It's been years that I've been misisng some of the family gatherings because fo two reasons, firstly because I worked every weekends and secondly it's unfortunate most of these parties always fall on a weekend. But lately, because I was been informed ahead of time by my cousins then I have enough time to request for an off and never missed the gathering. I think it would work like that from now on.
I had attended two family gatherings this month and I was so happy to have seen my cousins and had an intimate conversations with them. It was a good feeling to have been with them even for just a night talking about things we've grown up together. The first party was held on June 1st and it was a celebratory party of my cousin from graduating her masters degree in business management.
The party was been very nice with an open bar and a DJ spinning music for the partygoers. Everyone were very eager dancing hedonistically and not even minding everybody. The food were great and the conversations with my cousins were even crazy spinning back the old times when we were little in the Philippines. It was really great to have attended this parties. I've missed a lot of things lately but now I am catching up with them.
The party ended up close to midnight if not for the police that came knocking on my cousin's door asking to abate the party because some neighbors were compalining. After checking the necessary permits and talk with my cousin th epolice left and the party was off. Eventhough, it was cut short the music ended but the conversations were still ongoing. It really blew my mind because the eagerness in each other's faces were extremely contagious. The talking just would not end.
I am glad I took a days off and attended teh party and am glad as well to have seen my grown up cousins but to me I still look at them as babies looking back to the years that we've been together when were small. It seems that they've not grown because we still act like babies when we're together. It was a breath of fresh air to have a glimpse of them that night.
Yesterday, was the sebond party of the month. It was the first birthday of my little niece and almost all of my cousins were there. The house was packed and the food was great. There were no music or drinking because it was a children's party but having conversations with my aunts, uncles, cousins, and family friends were extremely tiring I guess. There were just a lot of them and it's very intimidating as well. But the party was a success indeed.
Seeing my cousins once again was a happy thing for me. We giggled, we laughed, we joked at each other. It was funa nd hilarious. There were no dull moments there. Everybody has their own bit of a story to share and it was a very interactive round table conversations. We were just like a happy family indeed.
At least I get to set-up some days for these and I am glad I've been involved. Thanks also to my manager for letting me enjoy this moment after working weekends for several years. It was a scarifice for me. Before when there's a family party most of the elders in the family were been looking for me and now they were glad that I am present. At least they've got updated right away about me when I am attending. And it was a great idea.
My happiness could not be fathomed every time I'm at the family party, not only talking to my aunts and uncles, but also interacting with my close knit cousins. I am really glad I had done it, if not I will miss every body again. Thank you Lord for giving me time to reconnect with them and thanks to my work for giving me time to have an off and attend these parties. I am extremely glad it all worked out.
It a good way of rekindling all those lost moments that I was not present and I am glad to see everyone. Glad these were possible because my life is only full of busy moments at work and no time for family. Life is full of happenings and it's up to us to make it fulfilling.
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Monday, June 24, 2013
Listening To Classical Music
I don't know, but lately I've been fascinated with classical music. I've been listening to it everytime I'm in my car driving to work or and also when I goes home in the afternoon. The soft and soothing music was very pleasing to my ears. It was very titillating to listen to it.
I always tune in my car radio to classical radio 95.1 and enjoyed the music they've offered during my drive to work and going home. Even if I got stuck in a traffic I never been angry anymore, unlike before, because the music had quieted me down. It's a good way for me to relax and never get mad thereby triggering my blood pressure to get elevated.
Right now, I was very fascinated with the piano music of the Chinese pianist Lang Lang. It was a very powerful music given to us by this young Chinese guy. He graced the Sir Albert Hall in London and Carnegie Hall in New York at a young age of 21. If I'm not mistaken he is the one also who performed a piano concert during the opening ceremony of the 2008 Beijing Olympics. No wonder why the Chinese are very proud of him.
Even at work, if I have a lot of things to do I always popped his music from my iPhone. By the way, I bought two of his beautiful albums. The first one I bought was the Fifty Greatest Piano Music and it was a bargainb for me because one album consisted of 50 mega classical piano songs. The second album I bought was the alluring Dragon Songs Album which was loaded with rich Chinese classical piano songs. It was really deep in meaning and very captivating music.
I don't know what's into me but having listened to this kind of music was heaven to me. I never get tired listening to it. Even in my sleep the music still keeps reverberating inmy head. I probably had a classical music syndrome wherein I have auditory hallucinations. Hehehe. But it's all worth it.
Sometimes this music will also tell me a lot of history and bringing me to think the places they were originated. Each country has their own rich classical music traditon and having the chance to have known about the people and the group behind the music it all sums up that music will always binds us together, Music is indeed therapeutic to some and it alsso brought unity to everybody.
