Hi guys. It's been a while that I have not blogged here. As usual, those were the times that I had succumb to darkness. The previous years had passed and still the first quarter of the current year had still to end yet I was still nursing this empty void in my life after all those beautiful things had been crampled by an exemptionally evil woman.
I had her defeated me, despite of the fact that I was not at war at her. It was my pride that had caused so much turmoil in my life. It was all my fault, yet it had took me several long period to have me realized that I had caused it partly. I know my pride had killed everything but it is really hard to swallow.
I lost a lot of times, very very precious times. The evil woman had triumph and had left me scarred. It was a very poignant realization that she ended up victorious. But..... to really internalize what had happened, I guess there were no victors actually. Both of us had lost the battle and had faced the consequences of our actions.
I may be so vulgar about it but if I can really rationalized it deeply, the sting of the wounds that we caused was really in depth and really really hurts. I suffered a lot in all aspects yet I had gathered and mustered my strengths and had willingly accepted the fact that it was a mistake and I had learned from it so much.
It was a very bad awakening from a very very scary nightmare. Yet the pain was there, lurking somewhere else trying to haunt me of the ghost of the past. It was a very scary circumstance yet it is the one worth learning for.
Yeah, we all make mistakes and we are mere humans. We strive to attain our dreams no matter if we succeed or fail. There were only two directions in life, the right which leads to success and the left which leads to failure. Whatever we chose makes our destiny. But I believed that if we make mistakes we can still turn around and make some revisions, whether it is a minor or a major one.
Now that I finally fully understand what had happened, it is high time for me to continue and face the challenges ahead of me. For we ought not dwell from the mistakes of the past but we should correct them not to happen again. And I am a firm believer of that notion. My belief is what is happening and what will be happening. For me it's just like sound checking what will happen. not cool but a verse to live by.
It's nice to be back and hopefully more inspiring blogs for me to come. Sorry for the long wait. At least I am back and ready to face the world with a lot of enthusiasm, joy, and excitement. Honestly, it's good to be back doing things I really like. Happy togetehr again. Ciao!
