Yes... I always struggled every day to live. I woke up early in the morning to ready myself to work, teach students at school and in the clinical site, as well as do a lot of reading for my lesson plans. It is kinda hard but I like the challenge.
As I am trying to accomplish my goals for the day I am so anxious what to do. I don't know what to expect what will come out and I am so bummed out to wait till the day finished. The demands of the day was been very high and critical and I am also been pressured with the rapidity of the circumstances that had been happening.
It's odd though because I have no idea what had happened and how did it happened. I am very amazed and surprised! Life sometimes can be mysterious and susprising. You don't know what's in store for you the whole day. Love it or hate it.... but things happens in an inopportune time sometimes.
Today, I've meet a friend, a former student actually, a very close buddy. He teased me to treat him for a lunch, and I gave in. Because it was been a long time that I haven't seen him so I succumbed to his pleadings to take him out and indeed I promised to treat him.
He was so cute and very goodlooking. He was Korean, also. He appears so pumped because he told me he was working out a lot.... almost five hours a day. I was so surprised seeing him so good looking and yummy that time. I admit I thought maliciously about him but I held my reins because I don't want to tarnish my good reputation as a teacher.
He offered to drive as long as I will pay for the lunch and I sealed the deal. In the car he was very boisterous. He told me that he was working in Abercrombie and Fitch and if I wanted to buy some of the products I just have to contact him so that he can give me a 30% employee discount. I told him I'll take note of that.
I seldom buy A&F but if opportunities like this knocks then I have to grab the opportunity. I told him I will call him once I decided to shop there.
In the car he was talking about his gym routines and we kind of swerve on the sexual side many times. He told me that he always masturbates in the morning and he always cums a lot. I kind of ride him also telling him (of course I was lying) that I don't have erection anymore because I am taking pills for my hypertension which I probably observed cause the impotence.
He still keeps telling me that he was also taking Viagra and that he always maintains his erections all throughout the day. I was just listening to his stories and just kind of ride with him. I didn't give any motivation that I like him (of course may be he knows that's why he gave me some sexual hints.)
I know he was teasing me if I will get into his trap but I held back my self because I know what will be the consequences of my actions once I will bite his bait. I kind of weighed in that it's not worth it because I know it will ruin my life. So I still stayed on the safe side.
We went to lunch at Joey's BBQ Drive-In and I ordered 3 sliders and he ordered the sausage burger. We ate and talked a lot but not sexual anymore because of the crowd inside the restaurant.
I told him to get his school papers and apply for his NCLEX and I told him to study hard and pass it because I know he can do it. I also told him that he is smart but just lazy to study and he admitted it wholeheartedly.
I also asked him if he still has communications with his classmates and I asked him if he know those who passed the board. He told me that he has still communications with some of them and he told me couple people who passed the board. Our converstaion was so serious inside the reataurant and it was a good and very interactive one not a sexual talk.
When we finished eating he agreed to drive me back to school and while driving, in the car, he went back again telling me some of those sexual stories. There, I snapped and can't control my boiling emotions and told him eye-to-eye and with conviction about what I am feeling at that moment.
I told him honestly that he was a nice guy and that I liked him a lot but I do not want him to tease me putting me in an awkward and bad position and thought of him as a sexual object. I told him that I wanted him to be my friend.... a best friend...... that I can rely with and not a sexual friend. I also told him that I respected his opinions and that if he doesn't want me to be his friend then it is also okay for me and I will respect it.
He stopped telling me sexual stories and he stopped the car and apologized to me. He also told me that he respected me a lot as a teacher and that I am his best teacher and that he likes the fact that I respect him. He told me that it is okay for me to be his best friend also and he asked me a tight and warm friendly hug. He squeezed me hard and then he started the car and drop me off at school.
Whew! That was the start of a good friendship and I am happy that I held my calm at that moment. Have I took advantaged of him.... may be another outcome was been transpired. Life can be a bitch sometimes, you don't know what will happen.
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