Needed To Control My Temper

I just cannot bear it anymore. Whatever, I will do I tend to be misunderstood. I don't know why? Things are just like crazy lately. I mean real crazy that it could drive me to lose my mind.... as if driving me nuts real good.

Oh well, another lesson to learn at. What else should I say? I am really a magnet of trouble I guess. If only I could control my temper and shut my f------ mouth. Ayayay... things really got out of hands lately. It's been awry.

In this world, and on this new generation people are just very cunning at throwing the race card or the harassment card. They just dumb not considering the entire circumstantial events that leads to the situation.

They just presume that their rights were been stepped on. So they dropped those very strong cards that even a very smart person couldn't consider. Could it be that this is just for the more less fortunate and lacks discipline for themselves.... has no background at all but to usurp the situation.

Lately, I was accused of harassing a co-worker because I texted her asking her why she had changed my assignment when in fact it was my primary assignment and it was already my third day out of five days. I told her that I was angry at the changes and that it is not fair and that I am just voicing out that it is not right.

To her it was already a harassment and she complained to my manager that I was harassing her. The manager told me that harassment is a very strong world and can ruin someone's career.

Yes, I agree if the person really intentionally did the act but for my case I didn't even say anything that had degraded her dignity. I was only asking why she changed my assignment and that it is not fair.

I also asked her that she gave my assignment to the person who is making overtime and that I was left grasping another assignment that I do not know, on my third day of work. I also asked her that is it a special treatment because if it is, that is out right wrong. And to her it was a harassment?

Haist.... from now on, I really need to control my temper and to just probably bottle up my anger. Me and my silly emotional turbulence. Hahaha.

Random Thoughts About Wisdom

My professional journey was quite as ebby as the ocean. It's quite erratic yet very educational. Oh how I wish I'm still young so that I can still explore more of what my profession has to offer for me. I have learned a lot from my mistakes yet if I could only turn back the time to correct it, maybe I have some quite few to improve on.

Working in this profession is not easy but I will always tether all the times that I needed to learn upon. I am quite a perfectionist person but I am also very resourceful when it comes to things that needed to be improvised. I am a very stingy person. As much as, I can bargain more I will do it till it bottomed down. Hahaha.... that's just me and for sure you know it by now.

Yes, I have some regrets in my life, made some bad decisions, cowered on those premonitions of the consequences of my actions, and regretfully made some amends not to repeat those bad decisions again despite of the cycle it does to my life no matter how short or long the time span. I am a fatalist, a pessimist, and a worrier but I am also an anticipator, a person who always thinks ahead, a person who calculates not approximates, and I am proud of myself.

I always accept the fact that I am not perfect. I guess we all are. Tell me someone who is perfect then I will smack off your head. I guess there's nothing existing like that unless they were God. My bad guess again, but I could not guess it enough if I happen to meet someone like that.

Yeah, life is short and we have to learn some wisdom from our experiences. What irked me sometimes is that people tend to masks their insecurities with arrogance and that leads to not accepting that they were just humans prone to mistakes. I guess they will learn it eventually when they mature, more travelled, and well acquainted to people who have a lot of experience.

They forgot that there were people who were ahead of them and that they feel that they were the best. Good thing those elders has the patience to just brush off those arrogance and that they understand the situation because they were on their shoes in the past.

I guess empathy is really a mystical word. Putting yourself to someone's situation can make you learn a person in their own bubble. You tend to know what they feel and what they think. I guess empathy is a wisdom generator ever since human beings were born. Just my thought, correct me if I'm wrong.

So Pumped Up

You know what.... I am so pumped up right now. I mean I feel so high that I felt like paper flying up in the air, feeling the freedom of flying alone. But to my agony, I am still at work. Hahaha.

I felt like a zombie trying to imitate their robotic walk. I really don't know what happened but I know what caused it. Actually it was my doing. Hehehe.

Having to work sixteen hours everyday for two weeks...... what could you expect. Hehehe. Of course my body cells have probably achieve some weightless properties. It was a funny thought but I am really super excited having worked like this.

I just cannot understand why I am doing it but I all I know is that I just wanted to work continuously because I just wanted to be around work all the time, because it makes me depress to stay at home during my off days and do nothing but procrastinate.

