at the Place Saint Pierre, and the famous Antigone Place which is a neighborhood best known for its modern and contemporary architectural design by the Catalonian artist Ricardo Bofill.
At 1213H I will board another train that will arrive at Nimes at 1246H. I will then roam this classic and old Roman town starting at the Arena of Nimes which is an ancient Roman amphitheatre (similar to the Colisseum but smaller in size) built in 70 AD at the Boulevard des Arenes, the Maison Carree which is an ancient best preserved Roman temple at the Place de la Maison Carree, the Nimes Cathedral dedicated to the Blessed Virgin Mary and the local Saint Castor of Apt at the Place Saint-Castor, and the Carree d'Art which magnificently houses the Museum of Contemporary Art and the city's famous library which is constructed in glass, concrete, and steel at 16 Place de la Maison Carree.
Then at 1835H I will leave Nimes and take the train going home to Aix-en-Provence taking the train which will have a short layover in Marseille and will eventually arrive in Aix at 2049H. It will be a tiring journey but it's all worth it, I guess.
October 29, 2014 to November 1, 2014 - I will stay in Aix-en-Provence most of these days and will catch-up and spend time with my friend Rosalie who is off at that time. I might ask her to bring me to Arles by bus to visit the world renowned Vincent van Gogh Museum there and also to shop in Marseille on one of the those days. If have time we will visit some of the key tourists spots in Marseille (which I went before) and my dream place to visit (which I've missed before because of the windy weather) the Chateau d'If. Hopefully this will be the time to do that.
November 2. 2014 - At this time I will leave Aix-en-Provence and bade good bye to my best friend and the kids because I will start the third league of my journey here. I will leave Aix at 1650H going to Paris to spend the night there in preparation for my long train ride the next day to London. I will be arriving in Paris via a layover in Marseille at 2053H in Gare Lyon. Then from there I will just probably look for a cheap hotel around there just like what me and Doreen had done before during my last vacation because it is more nearer to Gare Nord where I will be taking the train for London the following day.
November 3 2014 to November 6, 2014 - I will leave Paris on November 3 at 0713H bound on the famous Eurostar bullet train and then stay at my college classmate's house in London. Famous places I needed to visit and should be placed on my list-to-do while staying there are the London Bridge and Tower, the London Eye, the Kensington Palace, the 2012 Olympic Park, the Buckingham Palace, the Palace of Westminster, the Saint Paul's Cathedral, the Parliament Building and the Big Ben, the Oxford University campus, the National Gallery, the London West End to watch Miss Saigon, the world renowned British Museum, the Westminster Abbey, the famous Trafalgar Square, the enormous Hyde Park, the Globe Theater, the Royal Albert Hall, the Harrods, etc. I will have enough three days to roam around London wnd will surely not miss all of them. I will also try to make use of the Metro trains (always crowded I've heard) and the double decker buses. I will also take a lot of pictures for my online album.
November 6, 2014 - This will be my last day in London and the day that I will fly back to the mainland. I will be leaving London at 1225H and will arrive at Paris Nord at 1547H. Then I will transfer train going to CDG airport and get ready for my departure going back to the United States. I will take the Aeroflot Russian Airline Flight 4451 which will leave at 1820H going to Moscow, Russia and will arrive at Sheremtyevo (SVO) airport at 0100H then I will have a twelve-hour layover there (will be bored I guess). The following day I will take the Aeroflot Russian Airline flight 106 going back to Los Angeles, California at 1320H crossing the Atlantic Ocean for another 1-12 hours that will eventually arrive in LAX at 1510H. It will be a tiring flight back home.
I am quite excited already about this jampacked adventure and my ultimate hope is just to have all my adventures fulfilled and for me to enjoy the places that I will be visiting. I hope everything will be okay and that I will have no troubles along the way. Please help me Lord Jesus! Amen.
Saturday, September 20, 2014
Authoritative Bossy Leader
What do you feel if your boss is weak? I mean, she just doesn't have the professionalism that you kind of expected from a leader, that is supposed to act like she is a firm and intelligent leader. Isn't it devastating to know that she screams at her minions just to get understood? Is that the kind of leader you wanted to work with? How degrading and condescending, right?
Yeah, every leader has her own characteristics but wouldn't it be right if the leader is more charismatic with her subordinates? She should have time to interact with her subjects and ask them some inputs about the workplace. I mean, she has to reach out to everybody and not criticize them for things that were not agreeing to her demands and expectations. People will appreciate it really if the leader is more kind enough to accept her weaknesses and show to her subjects that she is human and also vulnerable to anything and can commit mistakes.
Problem with some leaders are, they just don't want to bend to their subjects despite obviously committed a gross misgivings. There are a lot of types of leadership these bosses can adapt yet trying to use some of these types should be in conformity to the norms or the type of subject being covered by these leaders. I mean, why implement an arcane type of leadership if you know it will cause frustrations and high percentage of intolerance amongst your subjects? It is very alarming yet it always happens.
My boss is the type of leader that easily upset herself without you triggering it. (I think she is menopausing... hahaha.) She's just upset at something without an apparent cause. It was strange but she is very labile emotionally. She is very sensitive all the time and I guess very paranoid as well. I think she's the one triggering it for herself and assume all the responsibilities despite the fact that I suggested to her to delegate the tasks to some who are more capable of the job. But she is stubborn so she got burnt out all the time because of paperwork deadlines.
Our company was just bought by Rockport Nursing Company and you know what happens when there is a buyout? Well, all the managers were just pressured because of the quantities of jobs and reports to be done. So now all the problems comes out, stress were surmounting, and people were just in a haste just to beat the clock.
My boss was a newly designated DON and she is a newbie. Had no experience being a DON. She came on board like a thief of the night not even introducing herself to all the personnel. That's why some staff were clamoring about who was she. She was already on board yet the staff did not met her just for courtesy's sake.
One time she stayed over finishing up something so I thought she wanted to meet the night shift crew. Come shift change she just sneak in at the nursing station returning some charts that she borrowed for audits but she never even introduced herself to the oncoming staff. I mean... what kind of a leader is that? I was just surprised about it and pretended I haven't witnessed the whole fiasco. It was embarrasing to watch.
I mean how can a leader expect something out from her staff if she herself doesn't want to meet the crew half way? It's a shame that she expected the crew to respect her yet she doesn't even exude any professionalism at all. Some of the staff rudely asked me who she was because she was the new face that time and I just whispered to them in a low tone that she was their DON. And then the staff were just nodding their head in unison with mixed confusion and surprise. It was devastating to watch I'm telling you. I am about to melt at my seat at that time but I managed to stick a sly smile just to cover-up for the failure. Hahaha. (I'm an expert on that part.)
Well, I've had had several interactions with my DON where we were on opposing sides and I even got a shout and scream from her on the phone. At first I just set it aside thinking that she was just over reacting and that she will calm down eventually but she did it again for the second time. So this time, I have to gasp a deep breath and interrupt her on the phone and told her to be more professional enough when giving orders or asking request because were both professional registered nurses. And I also told her that I am more experienced than her if she did not happened to know it. And that she still have a lot to take to get into my level. She then hanged up the phone and I was quite surprise about it.
