Bad Habits

Well, I have this problem every now and then. And I've been brushing it off sometimes because I am just plain lazy to do it not realizing that the problem has already disrupted my peace of mind. In short I am procrastinating because I was just tired from work to do it.

My car tires especially the one on the front left was been flat on and off and I have been putting air at least every two weeks since six months ago. I had it checked with Jiffy Lube and the Toyota Dealer where I bought my car and they both say there's nothing wrong with the tires. I believed them because they were the experts but I was still wondering why I still have to put more air every two weeks.

Now that it's 2012, it was been frequent for me putting air on it like every week at least. I was so worried and I am planning to go back to the dealer to have it changed. Still I cannot do it because I was been very busy lately. I hope my procrastinating won't backfire later on.

Today, I saw my tire halfway flat again and I am planning to put air but I changed my mind because I have to go to the beauty parlor to appear for my facial sessions. I have to stay at the parlor for two hours for the sessions eating up my time and had no chance to put air on the flat tire at all. I fell asleep at the table and had totally forgotten about the flat tire.

Then by the time I went out from the parlor it was already dark and I passed by the Goodwill Store to buy something for my bathroom and then went to CVS Pharmacy to buy some batteries for my hearing aids. When I left CVS it was already dark and rush hour and traffic was already thick.

I was planning to skip putting air on the tire when I realized that I will be having a clinical rotation tomorrow in Gardena and I have to drive on the freeway in the morning. It will be a long drive from my house and I don't want something will happen to me at the freeway. It still bothers me driving with a partially flat tire on the freeway today and I don't want to feel like that tomorrow.

Despite of my fatigue and tiredness my worries about the flat tire surfaced and bothered me so I decided to pass by the nearby gasoline station and convenient store near the house. I realized that I needed a peace of mind once I do it. And hopefully next week I can have it changed at the car dealership.

I know I have a bad habit of procrastinating and it really bothers me a lot all the time despite how organized I am. I felt that I was a person without a system in my daily routines, chores, errands, etc. It scares me a lot.

Well, I know I have to change this habit greatly yet I am not fully committed to do it because of a lot of circumstances happening to hinder it but I know I have to curtail it before it will ruin me or affect me greatly. May be it is time to listen to my gut feeling so that I can achieve a peace of mind in everything I do.

Good luck to me for doing it and I hope it will happen and I will be 100% fully committed to do it despite of some unpredictable or inevitable circumstances. Well, it will be a challenge but I know I have to do it no matter what.

Aaah... this is killing me and I am not sure if I am fully committed for this. I can't promise here because I know myself when it comes to promises. And hopefully, upon realizing the effects of procrastination this will have to stop. And this will be the start. So help me God.....