Music is always a universal language because we can detect where it come from and it is easily understood. Be it fast or slow it depicts our own self and mood. Classical music is a good appetizers to someone and I'm glad I'm hooked to it. Ciao!
I always tune in my car radio to classical radio 95.1 and enjoyed the music they've offered during my drive to work and going home. Even if I got stuck in a traffic I never been angry anymore, unlike before, because the music had quieted me down. It's a good way for me to relax and never get mad thereby triggering my blood pressure to get elevated.
Right now, I was very fascinated with the piano music of the Chinese pianist Lang Lang. It was a very powerful music given to us by this young Chinese guy. He graced the Sir Albert Hall in London and Carnegie Hall in New York at a young age of 21. If I'm not mistaken he is the one also who performed a piano concert during the opening ceremony of the 2008 Beijing Olympics. No wonder why the Chinese are very proud of him.
Even at work, if I have a lot of things to do I always popped his music from my iPhone. By the way, I bought two of his beautiful albums. The first one I bought was the Fifty Greatest Piano Music and it was a bargainb for me because one album consisted of 50 mega classical piano songs. The second album I bought was the alluring Dragon Songs Album which was loaded with rich Chinese classical piano songs. It was really deep in meaning and very captivating music.
I don't know what's into me but having listened to this kind of music was heaven to me. I never get tired listening to it. Even in my sleep the music still keeps reverberating inmy head. I probably had a classical music syndrome wherein I have auditory hallucinations. Hehehe. But it's all worth it.
Sometimes this music will also tell me a lot of history and bringing me to think the places they were originated. Each country has their own rich classical music traditon and having the chance to have known about the people and the group behind the music it all sums up that music will always binds us together, Music is indeed therapeutic to some and it alsso brought unity to everybody.
Music is always a universal language because we can detect where it come from and it is easily understood. Be it fast or slow it depicts our own self and mood. Classical music is a good appetizers to someone and I'm glad I'm hooked to it. Ciao!
Sunday, June 9, 2013
Just Upset Being In This Position
I mean it's been years that I am helping my siblings caught up with their life especialy when it comes to financial matters but it seems that they've been very dependent on me laready and that it's hard to wean them from leeching on me when it come sto their basic needs. I am so sick and tired of this situation already and I cannot enjoy my freedom because they're always seeking assistance from me forever.
It's just a pathetic way for me to vent out my frustrations here wherein I am the only one who can hear it and solve it. Yes, eventually in the end I will be the one who can find the way out of this but I am so helpless now that Ijust wanted to blog it out. Everyday in my life I never complained about helping them but it seems that they don't have the idea that I am also suffering here.
I have my own bills to pay, I have also to pay my taxes in installment because I could not afford paying it one time, I am also working my ass off almost everyday and not enjoying a days off because I have to work in order not to come up short of money by the end of the end when I am trying to pay my bills and send them money way back home. All my life I have worked so hard to have meet their needs and not my own needs. I am so tired of doing this anymore. I just wanted to enjoy my time and have a good rest but it is not possible because at the back of my mind I always think about them.
Right now, I am confused about my life. I am very troubled about the consequences of weaning them from becoming a parasite to me. I know I have to do it so as not to make them very dependent to me and still I have to weigh in their feelings and my feelings as well. I hope I can handle the situation wherein I could confront them that this has to stop and I can have the courage to face the truth that I have done it and that I am indeed free from the shackles of my siblings dependence from me.
It bleeds my heart to imagine these things but I know I don't have the courage to do it. Maybe it will happen that I will confront them but I am foreseeing that they will lie low in pestering and demanding me to help and that they will have to do it on their own finding means to suffice their basic needs and not to be dependent on me. What I am dreading most is that situation wherein they will disown me as a brother just because I stopped helping them financially.
My intention is that I will not stop sending the kids to school by paying up their individual tuition fees but I am hoping they will help me also on the other side by shouldering these kids allowances and miscellaneous fees and not just depend on me totally for everything because sending five kids to a provate school is very heavy. I mean I am not complaining but I have to keep up wih my own life, too. Correct me if I'm wrong.
The reason I wrote this blog is because I am seeking some enlightenment among my readers. I hope somebody will give me a pretty solid advice on what to do regarding my situation. I am very lost right now and I'm breaking down. I just don't know what to do. In my frustration I just grab the keyboard and started typing what my thoughts were. I'm very very lost. Please help me. I will greatly appreciate it if somebody who has a prudent advise can tell me what to do.