I just realized at that moment that my DON had hanged up on me. I just sucked in all of that and never backed down. I waited for her to call back and she never did. What an unprofessional bitch she is. It was a nightmare!
Well, after that altercation I grabbed an incident report and wrote everything up and slid it in at the administrator's door. What happened after that I don't know. I never got any call from the administrator and I don't want to exhume the case again because I don't want it to back fire on me plus I don't want it to flame up and topple all my senses. Only God knows what He will do to her and I entrusted everything to Him.
I just wanted to protect myself and my experience which I invested in this company for a long long years and that I just keep myself insolently mum because I'm just a helpless minority here in America who doesn't have a stand with some authoritative and bossy bitch. May she rot in the abyss of Hades. (Pardon me Lord.)
In closing, I wrote this blog just to bitch out my frustrations so thank you for being with me and listening at my ranting. I'm telling you it feels good to have it written here and I feel better after that. Thank God!
Yeah, every leader has her own characteristics but wouldn't it be right if the leader is more charismatic with her subordinates? She should have time to interact with her subjects and ask them some inputs about the workplace. I mean, she has to reach out to everybody and not criticize them for things that were not agreeing to her demands and expectations. People will appreciate it really if the leader is more kind enough to accept her weaknesses and show to her subjects that she is human and also vulnerable to anything and can commit mistakes.
Problem with some leaders are, they just don't want to bend to their subjects despite obviously committed a gross misgivings. There are a lot of types of leadership these bosses can adapt yet trying to use some of these types should be in conformity to the norms or the type of subject being covered by these leaders. I mean, why implement an arcane type of leadership if you know it will cause frustrations and high percentage of intolerance amongst your subjects? It is very alarming yet it always happens.
My boss is the type of leader that easily upset herself without you triggering it. (I think she is menopausing... hahaha.) She's just upset at something without an apparent cause. It was strange but she is very labile emotionally. She is very sensitive all the time and I guess very paranoid as well. I think she's the one triggering it for herself and assume all the responsibilities despite the fact that I suggested to her to delegate the tasks to some who are more capable of the job. But she is stubborn so she got burnt out all the time because of paperwork deadlines.
Our company was just bought by Rockport Nursing Company and you know what happens when there is a buyout? Well, all the managers were just pressured because of the quantities of jobs and reports to be done. So now all the problems comes out, stress were surmounting, and people were just in a haste just to beat the clock.
My boss was a newly designated DON and she is a newbie. Had no experience being a DON. She came on board like a thief of the night not even introducing herself to all the personnel. That's why some staff were clamoring about who was she. She was already on board yet the staff did not met her just for courtesy's sake.
One time she stayed over finishing up something so I thought she wanted to meet the night shift crew. Come shift change she just sneak in at the nursing station returning some charts that she borrowed for audits but she never even introduced herself to the oncoming staff. I mean... what kind of a leader is that? I was just surprised about it and pretended I haven't witnessed the whole fiasco. It was embarrasing to watch.
I mean how can a leader expect something out from her staff if she herself doesn't want to meet the crew half way? It's a shame that she expected the crew to respect her yet she doesn't even exude any professionalism at all. Some of the staff rudely asked me who she was because she was the new face that time and I just whispered to them in a low tone that she was their DON. And then the staff were just nodding their head in unison with mixed confusion and surprise. It was devastating to watch I'm telling you. I am about to melt at my seat at that time but I managed to stick a sly smile just to cover-up for the failure. Hahaha. (I'm an expert on that part.)
Well, I've had had several interactions with my DON where we were on opposing sides and I even got a shout and scream from her on the phone. At first I just set it aside thinking that she was just over reacting and that she will calm down eventually but she did it again for the second time. So this time, I have to gasp a deep breath and interrupt her on the phone and told her to be more professional enough when giving orders or asking request because were both professional registered nurses. And I also told her that I am more experienced than her if she did not happened to know it. And that she still have a lot to take to get into my level. She then hanged up the phone and I was quite surprise about it.
I just realized at that moment that my DON had hanged up on me. I just sucked in all of that and never backed down. I waited for her to call back and she never did. What an unprofessional bitch she is. It was a nightmare!
Well, after that altercation I grabbed an incident report and wrote everything up and slid it in at the administrator's door. What happened after that I don't know. I never got any call from the administrator and I don't want to exhume the case again because I don't want it to back fire on me plus I don't want it to flame up and topple all my senses. Only God knows what He will do to her and I entrusted everything to Him.
I just wanted to protect myself and my experience which I invested in this company for a long long years and that I just keep myself insolently mum because I'm just a helpless minority here in America who doesn't have a stand with some authoritative and bossy bitch. May she rot in the abyss of Hades. (Pardon me Lord.)
In closing, I wrote this blog just to bitch out my frustrations so thank you for being with me and listening at my ranting. I'm telling you it feels good to have it written here and I feel better after that. Thank God!
Thursday, September 18, 2014
A Youngster Belts Out From The Heart
Yes..... It's Darren Espanto's time to shine. I am glad this kiddo was really well accepted right now in the Philippines. He maybe didn't capture the "The Voice Kids Philippines" champion title yet this child was well received by the public. He just blew everybody away when he sings OPM tunes.
There were a lot of concerts he has done in the whole country after the show concluded last month and the people goes madly crazy about him. The one thing that I noticed about this kiddo is his slefless humility and obvious courteousness. It was two very distinct characteristics that I have easily noticed that really had captured my heart and the hearts of others to like him so dearly.
He is so grounded that it is very infectious to watch. His charisma just exudes extremely that everybody swoon to his good looks and infectious smile. His talent in singing and dancing is very apparent and shines every time he performs on stage. He is a very good boy and his parents must be extremely proud of him. This child will be successful in the near future and I am very proud of him as well. I am very happy for his accomplishments for such a short time.
There were no dull moments that I have spent surfing YouTube for any of his viral videos and all his videos had shown how people had easily accepted him and screamed loudly for him, how he magnificently filled the big venues with a lot of people, how he magically entertained him with his world class voice and dancing prowess, how he surprisingly make the audiences cry and lined up just to see him sing gorgeously. He is a child prodigy..... an angel sent by heaven.
Just lately, the TVK's album was jus realeased and was already a success wherein Darren's songs had topped the iTunes Philippines chart. He will be a record breaker in due time (how much more a platinum or a double platinum award)and I just can't wait to buy his first solo album and see his first solo concert. I am so addicted with him now.... I think I am a very very certified Darrenatics! Meaning I am an addict for Darren Espanto only.... hahaha.
I've heard that his manager will be the renowned music composer Mr. Vehnee Saturno. I have guessed before that Kuya Vehnee was been tied up with the Espanto family. I've seen some videos of Darren having concerts in Canada and Kuya Vehnee was there. I've heard in one of the videos about Darren singing the "Mr. Kupido" song and the "It's Never Not Enough" song in the GGV show which were both written by Kuya Vehnee. During the semifinal of the TVK, Kuya Vehnee was also focused on the camera for three seconds when it was Darren's turn singing the "One Moment In Time" song. And I have guessed it that he might be asked to be his manager and I was not wrong.