I mean I just wanted to be productive all the time. Doing things that I usually like to do. It makes me comfortable and at the same time active.

Seeing my friends and co-workers just gave me inspiration to work for the welfare of my patients. It was a very rewarding situation for me to be around them. What a great feeling to have done good deeds.

Aside from what I have explained earlier, it cannot be denied the benefits of money when I work hard. Of course more money for my bank account. Hahaha. Working for twenty to thirty hours overtime (double paid) can bring you a lot of fortune. And it is a fact!

Well, it's been a good feeling coming back here again and blog my thoughts away. That's the number one reason as well why I am so pumped as well because of this feeling of freewill. Free of worries and darkness when I blogged.

Yeah.... that was how I felt as of this moment and I am very very ecstatic about it. How about you? ....... Are you pumped up as well?

Work Related Stories

From now on, I will include some of the stories I gathered at work as well as my experiences at work that really reminded me an lot and that I have learned a lot of wisdom.

It might be heartwarming to really include some of the stories that I have encountered and telling my readers on the second person point-of-view. As if they were there when the situation happened.

I am very excited of this vision and hopefully I could improved my writing skills and grammar as well. Since I started at Genesis company last month I learned the best way by interacting my patients and by trying to be empathic with them and listen to their concerns.

It had totally affected me as a person. I am no longer a person who doesn't care about other people but a person who is more aware of what is happening in the real world. I can feel how these patients feel. I am more aware of their pains and their feelings. It had opened my eyes to be more like them rather than to close my eyes and not care of what is happening around.

Yeah, it was a very critical eye opener for me to feel, see, and hear their plight. The elderly people are the people that does not have a voice and protection for their individual rights. It is a shame that elderly abuse is very rampant in front of us despite how mild or severe, how big or small, how minor or major, and how significant or insignificant the condition, situation, or circumstance.

It had really cloaked me and woken my cold and unmindful spirit. Now I am advocating for their rights, for their existence, for their voice. I hope the purpose of including their stories here will serve it right for my own redemption.

For so many years, I have ignored their plights and I am ashamed of what I have done. Now, I know why I have to experience it. Maybe God has the reason again why I got accepted at Genesis and resigned at CVN.

For all I know God was just around trying to touch everybody's hearts, once and for all. And it greatly touched not only my heart but also my life. It's a very rewarding experience, I assure you.

I can't wait for it so let's do it guys.

Back On Track

It's been a while that I haven't blogged here. I missed blogging already. I know I have a lot of explaining to do, why I haven't been doing it. I know you all understood why, but in case you wouldn't my sincere apology for making you hang without my full intention of making you wait forever.

I resigned from my nursing home job at CVN (can't really tell the whole name of the facility I've been working with for privacy purposes) and since then I was kinda going downhill, you know. It was a very stressful life ever since but my spirits was been very optimistic that I can pick up myself and start all over again.

It took me several months to get over with it and now I am very much inclined to make positive plans for my future. I know God has the ultimate reason why it happened to me and I left all the fate I have to God, which He eventually answered. I am truly indebted in Him and I cannot forget that he did not abandoned me. I am truly blessed I guess.

Things that had happened (though slow and painstaking) had it's own course and reasons, I could not be more thankful for them. It seems that the hands of the Lord was really very comforting to those who are in need. I learn a lot of lessons and wisdom from it. I think that is the purpose of it.

I know that He will not leave or abandon me. I know that he is always there by my side whispering to me what to do and that I am stubborn enough to heed Him that is why it took slow for me to pick up myself. My bad I guess!

I am glad that everything was very apparent and that I know the perspectives of my actions. I am so fortunate that He was there all the time although how many times that I brushed Him off, yet he stood by me and never left me in the dark.

Although, sometimes I felt that He abandoned me yet I regretted those times that I thought of Him leaving me alone. And now I know that he didn't left me on my own but had carried me through to muster my own strength to believe in myself that I can do it and that nobody can do it for me.

Yeah, it was such a challenging journey for all those eight months that I've missed from this blogsite. Hopefully everything will be as positive, productive, and promising as what they are. No matter how long I will wait I will endure the wait. Thank you for understanding and thank you Lord for being with me.