May my decisions were bad and someone can enlighten me what the right to to do about this situation. I seems like a simple situation but making decisons is hard. I just don't want to hurt everybody's feelings and I just wanted to polish the problem professionally and peacefully. I know in the end it will be patched up and I also damn know that in the end someone's emotions will be affceted and I greatly know that it is normal to be like that and I am ready to face the music and dance with it gracefully and end up with a standing ovation from my audience.
Now I am feeling good that I wrote my thoughts out and that I am very calm now. Thanks for spending your time reading t his nonsense and I greatly appreciate your care. In the end I am the only one who can decide what to do and thans to those wh give their precious piece of advise, if there's some. Life has to go on and at the end of the line everybody has to take their part and perform it fully well to have a good story out of it and then life woul be better.
All the world is a stage and we all have a part in it. Either we perform it well or we perform it badly it's all up to us. A story will be bland if everybody will be heroes. Life always has villains as well. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
It's just a pathetic way for me to vent out my frustrations here wherein I am the only one who can hear it and solve it. Yes, eventually in the end I will be the one who can find the way out of this but I am so helpless now that Ijust wanted to blog it out. Everyday in my life I never complained about helping them but it seems that they don't have the idea that I am also suffering here.
I have my own bills to pay, I have also to pay my taxes in installment because I could not afford paying it one time, I am also working my ass off almost everyday and not enjoying a days off because I have to work in order not to come up short of money by the end of the end when I am trying to pay my bills and send them money way back home. All my life I have worked so hard to have meet their needs and not my own needs. I am so tired of doing this anymore. I just wanted to enjoy my time and have a good rest but it is not possible because at the back of my mind I always think about them.
Right now, I am confused about my life. I am very troubled about the consequences of weaning them from becoming a parasite to me. I know I have to do it so as not to make them very dependent to me and still I have to weigh in their feelings and my feelings as well. I hope I can handle the situation wherein I could confront them that this has to stop and I can have the courage to face the truth that I have done it and that I am indeed free from the shackles of my siblings dependence from me.
It bleeds my heart to imagine these things but I know I don't have the courage to do it. Maybe it will happen that I will confront them but I am foreseeing that they will lie low in pestering and demanding me to help and that they will have to do it on their own finding means to suffice their basic needs and not to be dependent on me. What I am dreading most is that situation wherein they will disown me as a brother just because I stopped helping them financially.
My intention is that I will not stop sending the kids to school by paying up their individual tuition fees but I am hoping they will help me also on the other side by shouldering these kids allowances and miscellaneous fees and not just depend on me totally for everything because sending five kids to a provate school is very heavy. I mean I am not complaining but I have to keep up wih my own life, too. Correct me if I'm wrong.
The reason I wrote this blog is because I am seeking some enlightenment among my readers. I hope somebody will give me a pretty solid advice on what to do regarding my situation. I am very lost right now and I'm breaking down. I just don't know what to do. In my frustration I just grab the keyboard and started typing what my thoughts were. I'm very very lost. Please help me. I will greatly appreciate it if somebody who has a prudent advise can tell me what to do.
May my decisions were bad and someone can enlighten me what the right to to do about this situation. I seems like a simple situation but making decisons is hard. I just don't want to hurt everybody's feelings and I just wanted to polish the problem professionally and peacefully. I know in the end it will be patched up and I also damn know that in the end someone's emotions will be affceted and I greatly know that it is normal to be like that and I am ready to face the music and dance with it gracefully and end up with a standing ovation from my audience.
Now I am feeling good that I wrote my thoughts out and that I am very calm now. Thanks for spending your time reading t his nonsense and I greatly appreciate your care. In the end I am the only one who can decide what to do and thans to those wh give their precious piece of advise, if there's some. Life has to go on and at the end of the line everybody has to take their part and perform it fully well to have a good story out of it and then life woul be better.
All the world is a stage and we all have a part in it. Either we perform it well or we perform it badly it's all up to us. A story will be bland if everybody will be heroes. Life always has villains as well. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Just Some Random Thoughts
Despite my lag in writing blogs I still have some religious readers who kept browsing my blogs and patiently waiting for some new ones. I really apologized to those who waited because I've been caught up with my daily schedules and activities and by the time I got home I'm already tired to do some blogs. There's should be no excuse about it but I am just overwhelmed with all this 10,000 views I saw. It was indeed overwhelming!
I just can't promise to do a lot of blogs lately because I am so packed for the next four months. I am also busy preparing my requirements for my masteral degree which I should have been taking long time ago. But because I needed to prioritize some needed time and people I have to sacrifice my ambition for them. I hope they will understand me for doing so but I think it is high time now for me to take this long time desire to step up the next level of my education, gauging that it will benefit all of us anyway.