I mean or maybe I think, Darren will be well off in the hands of Kuya Vehnee before and he (Kuya Vehnee) has the knowledge about the music industry and that he can also compose OPM's that can be marketable and made popular. He even posted in Facebook a sneak peak of the single song that he wrote just for Darren and it was so pleasing to listen to the ears. Many comments from the netizens had surfaced that the song was catchy, danceable, and upbeat and will become popular when it will be released.
Kuya Vehnee also sponsored Darren's first concert in October 4 at Music Lounge and one of the famous hotel in Manila. Wow... Darren ha..... taray! It's just an expression of congratulating the little dude. I am very happy about Darren's fate now. At least I feel better for him now compared to the mourning times that I felt when he lost the TVK title. This is a big surprise and his plummeting success will be apparent soon.
At first I was really devastated when he did not win the first title of TVK and now I've realized that it was meant to be for him because if one door closes for him there's thousands of door that are gonna be opening for him. This just holds true right now as I see jampacked malls and hundreds of people screaming "DARREN" in the crowd. It really fattens my heart seein how he was adored and how successful he is now in such a short time.
It was really meant for him because he is very blessed. Congratulations Mr. Darren Espanto for being you and I hope you will be more successful in the near future. My hat's off for you Bebe Darren Espanto! Keep up the good work and don't lose yourself with the glitters of the limelight. Keep yourself grounded at all times!
There were a lot of concerts he has done in the whole country after the show concluded last month and the people goes madly crazy about him. The one thing that I noticed about this kiddo is his slefless humility and obvious courteousness. It was two very distinct characteristics that I have easily noticed that really had captured my heart and the hearts of others to like him so dearly.
He is so grounded that it is very infectious to watch. His charisma just exudes extremely that everybody swoon to his good looks and infectious smile. His talent in singing and dancing is very apparent and shines every time he performs on stage. He is a very good boy and his parents must be extremely proud of him. This child will be successful in the near future and I am very proud of him as well. I am very happy for his accomplishments for such a short time.
There were no dull moments that I have spent surfing YouTube for any of his viral videos and all his videos had shown how people had easily accepted him and screamed loudly for him, how he magnificently filled the big venues with a lot of people, how he magically entertained him with his world class voice and dancing prowess, how he surprisingly make the audiences cry and lined up just to see him sing gorgeously. He is a child prodigy..... an angel sent by heaven.
Just lately, the TVK's album was jus realeased and was already a success wherein Darren's songs had topped the iTunes Philippines chart. He will be a record breaker in due time (how much more a platinum or a double platinum award)and I just can't wait to buy his first solo album and see his first solo concert. I am so addicted with him now.... I think I am a very very certified Darrenatics! Meaning I am an addict for Darren Espanto only.... hahaha.
I've heard that his manager will be the renowned music composer Mr. Vehnee Saturno. I have guessed before that Kuya Vehnee was been tied up with the Espanto family. I've seen some videos of Darren having concerts in Canada and Kuya Vehnee was there. I've heard in one of the videos about Darren singing the "Mr. Kupido" song and the "It's Never Not Enough" song in the GGV show which were both written by Kuya Vehnee. During the semifinal of the TVK, Kuya Vehnee was also focused on the camera for three seconds when it was Darren's turn singing the "One Moment In Time" song. And I have guessed it that he might be asked to be his manager and I was not wrong.
I mean or maybe I think, Darren will be well off in the hands of Kuya Vehnee before and he (Kuya Vehnee) has the knowledge about the music industry and that he can also compose OPM's that can be marketable and made popular. He even posted in Facebook a sneak peak of the single song that he wrote just for Darren and it was so pleasing to listen to the ears. Many comments from the netizens had surfaced that the song was catchy, danceable, and upbeat and will become popular when it will be released.
Kuya Vehnee also sponsored Darren's first concert in October 4 at Music Lounge and one of the famous hotel in Manila. Wow... Darren ha..... taray! It's just an expression of congratulating the little dude. I am very happy about Darren's fate now. At least I feel better for him now compared to the mourning times that I felt when he lost the TVK title. This is a big surprise and his plummeting success will be apparent soon.
At first I was really devastated when he did not win the first title of TVK and now I've realized that it was meant to be for him because if one door closes for him there's thousands of door that are gonna be opening for him. This just holds true right now as I see jampacked malls and hundreds of people screaming "DARREN" in the crowd. It really fattens my heart seein how he was adored and how successful he is now in such a short time.
It was really meant for him because he is very blessed. Congratulations Mr. Darren Espanto for being you and I hope you will be more successful in the near future. My hat's off for you Bebe Darren Espanto! Keep up the good work and don't lose yourself with the glitters of the limelight. Keep yourself grounded at all times!
Meeting Batch 47B In Royalwood
Started my new rotation with a new batch at Royalwood Care Center in Torrance, California. I admit, I was a totally new instructor to this group because I acted firm and straightforward to them. I laid out my expectations (which is the right thing to do) for them and they were kind of shock about my own rules.
I know it was too much for them, but I wanted them to start right now rather than blaming themselves for not learning better in their clinical rotations. This group is really a challenging group for me because I heard they were always question and challenge their previous instructor. They were the complainers and to that just doesn't work because if I wanted them to do their requirements they need to do it and pass it on time.
I felt dome jitters initially in meeting them but I am happy that they were all very receptive and able to understand my expectations. They were very ecstatic because I am the only instructor that made them to listen and do things. And I told them to better do it now than later. And now that they know the importance of doing their stuff then my problem now is how to make them assimilate and comprehend the procedures that they do.
I think I maybe have a hard time guiding them at first but I am patient to teach them the right way. I saw some things that they do that were not contextually practiced and I think they did it as a habit already and it is hard to bend but my job right now is how to make them try to get rid of those practices that were not acceptable in the context of nursing. I felt like I have a challenge on this part. Please Lord help me.
Most definitely, I have to gear my goals towards getting them use to a routine that will slowly get them adapted based on the context of nursing and then I will gradually insert some critical thinking situations for them to make decisions on their own. It will be a challenge also because some of them were kinda slow to understand and grasps the realm and scope of their practice yet I know time will eventually be on their side.
Teaching mature students is really a big face-off because of the fact that these students were older adults and egoistic it is a hard tasks to make them comply for my assignments given to them. Judging that they're adult they should be more responsible in doing the tasks being given to them but it seems that they always resist it.
As an instructor, I am quite challenged yet pumped up to teach them because they were just my bug brothers and sisters that I should have and that I wanted us to work and learn with each other. Hopefully, giving them the impression of a really and truly dedicated as well as professional instructor will give them the idea that I am really committed to help them learn and also pass the licensed vocational nursing program.
Hopefully, my rotation with them will be more fruitful and deserving to be successful. I am here to teach them what they needed to learn in order for them to pass their NCLEX exams and I hope they will be more receptive to learn and process every information that they have learned in the clinical settings. Thank you!
I know it was too much for them, but I wanted them to start right now rather than blaming themselves for not learning better in their clinical rotations. This group is really a challenging group for me because I heard they were always question and challenge their previous instructor. They were the complainers and to that just doesn't work because if I wanted them to do their requirements they need to do it and pass it on time.
I felt dome jitters initially in meeting them but I am happy that they were all very receptive and able to understand my expectations. They were very ecstatic because I am the only instructor that made them to listen and do things. And I told them to better do it now than later. And now that they know the importance of doing their stuff then my problem now is how to make them assimilate and comprehend the procedures that they do.
I think I maybe have a hard time guiding them at first but I am patient to teach them the right way. I saw some things that they do that were not contextually practiced and I think they did it as a habit already and it is hard to bend but my job right now is how to make them try to get rid of those practices that were not acceptable in the context of nursing. I felt like I have a challenge on this part. Please Lord help me.
Most definitely, I have to gear my goals towards getting them use to a routine that will slowly get them adapted based on the context of nursing and then I will gradually insert some critical thinking situations for them to make decisions on their own. It will be a challenge also because some of them were kinda slow to understand and grasps the realm and scope of their practice yet I know time will eventually be on their side.
Teaching mature students is really a big face-off because of the fact that these students were older adults and egoistic it is a hard tasks to make them comply for my assignments given to them. Judging that they're adult they should be more responsible in doing the tasks being given to them but it seems that they always resist it.
As an instructor, I am quite challenged yet pumped up to teach them because they were just my bug brothers and sisters that I should have and that I wanted us to work and learn with each other. Hopefully, giving them the impression of a really and truly dedicated as well as professional instructor will give them the idea that I am really committed to help them learn and also pass the licensed vocational nursing program.
Hopefully, my rotation with them will be more fruitful and deserving to be successful. I am here to teach them what they needed to learn in order for them to pass their NCLEX exams and I hope they will be more receptive to learn and process every information that they have learned in the clinical settings. Thank you!
Monday, September 15, 2014
Naghihinga Lang Po
Ano nga ba ang nararapat kong i-blog ngayon? Tila wala na yata akong maisip isulat. Oo nga at napakaraming topiko ang dapat talakayin pero tila blanko ang laman ng aking utak sa ngayon. Bakit kaya ganun kung minsan. Parang isang alkansiyang walang laman ang aking isip. Ano ba ang nangyayari sa akin?
Siguro dala lang ito ng mga pangyayari na naganap ngayong linggo. Una po yung email na natanggap ko tungkol sa aking kaibigan sa France na may metastatic liver cancer. Kala ko ay gumaling na sya kasi katatapos nya lang po ng kanyang chemotherapy at radiation. Yun pala ay hindi nag-respond ang cancer sa chemo. Sa halip ay kumalat pa ito sa iba't ibang parti at organs ng kanyang katawan. Kaunti na lang po ang taning nya at sa ngayon sabi nya sa akin ay nanghihina na sya at hindi na nya kaya.
Sabi ko sa kanya ay huwag syang sumuko at labanan nya ang sakit para sya ay gumaling. Sinabi ko rin sa kanya na ako'y taimtim na nagdadasal para kanya at sa kanyang ikagagaling. Pero tila sumuko na yata sya at bibigay na sa kanyang sakit. Naawa po talaga ako ng sobra sa kanya. Siguro yung email na yun ang kanyang huling pamamaalam sa akin. Masakit isipin pero kailangan kong tanggapin alang-alang sa aking pinakamamahal na kaibigan.
Dama ko pa ang aming mga matatamis na alaala nung kami ay nagtatravel pa. Masaya po syang kasama at tanggap na tanggap nya kung ano ako. SYa lang po ang taong nakagaanan ko ng loob at ang taong nakakaintindi sa akin. Malaki po ang respeto ko sa kanya kahit na sya ay medyo pabaya sa buhay nya. Siguro carefree lang po sya at naintindihan ko yun. Wala po talaga akong maipipintas sa kanya.
Mapait man isipin pero kailangan kong lakasan ang aking loob para hindi po sya mag-alala. Kahit ako nag-aalala sa kanya ay hindi ko po pinapakita sa kanya yun. Sinusuportahan ko po and kanyang desisyon. Siguro pagod na po sya sa kanyang laban kaya po sya sumuko.
Sabi nya po sa akin ay hindi na sya makapag-antay. Kailangan nya na pong uuwi sa Pilipinas dahil ayaw nya pong mangyari na hindi sya po papasakayin ng eroplano kung malubha na po sya. At doon po ako umiyak ng todo at hindi ko po pinahalata sa kanya sa telepono. Naawa po talaga ako sa kaibigan ko na kusang sumuko po sa kanyang laban sa cancer.
Sayang po at hindi ko na po sya makikita kung ako po ay magbabakasyon sa France. Plano po namin sana ay libutin ang Germany at France kung ako po ay nandoon. Ngayon ay ako na lang po ang maglilibot mag-isa kasi po sya ay uuwi na sa Guimaras. Napakalungkot po siguro ang ganun ano? Kaya ko pa po kayang magliwaliw na wala ang aking kaibigan? Siguro po kailangan ko pong kayanin para sa kanya. Ayoko pong masaktan ang kanyang damdamin kung hindi po ako tutuloy. Alang-alang na lang po sa aming pagkakaibigan.
Sana po ay matiwasay lang po ang aking bakasyon. Salamat naman po at tinawagan nya ang kanyang kaibigan sa Paris para doon po ako tumuloy habang nandudoon po ako. At least po ay maka-lessen po ako ng aking mga gastusin lalo na po ang hotel. At salamat naman po at nireto na rin ako sa kanyang kaibigan para maging kaibigan ko na rin at para makapag-enjoy na rin ako habang nandoon po ako sa Paris at di na po ako mag-alala kung saan po ako mag-stay doon.
Talaga pong maaalahanin po ang aking kaibigan kahit na sya po ay may sakit. Nakuha pa rin po nyang tulungan akong maghanap ng ma-stayhan doon. Taos puso po syang tumutulong sa akin para hindi po ako mapahamak kung nandoon na po ako. Hinding-hindi ko po makakalimutan ang kanyang kabutihan. Mapalad po ako na nagkaroon ng isang matalik na kaibigan kagaya po nya na masyadong pong matulungin at maaalahanin.
I hope po na hindi po sya pababayaan ng Poong Ama at sana po ay tulungan po syang gumaling sa kanyang sakit. Salamat naman po at hindi po sya pinapabayaan ng kanyang mapagmahal na employer na na-meet ko din po noon. Mapalad po sya at may employer syang napakabait po. Pagpalain mo po sila Panginoon. At maraming-maraming salamat po at hindi mo po sila pinapabayaan.
Maraming salamat po Panginoon sa pagsagot sa aking mga panalangin para po sa aking pinakamamahal na kaibigan. Sana po ay gumaling na po sya. Pagpalain mo po sya at huwag na huwag mo po syang pabayaan. Salamat po Panginoong Jesus!
Siguro dala lang ito ng mga pangyayari na naganap ngayong linggo. Una po yung email na natanggap ko tungkol sa aking kaibigan sa France na may metastatic liver cancer. Kala ko ay gumaling na sya kasi katatapos nya lang po ng kanyang chemotherapy at radiation. Yun pala ay hindi nag-respond ang cancer sa chemo. Sa halip ay kumalat pa ito sa iba't ibang parti at organs ng kanyang katawan. Kaunti na lang po ang taning nya at sa ngayon sabi nya sa akin ay nanghihina na sya at hindi na nya kaya.