It seems that I am very preoccupied about the things that aren't suppose to be happening and I am surprised that I spent a lot of time for it. I knew taht it will affect my options but I still continued to do it, now that I fully realized that it was indeed unnecessary to have done it, it was already too late to back out. But oh well, God will guide me anyway.
Keeping things in order lately is hard because by the time I got home I was totally longing my bed and I just wanted to succumb myself to that anticipated stupor and just render myself into a blissful coma. It was quite heartrending though, because I can't belive I can handle these things with finesse despite that my body was already seizing the moment of fatigue. I am not complaining but it was just typical to be in disbelief having done those unpredictable things. I am just probably fanatical or Imay say fatalistic.
Lately, I've been rawn to a one hobby that I never imagined I will be doing. I was really enjoying playing "scratchers" trying to get lucky just in case. I think this is just an act of entertaining myself and at the same time being hopeful to win. Sometimes I thought of it as a pathetic outlet to just get rich instantly. It was so addicting that I've even influenced some of my students. Ah well, it was fun though. I have won several times and then had bought more the next time I played. Truly, amazing!
It was indeed June and summer had been just ushered in. It is also the time for the enrollment in the Philippines and this also entails sending money for the enrollment of my nieces and nephews. It was my promise to them that I will handle their tuition fees and school needs because I don't wantthem to suffer what we've suferred when were little. It was kinda tough for me though because I have to work so hard in order to come up with the money but at the same time I felt at ease because they will be taken cared of educationally.
Last week, I've met my cousins at a party held by my other cousin during her graduation as a Master in Business Administration. It was my first time to attend our family party for a long long time and I was happy to see my cousins and like wise them. We had a lot of good time and casual conversations. I was really happy that I have seen each one of them looking different and all grown up. We had a lot of fun, dancing, alking, and the food were excellent. I hope we will be seeing each other again next time.
It's nice coming back here again and blog all my thoughts randomly. I missed doing it but for the mean time I will be probably writing sporadically because of my very busy schedule. I hope I can write more blogs here just like before. Don't worry though because I wil try my best to come back here from time to time. Adios mi amigos y amigas! El Dios muy bueno. Gracias!
I just can't promise to do a lot of blogs lately because I am so packed for the next four months. I am also busy preparing my requirements for my masteral degree which I should have been taking long time ago. But because I needed to prioritize some needed time and people I have to sacrifice my ambition for them. I hope they will understand me for doing so but I think it is high time now for me to take this long time desire to step up the next level of my education, gauging that it will benefit all of us anyway.
It seems that I am very preoccupied about the things that aren't suppose to be happening and I am surprised that I spent a lot of time for it. I knew taht it will affect my options but I still continued to do it, now that I fully realized that it was indeed unnecessary to have done it, it was already too late to back out. But oh well, God will guide me anyway.
Keeping things in order lately is hard because by the time I got home I was totally longing my bed and I just wanted to succumb myself to that anticipated stupor and just render myself into a blissful coma. It was quite heartrending though, because I can't belive I can handle these things with finesse despite that my body was already seizing the moment of fatigue. I am not complaining but it was just typical to be in disbelief having done those unpredictable things. I am just probably fanatical or Imay say fatalistic.
Lately, I've been rawn to a one hobby that I never imagined I will be doing. I was really enjoying playing "scratchers" trying to get lucky just in case. I think this is just an act of entertaining myself and at the same time being hopeful to win. Sometimes I thought of it as a pathetic outlet to just get rich instantly. It was so addicting that I've even influenced some of my students. Ah well, it was fun though. I have won several times and then had bought more the next time I played. Truly, amazing!
It was indeed June and summer had been just ushered in. It is also the time for the enrollment in the Philippines and this also entails sending money for the enrollment of my nieces and nephews. It was my promise to them that I will handle their tuition fees and school needs because I don't wantthem to suffer what we've suferred when were little. It was kinda tough for me though because I have to work so hard in order to come up with the money but at the same time I felt at ease because they will be taken cared of educationally.
Last week, I've met my cousins at a party held by my other cousin during her graduation as a Master in Business Administration. It was my first time to attend our family party for a long long time and I was happy to see my cousins and like wise them. We had a lot of good time and casual conversations. I was really happy that I have seen each one of them looking different and all grown up. We had a lot of fun, dancing, alking, and the food were excellent. I hope we will be seeing each other again next time.
It's nice coming back here again and blog all my thoughts randomly. I missed doing it but for the mean time I will be probably writing sporadically because of my very busy schedule. I hope I can write more blogs here just like before. Don't worry though because I wil try my best to come back here from time to time. Adios mi amigos y amigas! El Dios muy bueno. Gracias!
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