Sabi ko sa kanya ay huwag syang sumuko at labanan nya ang sakit para sya ay gumaling. Sinabi ko rin sa kanya na ako'y taimtim na nagdadasal para kanya at sa kanyang ikagagaling. Pero tila sumuko na yata sya at bibigay na sa kanyang sakit. Naawa po talaga ako ng sobra sa kanya. Siguro yung email na yun ang kanyang huling pamamaalam sa akin. Masakit isipin pero kailangan kong tanggapin alang-alang sa aking pinakamamahal na kaibigan.
Dama ko pa ang aming mga matatamis na alaala nung kami ay nagtatravel pa. Masaya po syang kasama at tanggap na tanggap nya kung ano ako. SYa lang po ang taong nakagaanan ko ng loob at ang taong nakakaintindi sa akin. Malaki po ang respeto ko sa kanya kahit na sya ay medyo pabaya sa buhay nya. Siguro carefree lang po sya at naintindihan ko yun. Wala po talaga akong maipipintas sa kanya.
Mapait man isipin pero kailangan kong lakasan ang aking loob para hindi po sya mag-alala. Kahit ako nag-aalala sa kanya ay hindi ko po pinapakita sa kanya yun. Sinusuportahan ko po and kanyang desisyon. Siguro pagod na po sya sa kanyang laban kaya po sya sumuko.
Sabi nya po sa akin ay hindi na sya makapag-antay. Kailangan nya na pong uuwi sa Pilipinas dahil ayaw nya pong mangyari na hindi sya po papasakayin ng eroplano kung malubha na po sya. At doon po ako umiyak ng todo at hindi ko po pinahalata sa kanya sa telepono. Naawa po talaga ako sa kaibigan ko na kusang sumuko po sa kanyang laban sa cancer.
Sayang po at hindi ko na po sya makikita kung ako po ay magbabakasyon sa France. Plano po namin sana ay libutin ang Germany at France kung ako po ay nandoon. Ngayon ay ako na lang po ang maglilibot mag-isa kasi po sya ay uuwi na sa Guimaras. Napakalungkot po siguro ang ganun ano? Kaya ko pa po kayang magliwaliw na wala ang aking kaibigan? Siguro po kailangan ko pong kayanin para sa kanya. Ayoko pong masaktan ang kanyang damdamin kung hindi po ako tutuloy. Alang-alang na lang po sa aming pagkakaibigan.
Sana po ay matiwasay lang po ang aking bakasyon. Salamat naman po at tinawagan nya ang kanyang kaibigan sa Paris para doon po ako tumuloy habang nandudoon po ako. At least po ay maka-lessen po ako ng aking mga gastusin lalo na po ang hotel. At salamat naman po at nireto na rin ako sa kanyang kaibigan para maging kaibigan ko na rin at para makapag-enjoy na rin ako habang nandoon po ako sa Paris at di na po ako mag-alala kung saan po ako mag-stay doon.
Talaga pong maaalahanin po ang aking kaibigan kahit na sya po ay may sakit. Nakuha pa rin po nyang tulungan akong maghanap ng ma-stayhan doon. Taos puso po syang tumutulong sa akin para hindi po ako mapahamak kung nandoon na po ako. Hinding-hindi ko po makakalimutan ang kanyang kabutihan. Mapalad po ako na nagkaroon ng isang matalik na kaibigan kagaya po nya na masyadong pong matulungin at maaalahanin.
I hope po na hindi po sya pababayaan ng Poong Ama at sana po ay tulungan po syang gumaling sa kanyang sakit. Salamat naman po at hindi po sya pinapabayaan ng kanyang mapagmahal na employer na na-meet ko din po noon. Mapalad po sya at may employer syang napakabait po. Pagpalain mo po sila Panginoon. At maraming-maraming salamat po at hindi mo po sila pinapabayaan.
Maraming salamat po Panginoon sa pagsagot sa aking mga panalangin para po sa aking pinakamamahal na kaibigan. Sana po ay gumaling na po sya. Pagpalain mo po sya at huwag na huwag mo po syang pabayaan. Salamat po Panginoong Jesus!
Sunday, September 14, 2014
Ten Places To Go For My October Travels
Okay, I have been bombarded by sad news lately and it seems that everything negative right now had succumbed my life but rest assured I am accustomed to it and I know I can get through it well and intact I guess. I mean, we need those negative vibes sometimes to make us strong and decisive about life. It's not just that everything will always be positive all the time. Life is like a wheel and it needs to turn around, up and down.
The weather here in Los Angeles had reached to it's maximum hundred plus degrees and it makes me miserable. Now, here I am bitching about the weather, another negative vibes. But anyways, I heard today will be the last highs of the weather. It's really surmountingly high that it can fry my brain to a crispy bits, just kidding. But it was really uncomfortably hot and that I cannot attain my normal sleeping hours (I sleep during the daytime because I work graveyard shifts.) because my apartment has no air conditioning system. I ended up setting up a folding bed outside my porch and slept with my dog half naked letting the humid breeze outside comforting my pale brown skin (I'm chronically anemic).
Enough about bitching regarding the weather. Now let's go back to my impending vacation which is about to happen one month from now. I have laid up some impending goals of the places I needed to go and visit. I mean there's a lot to plot but not just enough time to do it so I must probably cut my list to a minimum of ten so that I won't be devastated and frustrated when I'm there next month.
I've set several places to go and topping my list will be Cologne, Paris, Rheims, Nancy, Strasbourg, Toulouse, Montpellier, Arles, and Nimes. I may put London as an alternate destination if I still have more time. Hope I can check off most of these places when I am there. I mean there's no harm in planning ahead of time. I can still adjust my schedule if time does not permit it. I'm a very versatile and flexible person (which is the right thing to do). I am there to travel and have fun and not to stress out myself anyway. Believe me, I have enough stresses in my life to deal with. And that's why planning ahead of time is paramount in achieving and making successful expected outcomes.
I grew up to be organized. Thanks to my mom for teaching me that value and for giving me the virtue of patience. I owe it a lot to her. At least I grew up to be a person with principles and discipline and I never regret growing up with a very constrictive parents. At least it made me the person with a lot of thinking-before-acting-a-certain-action thing (and I'm proud of it). My mom probably is proud of me as well right now. Mom, wherever you are I am always indebted with you. Thanks for guiding me and for teaching me to be resilient in anything no matter what the odds are. You are such the sweetest person I've ever known and have. Honestly Mom... and that's the truth. You know that.
Topping the list of the destinations in my travels are the following:
1. Paris - I needed to see the Musee de Orsay, Napoleon's pantheon, and the catacombs. I mean, I've been to Paris three times and I really believed that I scoured this enormous romantic city already but I was wrong. How come I missed these three very famous places within the city itself? At least I got to see Rodin's famous masterpiece work, which is also my favorite.... "The Thinker" statue, and I will be at peace. I will got to pay respect to Napoleon at the pantheon, too. The catacombs will be a plus if I happen to get through it cuz I heard it is hard to find.
2. Rheims - the only place I needed to see is the cathedral. I heard French Kings and Queens were being crowned in these famous cathedral during the French medieval times. The colorful stained glass windows were the famous topic and word of the mouth. And the gothic building was very impressive and stunning. That's all I've got from doing extensive research online and that had lured me to promise myself to see it. I might not be staying in this little town for long. All I just have to do is to see the cathedral and that's it. A very shallow reason but that's the importance of why I travel, to quench my thirst for sight-seeing. Lol.
3. Cologne - this is the only city that I needed to see in Germany although the nearby Bonn and Duseldorf were equally enticing. I heard the neo-gothic cathedral was massive and famous all of Europe. I just wanted to see the golden chest that the magi (Remember the three kings?) had brought to offer Jesus in Bethlehem. It was being kept in this church with maximum security. The city center was also nice to peruse as what I've heard. So I might take a three hour train ride from Paris just to see this very important religious artifact.
4. Nancy - another small town in eastern France which I believed has the very beautiful piazza or town center called "Place Stanislas". Intricate buildings and structures all around there. I might probably spend a night there then travel to the nearby city of Strasbourg the following day.
5. Strasbourg - yes... this is the epitome of the most beautiful cathedral (Notre dame as what the French call it) in the whole of France as what I've heard so I might as well see it since I'm nearby (I'm in Nancy a night before). I can't wait to see the enormous facade of the church with intricate statues, carvings, and reliefs, and the famous huge round colorful stained glass in the interior was also worth the visit I've heard. A must see!
6. Toulouse - another French city that I needed to see. It's beautiful capitol building at the city center was a structure worth visiting for. The riverfronts as well with it's simple yet vintage brick bridges that beautifully reflects on it's clear waters was also beautiful to look at at the pictures online via Google. I just need to visit this magical place south-west of France.
7. Arles - a small French town which once catered a famous Danish artist in his heydays for quite a small time in the 1800s. The Vincent van Gogh Museum is probably worth the visit I heard. I love anything related to van Gogh anyways!
8. Montpellier - another south-western city in France worth visiting for. It's ultra modern city was a breath of fresh air situated along the coastline of the famous French Riviera in the Mediterranean sea. Can't wait to see the headless and armless angel statue at the city center. A replica of the one that I found at the world renowned Louvre Museum in Paris..... the one that was featured in the first few chapters of the famous novel by Dan Brown ... "The da Vinci Code."
9. Nimes - this is indeed the top of my list. I got to see this ancient Roman city first. It is a seat of the Romans in ancient times in France and some of the structures were still there. The famous Nimes Roman Colisseum. Although it's small in structure and size yet the beauty of it is so appealing, looking like an intact Roman Colisseum from Rome. The Roman aqueduct also in one of the outskirts of the city is a must see as well, the only intact Roman aqueduct outside of Italy. I mean.... plenty to see there and I must be there first to top it off.
10. London - this will be my alternate destination if I still have more time. Maybe a day or two will be fine to spend there. I will take a bullet train from Paris then stay at my friend's house and voila.... London here I come! I might probably be meeting two of my cousins as well when I am there. We'll see!
Aaah.... so many places yet not enough time to spend. Hopefully, I will fulfill at least fifty percent of this list. I maybe underestimating it but fifty percent is enough for me, (I will die happy with nystagmus) so that I won't get frustrated or upset when I am there next month. Anyways, I still have more time to come back in the near future.
Last but not the least, I still have to revisit and review (If I needed to dug all my notes, I will.) my warped knowledge of the French language and grammar because I felt rusty already from not using it for four or five years or so (Believe me [just a reality check] French people are very rude to tourists who doesn't try speaking their own language..... based from my bitter first hand experiences in the past. They were very nationalistic people, I'm telling you.) J'aime tout en Francais de toute facon. Viva la France!
Sorry for this very ambitious list but I mean it's just an intended agenda.... an anticipated goal....a premeditated objective.....or an expected outcome..... an informal inspiration per se. I hope you all get the whole point at its entirety .... hehehe. Thank you very much for empathically understanding and agreeing at my extreme delusions! Hahaha.
The weather here in Los Angeles had reached to it's maximum hundred plus degrees and it makes me miserable. Now, here I am bitching about the weather, another negative vibes. But anyways, I heard today will be the last highs of the weather. It's really surmountingly high that it can fry my brain to a crispy bits, just kidding. But it was really uncomfortably hot and that I cannot attain my normal sleeping hours (I sleep during the daytime because I work graveyard shifts.) because my apartment has no air conditioning system. I ended up setting up a folding bed outside my porch and slept with my dog half naked letting the humid breeze outside comforting my pale brown skin (I'm chronically anemic).
Enough about bitching regarding the weather. Now let's go back to my impending vacation which is about to happen one month from now. I have laid up some impending goals of the places I needed to go and visit. I mean there's a lot to plot but not just enough time to do it so I must probably cut my list to a minimum of ten so that I won't be devastated and frustrated when I'm there next month.
I've set several places to go and topping my list will be Cologne, Paris, Rheims, Nancy, Strasbourg, Toulouse, Montpellier, Arles, and Nimes. I may put London as an alternate destination if I still have more time. Hope I can check off most of these places when I am there. I mean there's no harm in planning ahead of time. I can still adjust my schedule if time does not permit it. I'm a very versatile and flexible person (which is the right thing to do). I am there to travel and have fun and not to stress out myself anyway. Believe me, I have enough stresses in my life to deal with. And that's why planning ahead of time is paramount in achieving and making successful expected outcomes.
I grew up to be organized. Thanks to my mom for teaching me that value and for giving me the virtue of patience. I owe it a lot to her. At least I grew up to be a person with principles and discipline and I never regret growing up with a very constrictive parents. At least it made me the person with a lot of thinking-before-acting-a-certain-action thing (and I'm proud of it). My mom probably is proud of me as well right now. Mom, wherever you are I am always indebted with you. Thanks for guiding me and for teaching me to be resilient in anything no matter what the odds are. You are such the sweetest person I've ever known and have. Honestly Mom... and that's the truth. You know that.
Topping the list of the destinations in my travels are the following:
1. Paris - I needed to see the Musee de Orsay, Napoleon's pantheon, and the catacombs. I mean, I've been to Paris three times and I really believed that I scoured this enormous romantic city already but I was wrong. How come I missed these three very famous places within the city itself? At least I got to see Rodin's famous masterpiece work, which is also my favorite.... "The Thinker" statue, and I will be at peace. I will got to pay respect to Napoleon at the pantheon, too. The catacombs will be a plus if I happen to get through it cuz I heard it is hard to find.
2. Rheims - the only place I needed to see is the cathedral. I heard French Kings and Queens were being crowned in these famous cathedral during the French medieval times. The colorful stained glass windows were the famous topic and word of the mouth. And the gothic building was very impressive and stunning. That's all I've got from doing extensive research online and that had lured me to promise myself to see it. I might not be staying in this little town for long. All I just have to do is to see the cathedral and that's it. A very shallow reason but that's the importance of why I travel, to quench my thirst for sight-seeing. Lol.
3. Cologne - this is the only city that I needed to see in Germany although the nearby Bonn and Duseldorf were equally enticing. I heard the neo-gothic cathedral was massive and famous all of Europe. I just wanted to see the golden chest that the magi (Remember the three kings?) had brought to offer Jesus in Bethlehem. It was being kept in this church with maximum security. The city center was also nice to peruse as what I've heard. So I might take a three hour train ride from Paris just to see this very important religious artifact.
4. Nancy - another small town in eastern France which I believed has the very beautiful piazza or town center called "Place Stanislas". Intricate buildings and structures all around there. I might probably spend a night there then travel to the nearby city of Strasbourg the following day.
5. Strasbourg - yes... this is the epitome of the most beautiful cathedral (Notre dame as what the French call it) in the whole of France as what I've heard so I might as well see it since I'm nearby (I'm in Nancy a night before). I can't wait to see the enormous facade of the church with intricate statues, carvings, and reliefs, and the famous huge round colorful stained glass in the interior was also worth the visit I've heard. A must see!
6. Toulouse - another French city that I needed to see. It's beautiful capitol building at the city center was a structure worth visiting for. The riverfronts as well with it's simple yet vintage brick bridges that beautifully reflects on it's clear waters was also beautiful to look at at the pictures online via Google. I just need to visit this magical place south-west of France.
7. Arles - a small French town which once catered a famous Danish artist in his heydays for quite a small time in the 1800s. The Vincent van Gogh Museum is probably worth the visit I heard. I love anything related to van Gogh anyways!
8. Montpellier - another south-western city in France worth visiting for. It's ultra modern city was a breath of fresh air situated along the coastline of the famous French Riviera in the Mediterranean sea. Can't wait to see the headless and armless angel statue at the city center. A replica of the one that I found at the world renowned Louvre Museum in Paris..... the one that was featured in the first few chapters of the famous novel by Dan Brown ... "The da Vinci Code."
9. Nimes - this is indeed the top of my list. I got to see this ancient Roman city first. It is a seat of the Romans in ancient times in France and some of the structures were still there. The famous Nimes Roman Colisseum. Although it's small in structure and size yet the beauty of it is so appealing, looking like an intact Roman Colisseum from Rome. The Roman aqueduct also in one of the outskirts of the city is a must see as well, the only intact Roman aqueduct outside of Italy. I mean.... plenty to see there and I must be there first to top it off.
10. London - this will be my alternate destination if I still have more time. Maybe a day or two will be fine to spend there. I will take a bullet train from Paris then stay at my friend's house and voila.... London here I come! I might probably be meeting two of my cousins as well when I am there. We'll see!
Aaah.... so many places yet not enough time to spend. Hopefully, I will fulfill at least fifty percent of this list. I maybe underestimating it but fifty percent is enough for me, (I will die happy with nystagmus) so that I won't get frustrated or upset when I am there next month. Anyways, I still have more time to come back in the near future.
Last but not the least, I still have to revisit and review (If I needed to dug all my notes, I will.) my warped knowledge of the French language and grammar because I felt rusty already from not using it for four or five years or so (Believe me [just a reality check] French people are very rude to tourists who doesn't try speaking their own language..... based from my bitter first hand experiences in the past. They were very nationalistic people, I'm telling you.) J'aime tout en Francais de toute facon. Viva la France!
Sorry for this very ambitious list but I mean it's just an intended agenda.... an anticipated goal....a premeditated objective.....or an expected outcome..... an informal inspiration per se. I hope you all get the whole point at its entirety .... hehehe. Thank you very much for empathically understanding and agreeing at my extreme delusions! Hahaha.
A Very Very Sad News
I started this month's blog with a traumatizing experience and now it seems that my second blog is much more traumatizing than the first one. Actually, it's not that traumatizing but emotionally very draining. Here's what happened.
The other day, I woke up in the morning at 0600H trying to get ready for my clinicals when I happened to check the messenger from my Facebook and saw a message from my best friend in Aix-en-Provence. I felt so elated thinking it was a happy message because she was expecting me next month for my vacation wherein we will travel again like nomads.
When I got to read her message it was a sad news. She told me that her cancer did not respond from the last chemotherapy and radiotherapy she had and was told that it had metastasized to her liver. She told me that she will not last long and had decided to go hom eto the Philippines and eventually will rest there until she goes. She has to do it right away before all her strengths will be gone and that she will not waste time because she dreaded the idea that the airplane might not let her travel if she is very ill.
I didn't see it coming like that. I didn't see it that it was already a good bye. I didn't see it that I'm not gonna see her when I will be in Aix-en-Provence next month. I didn't see it that I will be missing her when I am there. I didn't see it that I'm not gonna see her anymore. I wish everything will be fine with her cuz I see her as a fighter and a strong person. I am really devastated of this sad news and here I am again got traumatized for the second time.
I regret starting my blog like this and it has to continue until this month ends. I wish it would not happen like that. They say that it always comes in threes. I hope it won't be like that. I am just very superstitious about it. I am sorry for my panicky mode. I just can't believe it holds true for me. I might be the most unlucky person here. Mayb eI have to see it in another perspective.... like maybe it was a blessing in disguise. Hope this would be true at all.
Going back to my best friend, I am just angry for what was happening right now. I mean what have she done? She was the most nicest person I've ever known. I'v enever opened that big with regards to my personal life but with her I am an open book. She knows if there is something wrong with me. She was the expert on that scenario.
I told her that despite of what happened I will still have to pursue my journey because it is very soon to cancel my flight. and besides it is my vacation month so I'd better be out of Los Angeles and unwind my tensions and stresses. I hope she understands my point and I hope she's still there when I arrived.
But I knew that she was very ill and that she was already weak with the chemo. I am glad that her employer was very supportive of her. And that her circle of friends had emphatized with her situation.
I am still in shock of what had happened and again I questioned God that how come He always grab all those who were pure of heart and who were spotlessly not sinful. I mean my friend was the sweetest and lovable person to me. We always had a lot of fun with each other when were together travelling. I didn't even had any bad encounter with her. She always supports me the way I am and likewise I was also very prim and proper with her.
Man, I gonna miss her so much. That kind hearted woman and very happy person I know of. Miga, don't forget me when you'll b ethere. I know you will wait for me there. I thank you for your unconditional friendship and bromance. I am so proud to have you in my life. Words can't just describe my feelings having you in my life.... how you cheered me when I needed it most. Thank you.... thank you.... tank you!
The other day, I woke up in the morning at 0600H trying to get ready for my clinicals when I happened to check the messenger from my Facebook and saw a message from my best friend in Aix-en-Provence. I felt so elated thinking it was a happy message because she was expecting me next month for my vacation wherein we will travel again like nomads.
When I got to read her message it was a sad news. She told me that her cancer did not respond from the last chemotherapy and radiotherapy she had and was told that it had metastasized to her liver. She told me that she will not last long and had decided to go hom eto the Philippines and eventually will rest there until she goes. She has to do it right away before all her strengths will be gone and that she will not waste time because she dreaded the idea that the airplane might not let her travel if she is very ill.
I didn't see it coming like that. I didn't see it that it was already a good bye. I didn't see it that I'm not gonna see her when I will be in Aix-en-Provence next month. I didn't see it that I will be missing her when I am there. I didn't see it that I'm not gonna see her anymore. I wish everything will be fine with her cuz I see her as a fighter and a strong person. I am really devastated of this sad news and here I am again got traumatized for the second time.
I regret starting my blog like this and it has to continue until this month ends. I wish it would not happen like that. They say that it always comes in threes. I hope it won't be like that. I am just very superstitious about it. I am sorry for my panicky mode. I just can't believe it holds true for me. I might be the most unlucky person here. Mayb eI have to see it in another perspective.... like maybe it was a blessing in disguise. Hope this would be true at all.
Going back to my best friend, I am just angry for what was happening right now. I mean what have she done? She was the most nicest person I've ever known. I'v enever opened that big with regards to my personal life but with her I am an open book. She knows if there is something wrong with me. She was the expert on that scenario.
I told her that despite of what happened I will still have to pursue my journey because it is very soon to cancel my flight. and besides it is my vacation month so I'd better be out of Los Angeles and unwind my tensions and stresses. I hope she understands my point and I hope she's still there when I arrived.
But I knew that she was very ill and that she was already weak with the chemo. I am glad that her employer was very supportive of her. And that her circle of friends had emphatized with her situation.
I am still in shock of what had happened and again I questioned God that how come He always grab all those who were pure of heart and who were spotlessly not sinful. I mean my friend was the sweetest and lovable person to me. We always had a lot of fun with each other when were together travelling. I didn't even had any bad encounter with her. She always supports me the way I am and likewise I was also very prim and proper with her.
Man, I gonna miss her so much. That kind hearted woman and very happy person I know of. Miga, don't forget me when you'll b ethere. I know you will wait for me there. I thank you for your unconditional friendship and bromance. I am so proud to have you in my life. Words can't just describe my feelings having you in my life.... how you cheered me when I needed it most. Thank you.... thank you.... tank you!
Sunday, September 7, 2014
Traumatized
Last couple days I wasn't really feeling well. I got sick because I was traumatized by a video I watched in Facebook. It was horrific and I got some flashbacks everytime I remember it. It is still fresh in my mind. That poor boy, angelic as he is was dead on the spot after being bullied and harrassed by three guys and a video taker. It was nightmarish as I consider.
It happens somewhere in China, the perpetrators were speaking Chinese. They appeared young and somewhat drugged. The three guys who were half naked were mauling a young boy kicking, spitting, punching, and hitting him with tree branches all over his body was all beaten up and mauled. He was begging for his life but the three guys kept of kicking him and breaking him into pieces. They were hitting him on his spine and ribs, one guy jumping on his back and chest trying to break his ribcage. Oh my gosh.... it was really horrendous.
Until they all were throwing huge stones on his back and body. He was lying there helpless trying to reason out with these spineless thugs. I swear I was in rage watching the video trying to sympathized with the young boy until a tear had unconsciously dropped from my pitiful eyes. I can't believe I just witnessed a very horrific crime which had changed my perspective about life.
At the end of the video one guy picked up a huge slab of concrete and throw it at the back of the boy's head which rendered him uncsonscious and didn't moved again. It seems that the huge heavy piece of concrete had cracked his skull inside and maybe made him bled inside his head. He didn't move after that appearing limp and unconscious.
The perpetrators were not happy about what they did and they dragged him about five meters and trying to check if he is still alive, opening his eyes and checking his pupils, picking up his upper limb and check if it still jerking, but the poor boy had not responded maybe because of the fatal injury he had committed from the hands of these evil doers. I cried impishly and prayed for his soul. I was really traumatized for what I had witnessed. It was the first time I've seen a first degree murder.
Not contented of what they did one of the guy, theone who threw the slab of concrete at his head, opened his pants and peed on the poor boy's head. I was pissed off with the thug's actions and wished that he will be punished by God someday.
How could people just have the authority to just kill people and take away their right to live? Why is it that there were people who were like that? Why is it that these things were happening around us? A lot of questions in my mind which really had rendered me melt right now out of pity for the little boy. I swear I can't forget this scene and will keep coming back to haunt me.
I wished I didn't watched the video in the first place because it really had made a big impact on me. I even blogged about it because I really cannot get over about it. I was furious about my situation. That I am mad and angry because I cannot do something to help the little biy. I was just helpless sitting there and watching the whole thing happened from my laptop. I am really crushed about what I've seen.
My only option is to pray for his repose and wished that all these thugs will be caught and punished for what they have done. I hope in the future they will realized that what they did to this helpless boy was wrong and that they will repay it in the end. I hope that karma will make them realized that they wronged someone and that they have to repent for what they have done.
Oh how I wish I could do something to just at least help that helpless boy. That's why I've shared the video so that people will keep sharing it and in so doing the attention of the authorities in China will be caught and will look for these three guys who mauled and beat the poor boy. That's my wish and I hope it will happen. And may the boy's soul will rest in peace. Amen.
It happens somewhere in China, the perpetrators were speaking Chinese. They appeared young and somewhat drugged. The three guys who were half naked were mauling a young boy kicking, spitting, punching, and hitting him with tree branches all over his body was all beaten up and mauled. He was begging for his life but the three guys kept of kicking him and breaking him into pieces. They were hitting him on his spine and ribs, one guy jumping on his back and chest trying to break his ribcage. Oh my gosh.... it was really horrendous.
Until they all were throwing huge stones on his back and body. He was lying there helpless trying to reason out with these spineless thugs. I swear I was in rage watching the video trying to sympathized with the young boy until a tear had unconsciously dropped from my pitiful eyes. I can't believe I just witnessed a very horrific crime which had changed my perspective about life.
At the end of the video one guy picked up a huge slab of concrete and throw it at the back of the boy's head which rendered him uncsonscious and didn't moved again. It seems that the huge heavy piece of concrete had cracked his skull inside and maybe made him bled inside his head. He didn't move after that appearing limp and unconscious.
The perpetrators were not happy about what they did and they dragged him about five meters and trying to check if he is still alive, opening his eyes and checking his pupils, picking up his upper limb and check if it still jerking, but the poor boy had not responded maybe because of the fatal injury he had committed from the hands of these evil doers. I cried impishly and prayed for his soul. I was really traumatized for what I had witnessed. It was the first time I've seen a first degree murder.
Not contented of what they did one of the guy, theone who threw the slab of concrete at his head, opened his pants and peed on the poor boy's head. I was pissed off with the thug's actions and wished that he will be punished by God someday.
How could people just have the authority to just kill people and take away their right to live? Why is it that there were people who were like that? Why is it that these things were happening around us? A lot of questions in my mind which really had rendered me melt right now out of pity for the little boy. I swear I can't forget this scene and will keep coming back to haunt me.
I wished I didn't watched the video in the first place because it really had made a big impact on me. I even blogged about it because I really cannot get over about it. I was furious about my situation. That I am mad and angry because I cannot do something to help the little biy. I was just helpless sitting there and watching the whole thing happened from my laptop. I am really crushed about what I've seen.
My only option is to pray for his repose and wished that all these thugs will be caught and punished for what they have done. I hope in the future they will realized that what they did to this helpless boy was wrong and that they will repay it in the end. I hope that karma will make them realized that they wronged someone and that they have to repent for what they have done.
Oh how I wish I could do something to just at least help that helpless boy. That's why I've shared the video so that people will keep sharing it and in so doing the attention of the authorities in China will be caught and will look for these three guys who mauled and beat the poor boy. That's my wish and I hope it will happen. And may the boy's soul will rest in peace. Amen.
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